Aman's Blog....

I am feeling so much sad and alone today. I just can't say it enough how much though! I saw some one in my family crying today, someone who did so much all of her life despite all the odds, all the issues , all the obstacles. She did truly more than what possibly could be done for all of us. And today she cried again thinking about all of us. I tried my best to make sure that she won't cry and get relieved from her worries. And the worse part is that her biggest worry is me! Besides having this extreme feeling of sadness, am feeling so much alone too! There is just one person whom I told the stuff which no one else knows sitting in the tea house of an airport. Some one who promised me to take care of that lady around whom my whole existence revolves. That day, when I opened my self and shared those things with that person, I really felt so relieved, so strong. But it was just an illusion. I just wish it was a reality. But its not and am just sitting here all alone with no one...

I am a big fan of good poetry. I am not a poet myself  but where ever I do find anything good written, I try to collect and share it. Surely enough, my first preference would always be Punjabi poetry. But there is no such thing that I wont read from any where else. Whatever is good, I try to make sure that I don't miss it! There are some poets which have created history with their writings. Late Ahmed Faraz is among those handful which wrote timeless pieces from his pen. Saying anything about him would like showing torch to the sun. So without wasting any more time, I would like to share a poetic masterpiece from him which I read today only and instantly fell in love with it. This is in Hindi and I shall translate it English in a while. Please note, this does has lots of words from Urdu as well.I shall put the meanings of those words in the end of both Hindi and English versions. First, in Hindi, Dost ban kar bhi nahin saath nibhane wala, Wohi andaaz hai jaalim ka jamane...

I strongly believe that one must do things for others, anything which can help anyone in the least possible manner even, must be done! Though I have so many things in my mind which I want to do, I am not yet able to do them all, thanks to the other issues that are going along with me. But I believe one must have his wishes strongly kept in his heart, rest , whenever they can be put into action, it doesn't matter. And today was the day when one of those wishes of mine got completed. Its a killing summer which is going on here in my place. There are no rains so far and as per the predictions of weather department, the chances of monsoon coming in, are also not so bright. The temperature is shooting up to even 47/48 degrees even! With this killing hot weather and no rain, its nearly impossible or very tough for anyone to move out on the roads. And those who has to go out for their work, all they want is water to quench their thirst. In Punjab, there is a tradition of arranging Chhab...

I got back today morning. There was another program which got scheduled but some how, things went to another track and I got a chance to get back home and another trainer was called for the program. I already had my ticket booked so that's this whole confusion happened. But still, its okay. I am always happy to be back at home with my family so I guess, what ever happened , happened for good! The program went okay. Though I got some very good comments in the rating but still, I myself am not very happy from my rating. But over all, the delegates were smiling while leaving , asked for my email address , so I can say ( for the sake of saying ) that it went well! If you are reading this blog, you probably would have read it already that I am having extreme pain in my left ear. I am not sure what's the reason but it surely is killing me. I shall go to the doc tomorrow to get it checked up. The pain is so intense that due to that, I was fumbling even while speaking at times in the...

If you are thinking that what exactly the title means, well , that's what I could think of to explain what's going on. My left ear is having so much of pain since last 3 days. All was well until the time I woke up on this Sunday and felt this terrible pain in my left ear. I had no idea what's going on and I just thought that it would be fine on its own. I having a weekend off so I thought , it would be just fine. I had to start a session on this Monday and the pain was terrible so I was just praying that it would go fine by that time. Well, too bad that I just did pray and didn't go and see any doc and the result of that is that now since last 2 days, the pain has become unbearable. I am having so much of it that at times, it was nearly impossible to say a word even in the session. My friend Pavan told me that may be the pain is due to that cold which is still not ready to leave me, even when its already about almost a month since the first time it had hit me. Not sure ...

I am not sure why it does happen that some people are just so heartless to see anything beyond themselves? They don't really care what it feels when due to their acts, some one may have lost his smiles for forever and become dead while being alive. For them, all what matter is that which is good for them. If some one even gets tears for life time, it just doesn't matter to them. I have a friend here. I shall not put the name of him. He is one of those guys who I truly see as a nice and cheerful person, some one who I would love to be a friend with and would look forward to spend time together. He is so much popular every where. You can imagine from this that there is a tea stall, even that guy knows and admires his cheerful nature. When I met him for the first time about 2 years ago, I found him the same as I was few years back. There is nothing that I am putting here in praise of mine ( I hate to say anything good about me) but its true, I know it and those who know me past ...

