Aman's Blog....

So an another year is on the verge of being over and another new year is knocking on the door. Its that time of the year again to say goodbye to the old one and welcoming the new one with the open arms with a hope that it would bring a lot of happiness, success and good health for all of us. I am not feeling well at the moment, thanks to a stupid driver who knocked me off over the road while driving his car and talking over his cell phone. Anyways, that’s not a very new thing to happen with me isn’t it ? This year, 2011, has given me some joys and memories which I shall cherish all of my life. I can’t say that how happy  I was in the month of May when my sister got married! God has been kind to all of us that she has got to such a good family. But at the same time, this year has given me the worst of the pains and cries as well, something for which I can’t do anything except just keeping myself quite and pretending to act strong. Not just for me, but this year has given to all in my

I just read the below line and it just shook me up! How can one write in such few words such a pain, that’s just beyond my imagination! Have a read, Usne ponchhe hi nahin ashq meri aankhon se, Maine khud ro kar bahot der hasaya tha jise! And its meaning in English is, She didn’t wipe tears off from my eyes, for whom I cried so much to make her smile! Yes, that’s a hard, painful truth of this life and of the people of this world! In this world, people have no time to care about someone else’s happiness, smiles, pains or tears because its actually important and required to be “practical” for them to achieve their own goals first, make their own dreams of a better career, study in abroad etc to come true. Anything and anyone else doesn’t matter in all this!

I started writing this post in my last visit to Thailand, which happened few days ago. I still couldn’t finish it. So whenever  I could sit for some time, I tried to write and finally, brought the post to an end. I haven’t checked it for any typos and/or other mistakes. I shall finish the reading of it again some other time and shall do any corrections too if needed. I am sitting here in my class room at Oracle’s Thailand office at Crowne Plaza after finishing my session, wondering what I should be feeling, happiness that I finished the session with EXTREMELY good rating or sad since thinking that I won’t be able to share the news with my dad like I always did today(and ever) . Just the same thing that I have in my mind for the year 2011, not sure should I be happy about it or should I mark it as one of the saddest years of my life, a year in which my dad has left me and my family for forever and has gone to that God whom he prayed and worshipped all his life, who didn’t even give

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I just happened to read the below two lines and right away, it just hit on my heart so hard that I immediately thought to share them right away. Have a read, Us ki khwahish thi ke meri aankhon mein paani dekhe, Main us waqt se aansuon ka sailab liye firta hoon!   And its translation in English is, She had a wish that she could see water in my eyes, I wander around carrying an ocean of tears since that time!   Nothing to say, nothing to add except one word, awesome or may be two, true !

Its been quite some time that I have mentioned any song over here. To be honest, I didn’t bother about any since the past few days. Though there has been a burst of new songs all the times but there is one which I really liked. I have felt so often that when you are sad and all broken from inside, all of a sudden you hear something which somehow expresses very closely what you are feeling and also, makes you sit and think millions of the thoughts. The same happened with just now when I heard the latest song from Amrinder G ill (you can also check this wikipedia link ) Judaa ! I saw a promo of it over a music channel and after that, I was so keen to listen the complete song and was blown away when I did hear it! Amrinder Gill needs no introduction. I have met him personally over Bombay airport couple of years back and had spent about 2 hours. Besides being a very good singer, he is a very simple human being as well. I have already mentioned his song Afwah in this blog post . The song

I am sitting at my home at the moment. Last night had been so very tough, more than I can express. I am not sure that why life has to be so tough, what’s so wrong I have done with anyone, to that god that he has opened a box full of troubles/issues for me and it seems, he has just completely forgotten about doing so too! I am not writing often at the moment. If you are  a regular here, you would  have an indication that things are not all well by my side. Actually, that’s a pretty simplistic statement to make. The more appropriate statement would be that at moments, I am just unable to handle what’s going on? As I had mentioned already somewhere, I have got a draft post lying in my folder which would tell the reason of my of current state. Though I had started writing it few days back when I left out for a travel . I have written few words but I think I have left more than I have said. I, somehow, can’t sit and complete that post in one go. Yes, I am trying but every time, I am sitti