I just got this quote in a text message sent to me. Needless to say that I loved it that's why thought to share it with you. Please note, its just for a smile, there is no intention to disrespect any woman/gal from this. Here it goes, Good gals can be found in every corner of this earth! But.... Unfortunately, earth is round!

I just finished this week's session. It went really well. The delegates were really very nice and cooperative. I did this program for some professionals who are starting to be future oracle gurus but it was really great to see that all wanted to be knowledgeable professionals and not just another guy/gal who does work in the oracle database for making a living. We did discuss a lot of technical stuff but also I tried to share with them some of the things which I thought would help them grow , not just technically but also personally. I hope it works well for them and they all would become great oracle db technologists. All were smiling and asked for email address while leaving which is a good sign to tell that program went well. Just about the time when all left , it was me and one more delegate who left in the room. She had some issues in her db and I wanted to ensure that she has a running db so that she could do practice. When we were doing the installations and waiting for it t...

I am not sure why but I am just SO much tired. That much that I stopped the presentation of a tech web cast by Joel Goodman about Exadata. I don't know what's the reason for this but some how, some thing is wrong today. I didn't have lunch either, just had a piece of cheese sandwich with a glass of juice. I also finished my session too early, not that the time was there but some how, I just didn't have the strength in me to keep it running.  To make all the things, cough, cold , fever is some how not leaving me either. Am I upset, you bet! The only good thing is that the delegates are great and we are having an awesome time in the session. We faced an error with the Enterprise Manager and one of the delegates found the solution which entire audience used and got benefited, and I learned some thing new once again. So that's the only thing which is keep me moving I guess since the first day of the session's start. I shall be here only on this weekend , may be a lo...

I just got back from the session and writing this post sitting in my guest house room. I wanted to write the travel updates last evening but couldn't write for two reasons. One, the wi-if over the airport was somehow behaving really stupid ( check my tweets). Though I was getting the message that I am connected but some how , I didn't get any data received. So even I was free for 3 hours, I still couldn't  log in and write. When I got at the guest house, it was already 2am of morning. I did think for a moment to open the system and start writing and trust me , I did open the system too. But after checking mails for about 10 minutes, I just closed and went to sleep. I had to get up early so I thought that would be a better thing to do. Travel was almost okay. There was nothing exceptional which did happen up till the time when we were about 20 kms away from New Delhi, at which there was a thundering sound from the bus's engine. Driver immediately stopped the bus and op...

I am leaving tomorrow for a LONG tour. What I knew , from that I had an assumption that it would be for a week only but I was told today that its actually going to be much longer than just a week. Well not an issue of it being long but because I am not well, I am a bit worried. And other than my own health, there are few other things happening in the family which are not letting me sit peacefully. I just hope that all goes well both with the program and in the family. I have yet to put my clothes and books in the bag. My sis got me couple of mouth masks because the city I am going to, it has reported maximum number of Swine flu cases so far here in India. Did I mention that I am worried ? Time to pack some luggage!

At times, there are people who when write, have the capabilities to put words on the fire. There are not many who can depict the emotions of humans very nicely though many attempt to do so. And among all the emotions that a human can have, the toughest one to express is the sadness. You can show some one that you are just so much happy with your smiles but your tears too never reflect the true pain hidden beneath them. It takes a lot, really a lot to express pain of some one because one can only try to do so when he truly understands it! There are many writers in almost every language who have tried to do so and some have done a remarkable job too. In the same way, in Punjabi language too, there are always one or the other poet who try to give face to someone's pains through their poetry. While almost all try hard but only few have been able to do it in a rightful manner and Sukhwinder Amrit is one of those very few, who can make even stones cry with her words. Few months back, m...

If you have thought that I am going to mention about my health, you hit it spot on. My health is still the same and I have yet to recover from the fever, cold and cough which some how is not leaving me. I had to go to the doctor for a checkup but there is no one to take me to him and I myself don't have the strength to go , so I am just having the last prescription which I got from him. I had to go and get some tests done but I am not able to pull myself up and go for it. As I mentioned in the last post too that I need to travel on this Sunday so this is really becoming a matter of concern that how its going to be done? And just to make things really spicy, the place I am going , is some how the city where the maximum number of cases of Swine Flu are reported :) . Its really going to be a matter of concern at least now, right !

Are you surprised about the title of the post? Well, its just a rant about the cold, cough and fever from which I am suffering since last couple of days. And trust me, meeting  with an accident is much better than this and its coming from one who has "been there, done that" about 12 times now :) . I have not been able to sleep since last couple of days and also not able to do anything too. I have been listening to songs , watching movies and also reading lots of poetry.  I am at home so there are no issues at the moment, but I shall be traveling on this Sunday and that's a matter of concern. Hope I shall be at least okay by that time. Time now to have some hot tea and medicine.