I believe, it won’t be any new thing if I shall mention that I am not feeling well, both physically and mentally. People are coming and telling me that God gives tough times to test your strength and patience and after tough times only, good times come. Well, I am not sure that I am anymore willing to know the results of this so called test of God because I believe, in my case, he is conducting this damn test from last 30 years and I yet have to see either the result of it or the arrival of so-called “good times” . Rather than these two, I just wish I can meet God and can ask him some questions whose answers are long due with him and I am sure, he will be having tough time to explain the answers. Though I am not in a good mood at all but still, this post is not going to be about either the upset mood of mine or about the reason(s) behind it. I have started writing it already in my last travel. I couldn’t complete it at that time because it was becoming impossible for me to control my

I am sitting here in front of the system from more than an hour now. All I have done so far is to write about 3-4 lines and then deleted them and rewrote them again, that’s all! Somehow, am just not able to do two things, one, find the right words to put across and second, stop the tears which just start dropping, at the start of the first sentence even and I can’t cry, haven’t at all even when I want to so very very much, still didn’t cry at all! Reason? Because I am at home right now and I can’t make the conditions more worse than what they are right now with me showing tears in my eyes. I promised myself that I won’t cry just for this very reason only and that God(if he is there anywhere in real, some thing which I really doubt about now) is my witness if none else that I truly didn’t and neither have talked/shared with anyone what is going on in my mind and heart and how much upset, sad and broken I am feeling, even haven’t said this that just give me shoulder to rest my head and l

I haven’t posted anything on my blog since last 22 days. Even when I do, its not some world changing thoughts but snippets of my thoughts and excerpts of my life. I have got some emails from few readers asking me that since there is no update, am I alright and is everything fine by my side? Well, first of all, I never did know that there would be few people from around the world, who would even notice this for a blog like mine and would be concerned about my well being! All I can say is thanks for showing this much concern, it means so much to me! And about me being okay, I am not sure about that but yes, I am still alive and hopefully soon enough, I shall update the blog with the reason of my silence but not sure when, to be honest!

I am sitting here in my hotel room right now. Its weekend and though yesterday, I was at my friend’s place, I came back to my hotel as I had to finish an exam which would be conducted for the delegates after the end of the session. Since morning, I had been working on it and its over now. I am personally not in favor of such exams and that too right after the end of the session but since its a boot camp program, a test is mandatory to know the progress that the delegates has made. Hope they would be doing good in it and as I told them, I haven’t made it an easy one. Hope the delegates won’t curse me after seeing it! They are really good and its so good to see such bright individuals starting their careers and what more better can be than being with them, even just for a while in the starting of this long journey contributing a little from my side with whatever little I know, isn’t it! Since I am done with the preparation of the test, there is nothing much to do at the moment for me.

Yes, its Dussehra a.k.a Vijayadashami today and I wish to all who would be celebrating it with their family, friends and colleagues. Have a great time today, lots of sweets and enjoy. Unfortunately, I am traveling and miles away from my home sitting all alone here so there is nothing much that I can do except going for a coffee(having it too much now a days I guess) and may be watching some movie(s) on tv when will be back in my hotel room. And the worst part, I can’t see much of the celebrations happening here as well. I guess I must stop the whining now and get back to work. Once again, happy Dussehra to all of you!

Its the day when this world has lost an inventor, a genius, someone who truly changed the world by his inventions. someone whose ideology I follow by heart like millions others of this world. This is the sad day when we have lost Steve Jobs , a loss that is never going to be filled by anyone else. Rest and peace Steve Jobs and be assured that you are going to be missed by this entire world! There is nothing that can be said to describe how great Steve Jobs was but still, this article depicts the best of his life and about him, have a read. http://www.wired.com/epicenter/2011/10/jobs/all/1

I was supposed to do some shopping for several incoming festivals (not for me though) yesterday. Since I am leaving today, I had to finish this task before starting the travel. I know couple of store’s managers (out of which few are friends too) , so this small shopping task serves two purposes, I get to meet them and also get some good stuff as they help me in telling that what I should buy and what not. I was supposed to buy different types of clothes so I went to couple of stores. After getting done from the rest of the shopping, I went to one last store to look for some casual wear. The sales manager lady there is my friend . In fact, the entire staff is very good to me.  They always tell me that they are so delighted when I come there and that’s NOT because I buy tons of stuff. Those who know me, they are aware about this that its very rare that I shall be showing a sad face irrespective of how much upset or sad I may be and I was(still am) very upset yesterday. Its very difficult

There are so many things that I want to do and there are so many wishes that I have in the heart but, not for me, for others! For me, I don’t want anything, don’t wish anything except one thing which I want to happen ASAP but despite trying twice for it, I couldn’t get it for me. Anyways, leaving me aside, there are certain things about which I haven’t told to anyone  but I really hope that I would be able to get them done before I close my eyes for forever. What are those wishes,  I won’t mention but they all mean so much to me. And may be because I really wished about it so much, I finally got a chance to do a small bit of it! My friend Porus Homi Hawevala is involved in lots of charities and is associated with lots of charities and NGO’s. He suggested to donate some money to open a bore-well, an effort done by an NGO Chaitanya Educational and Rural Development Society . They open these bore-wells and quench the thirst of some 30 families in small villages which otherwise won’t ge

There is a lot of good stuff that people say about women, gals and with all due respect to women, gals, I am sure it must be true! But when it comes to guys, all what I hear most is just the bad stuff. I myself had posted a blog post about secrets about guys which gals must know . I just received the below text in the email and I think its really a good write-up. That’s why I thought I shall share it here. Have a look and read, I believe, each and every word of is so true! Its rare that a guy would ever reveal what he has really done for any one, especially for his gal but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t deserves respect! Guys cry too, its just that they don’t do it like gals but while sitting alone in the corner of their hiding their face or while sitting on a bench in a park all alone! Yes, guys have emotions too, remember it!

I have reached but not at my home. There has been a change of plan as I am stuck up in the mid of few planned but not-yet-scheduled programs. And because of it, I decided to stay at Delhi at my friend Sidhu’s place. There is a vacation trip that Sidhu, Ankit , Neeraj and Vaibhav are going to and I so want to join them but not sure that whether it will happen or not. Anyways, I just had my breakfast and after checking emails and other stuff, will look out what’s going to happen finally, hope it would happen in the way we all want!

Marc Anthony needs no introduction! The guy has sung some songs which have become like a milestone and one such song is, When I Dream At Night . I am listening to it right now and from past many years, Here are the lyrics of it, I have been in love And been alone I have traveled over many miles To find a home There's that little place Inside of me That I never thought could Take control of everything But now I just spend all my time With anyone Who makes me feel The way she does Chorus: cause I only feel alive When I dream at night Even though she's not real It's all right cause I only feel alive When I dream at night Every move that she makes Holds my eyes And I fall for her every time I've so many things I want to say I'll be ready when The perfect moment Comes my way I had nev

I just finished my session here  and have come back to my guest house. Session went well and though few delegates found it hard to cope with the module’s toughness, all appreciated it in general and mentioned that they did like it so much! All the delegates were very friendly and eager to learn the module. One thing, which I would always remember that all took the snaps of the explanation that I gave on the whiteboard . Now, if I shall be asked, I would say that it was of no use but still, I felt so happy to see it happening! All left with a smile on their face and all asked for my email and phone number(which I gladly gave) showing a clear sign that they all liked the session! Thanks to all the delegates for coming to the session and I hope it was productive for them! Its time now to start getting ready for the travel back to home. I was going to have some free time (not much but just 4 days) but seems that would not be happening anymore as I just got a call for another program star

I am sitting here in my office room right now and as usual, I came quite early to the office. There is nothing to do in the guest house’s room and its better to  come here and check emails, OTN forums and also, have a cup of coffee. Its still 8:40am only at the moment and I was thinking while sitting in my cab, about Chandigarh where I stayed this Sunday before taking my flight from there to Hyderabad, a place which has a deep place within me. Many don’t know that I had stayed at Chandigarh for few months as well. I was working in my home town, at a very esteemed institute from where I got the initial training of Oracle database and got the honor of being selected there only as a member of staff, something which never happened for any student of it before. I was the first and last one who was offered by the management to join there, something over which I am still so proud because getting a job in that institution was considered a matter of big pride back in those days since it was

Two not-of-any-use trivia's told to me by my colleague. One, there is a street on my name here, Jalan Aman and two, in the office, there is a meeting hall whose name is also Aman ! Okay, going to get ready now.