Okay, I shall be honest, the title of the post is stolen from the article given below. I was initially thinking of putting this title, "One more joke from Apple, iPhone3G gets appended with S" but I thought it would be rather a bit rude. So here it is, the new shiny , crisp iphone with "S" added where S doesn't mean "many" but "more". Yes the "S" over here is Speed which according to Apple is going to make its 3giphone which was just 1 year back launched , more faster. Now, I won't worry about the new features added , like 3megpixel camera with auto-focus ( still no flash I guess), more fast speed, more ram and all that, why in the world Apple didn't do it in the first place when they launched? I am just thinking about those people who stood in the queues for the whole night to get their hands on 3g iphone. They must be banging their heads over the wall and asking that why the heck Apple launched a new , more bigger, faster ...

I didn't write from last few days because of sickness. There are couple of things which did happen in these days, I saw the true nature of the gals one more time, watch few movies but most of the time, I did rest. I shall be leaving this Sunday for my program( hope I shall be fine by that time ) so I guess, there is still some time for me to write about all this. If you are a regular here, you must be knowing that I do listen to music a lot. Its mostly in Punjabi but for me, anything which contains good lyrics is hearable. So this means, there are some other songs/bands/musicians beside the Punjabi ones whose work I do listen and enjoy. One group or I should say former group is NSYNC which gave couple of good numbers. Though the group is no more there and its lead singer, Justin Timberlake is doing pretty well in solo, still there are some songs from this group which I guess would never be outdated. One such song is the one which I am listening at the moment, Gone! This is one o...

I was told by Amardeep Sidhu last night that Microsoft Corp is going to launch some search engine of its own which is going to give very strong competition to the search engine leader, Google . Well, I didn't pay much attention to what he was saying last night because I was just so much tired. So I thought to look for the so-called-Google-killer search engine from MS today and I got introduced to Bing , a new search engine which , as per the press release , this is just not a search engine but its a, Decision Engine. Okay now that's an impressive name to put upon but names alone don't make some thing good. So I tried to look for some reviews about Bing and I got these two links, http://news.cnet.com/8301-17939_109-10251432-2.html http://www.wired.com/epicenter/2009/05/microsofts-bing-hides-its-best-features/ According to these, Bing, if not is the best , still is a good product. Now, I am not a search engine specialist so I really can't say that out of both, Goog...

I got back today morning. I wasn't supposed to come back in the morning actually because I initially planned to start actually in the morning. But I was told that things would become much worse in the morning so I started in the late night and got back at home in the morning. The program got finished, though not sure that how it went officially. I yet have to receive the official report so can't say that it went well/good/bad. But one thing I can say, the delegates were having smiles on their face when they were leaving so this is a good and satisfactory sign. I hope that the official report comes up well. This program was very crucial for two reasons. One, I had got a severe notification from my sales team that few of the last programs didn't go so well so this program must do well. And this increased the bar of tension to the top most level for me. I have delivered the same program couple of times before as well but all the times, the tension is the same. And this time,...

I couldn't write anything since I have come here. I did want to write some updates about the program but thanks to my fever, I am just getting dead tired and is going to bed immediately when I drop over the bed. The program is proving to be a tough one actually. One reason is the program itself as there are tons of things which need to be discussed in it. The audience is good as like always so it becomes more important for me that I must make sure that the program goes ell completely. Well, I am trying my best for it. But despite all of the good intentions, the very start of the program itself went into the dark when I figured out that my monitor is not showing the display. Its a very simple resolution problem which actually gets resolved very easily by logging in from another remote terminal. But its working over here at all. I did try a lot but than left the hope. Now, I have asked the tech team to check it and I just hope that they would do some thing about it. The only thing ...

I am leaving again today in the afternoon. Its not going to be long tour and also, its not happening much far from my home. Any travel which doesn't need me to fly is actually not far for me as now, I don't consider 7/8 hours of bus journey anything. There is still a minor issue though that I am not feeling well and trust me, if you are not well and traveling, its just makes it more worse. Hope I won't collapse in the mid of the session :-) . I know that the program is going to be tough because of the talk that I had with my sales person. Let's see how it goes? Hope it goes well and gets finished without any issues/news being created. Pray for me guys and wish me luck. Really need it! I mentioned that I shall be writing a movie review. I wanted to do it yesterday but some how, was just too much upset thinking over some series of events in the past and the most recent one which did happen yesterday. So I just didn't do anything for the whole day. I shall be doing i...