Finally, I have finished this week’s session of mine and I am happy to say that it went well too. It was a tiring week but still, at the end, it feels nice to light that bulb on the delegate’s head and to hear from them that they did like the delivery and also the instructor. All the delegates were really so friendly, especially two who really made the entire week’s sessions very lively. And all of them were very eager to learn the module even when it wasn’t going to be used in their day to day work and the best part is that they did mention that this session has helped them in understanding this technology more clearly and now they are feeling more confident to talk to their actual, hard-core database staff who actually handles all of the stuff that we discussed. All of them had a smile on their face and few, also asked for my email id,two confirmed signs that they did like the session. And also, in the official rating, there were couple of very kind comments about me along with, prob

There is no particular reason for this post but I just thought to put it together when I read the announcements on the Google’s blog about the new updates they have done among a major one that now Google+ is free for all! And just at the same time, I got an email from Facebook about a change that they have started to put about the notification emails. So reading about all this, I just thought that I shall put my thoughts about the two company’s battle here. I am in my session but my delegates are busy finishing their lab practices and I have some time free with me so here it goes! Apple ’s Steve Jobs said that year 2011 is going to be the year of iPad2 . No, I haven’t yet bought it and I have no plans to buy it at the moment too. Yes, I am planning(really seriously) to buy a new laptop because my current one has started giving me issues like BSOD . It also has become very old and I must get a new one now. I hope I shall get one soon(fingers crossed) but iPad is not something that I a

At times, even when you are so much sensible, you still act so naive! That’s the same what I did today! If you have been a regular over here, you must be knowing that I am traveling at the moment to an overseas location. I have written a little about this location and my relation with it in some previous posts. One thing that I have mentioned couple of times is that I haven’t traveled here, except for the last and this travel, for any professional reasons. I haven’t (and won’t) mentioned  for what other reasons I came here because those reasons matter and are important only to me and not to anyone else. So don’t bother asking about them and that’s not the point of this post as well. I might have written a little (or more, whatever) about my travel here but one thing that I haven’t mentioned ever that whenever I came here, a sound of door knock(yes, a door knock) is what I have waited to hear all the time. That sound always brought up a smile on my face, a true and genuine smile whi

Yes, its traveling time once again and it would be an overseas trip. If you are a regular here, you already must be aware that I finished a session today only and I desperately needed some rest but instead of that, I shall be traveling tomorrow only for this program. Normally, I start on Sunday but since its an overseas trip, I need to travel tomorrow only, not something that I really would like to do after a long and tiring session but work is work and there are no choices in it! It wasn’t confirmed that I am going or not. I was in my session today when I got the email of confirmation and details of other logistic stuff. Where I am going? Well, to one of those two destinations for which first, I fought that I must be sent there, then stepped back (got taunts, insults, became an epicenter of jokes) myself and then sent again there! This is the place where I have been so many times already. In fact, this is the place which was my travel destination when I stepped out from my home for

I have just come back home. Though it was a HUGE rainfall but somehow, I managed to get home without getting wet(got my share of being wet yesterday only). I shall be leaving for an overseas trip tomorrow only which means there is no time for sit back and enjoy but about that will be in a subsequent post. This one is about the program that I just finished today. If you are a regular here, you must have read the last post in which I had mentioned that how tough it is going for me in the current program to handle things. And nothing which I was struggling to control was related to my skills! I don’t manage (I don’t have to) logistics but because they play a huge role especially when you are not standing face-to-face in front of the delegates! Think about it that when the only mode of connectivity is internet(it was an online session) and that itself stops working, what would be the mental status of the delegates and when you can’t do anything about it, how would you feel about it? That