Aman's Blog....

I have just come back home. Though it was a HUGE rainfall but somehow, I managed to get home without getting wet(got my share of being wet yesterday only). I shall be leaving for an overseas trip tomorrow only which means there is no time for sit back and enjoy but about that will be in a subsequent post. This one is about the program that I just finished today. If you are a regular here, you must have read the last post in which I had mentioned that how tough it is going for me in the current program to handle things. And nothing which I was struggling to control was related to my skills! I don’t manage (I don’t have to) logistics but because they play a huge role especially when you are not standing face-to-face in front of the delegates! Think about it that when the only mode of connectivity is internet(it was an online session) and that itself stops working, what would be the mental status of the delegates and when you can’t do anything about it, how would you feel about it? That...

It was a very rainy day today and after a long time, I got completely drenched in rain while going to work. It would be a lot of fun to see it happening had it been a normal day but I was working and that took away the entire fun. On top of it, the work is also getting effected by the reasons that are not in my control and there is nothing else which makes me more upset than feeling helpless. I am handling a web-conferencing session. The module, like all the other modules which I have taken so far, is very tough but being virtual for the delegates and they being invisible to me(they can see me, I can’t see them), the word “tough” has touched just another level! And to make matters more worse, there has been TONS of issues coming up since the first day of the session! I can control my own delivery, the way I do explain things, I understand and make understand others the topic but if there is network drop happening all of a sudden making my voice disappear for the delegates, for this, ...

Ahmad Faraz needs no introduction. He is among the most respected poets that this world has ever got! I have already posted few of poetic masterpieces over here and today, I read another short but an excellent poetry penned by him and thought to share. Though these are just two lines but the depth of the thought mentioned in them is just mind-blowing. Have a read, Chala tha zikar jamane ki bewafai ka, So aa gaya tumhara khyal waise hi!   And it’s translation in English is, A talk got started about the world being treacherous, Thoughts of you struck in the mind just like that!   How deep the thought it is, I leave it over you to figure out! Hats off to Faraz, once again!

I came back home yesterday after a tiring travel. I did travel the same distance that I cover up all the time but may be, not being well actually did make the journey more longer. But still, I made it to home and I believe, I shall be at home for another 5 days, I am just happy! Health is still the same(probably a little more messed up now because I didn’t take rest yesterday) but that’s okay given the fact that I did have a little fun yesterday. In my last travel, when I was at Banglore, laundry people tore apart one of my favorite shirt. Though the hotel management did got me the shirt’s cost refunded and also returned me the torn apart shirt too(not sure what I am going to do with it though) , I still needed to buy one now. So I got one from M & S . One of my colleagues(who is also my teacher) always complains that I mostly have Blue colored shirts only and I believe this also is the same :-) . Well, I think its still nice and moreover, its not the usual check or stripe ...

Its the 10th day of the continuous working for me and I am just so glad that I shall be having some free time to get relaxed from tomorrow. I really need some time at home to get my self a little more calm and free from anger, being upset, feelings that I have from the last few days. Besides that, I am not feeling well at all and that’s what also needs to be taken care of as I am having a session at overseas coming up in just a few days and that would be the worst thing if I shall get to travel being sick and remain in the same way while being away from home. The last session, which did happen at Gurgaon, probably was one of the best ones for me. I really really love to be at Delhi and the other places and its just unfortunate that I don’t get much chances to be there. But whatever chance I get, I try not to miss it and always, its an amazing experience for me. The ambience of the place, food, delegates of my session, all just make the whole experience so nice and worthwhile! That’s ...

Its Saturday evening but there is no weekend for me and in fact, there is not going to be any rest for me either coming up as I shall be working even tomorrow and straight from here, I shall be leaving towards my next destination. I expected to have some rest in the 3rd week but now, it doesn’t seem to be happening. And after that, I am asked to go to a place where I have vowed NEVER to step in and that too for a long time. I guess, if this all can’t be considered enough to burn someone out, nothing else can be! I really need to take some rest and catch my breathe, hope it happens soon!

I haven’t written anything since I have come back and now, when I thought that I shall put together this small post, its time for me to leave again tomorrow. Yes, my short holiday at home is over tomorrow and I shall be back on the road. Tiring but work is work and with work only, everything is there so its okay, I can’t complain. The packing is almost done and besides it, I have finished couple of other small but important tasks as well. Fortunately, I shall be at a location where I don’t get to go often but it is one of my favorite ones. Hope the program also would be going fine. Though I have given the expression that its going to be yet another travel related post of mine but its not. Actually, its about a conversation that I had with someone when was coming back to home this time from Chandigarh in the bus. A conversation which made me feel happy, proud and yet, sad and hurt! I have a habit(not sure good or bad) to talk to anyone and not really boasting off but if the person is ...

This last week’s session was probably among the most toughest ones that I have ever taken and believe me when I say this, at some moments, I had sweat on my forehead sitting in a centrally air-conditioned facility! The delegates were really really good, super smart and also, very knowledgeable about the module. And I must add, very friendly and co-operative as well! I am sure at some moments, I really had to pull it through but they still were with me and I believe, that’s only possible because they were supportive. Though it was very grueling session for me( I am having severe headache since last 3 days and I am taking tablets like candies with no effect) but today evening, when we finished, besides the usual sign of a smile on their face, one of the delegates mentioned that it was a nice session and few asked my email address and I just got convinced that a very tough week came to a happy ending. Though it was tough but I must say, it was a big time learning experience for me and tha...

I had been on bed from the last two hours doing something or the other then stopping and trying to sleep but nothing seems to be working out. It was a long, tiring day, enough to make me feel dead when I got back and may be this wasn’t enough because now, to complete the torture, headache has come too! I have taken a tablet for the medicine for the headache a while ago but it doesn’t seem to be doing anything. Its 1:20am when I am writing this and sitting like this is something which I just hate so much because this lonely brings tons of thoughts to my mind which just make me so much upset thinking over some things said and done by some people! And when it happens, it just turns an otherwise calm and quite Aman to a red hot burning Aman! So what you do when you are not able to sleep, have a bloody upset mind and a damn headache? Well, nothing but random stuff like listening to stupid songs, read some random stuff on various (tech) websites and also, read some poetry! So here is one w...

At times, at the most odd places, you get to hear/view things which force you to sit back and think. At times, these things bring a smile but most of the times, they bring tears only. The same happened with me this time when I was sitting on the airport this time while sitting on the airport. I was at Bombay airport this time because I had to take a transit flight from there to Banglore. While sitting in the waiting lounge, I overheard the talk of two Ounjabi guys who were sitting on the chairs behind me. They were talking about a gal with whom one of them was in love and as like always, was in pain because of it. He was telling to his friend that how she doesn’t care at all to pick his calls and also to answer back when he leaves a message or a miss call and tells him that she couldn’t because she was so much busy. How she never bothers to see that whether he is sad or happy or whatever and is just lost in her own things all the time! He told his friend that it hurts him so much whe...

Okay, so its Saturday here, a weekend but I was working and just came back to my hotel room. I am tired, I am sleepy but I am happy too because the session went really well and my rating, though is not the highest that one can get but is VERY close it as well! Since I never did mention it before as well, I won’t mention the actual scores now too but its very pleasing and I am really thankful to all the delegates for being so kind! The session started off with on a very delayed note. I make sure that I reach at the venue at any cost, before 9am. This time too, I was at the venue at about 8:30am. Its normal for the delegates to be late on the first day but they all show up by 10am for sure(we start at 9:30am in India and 9am at overseas). but this time, there was no one who showed up till 9:30am. At 9:30, only one delegate came and after that, at about 9:45, another one showed up and that’s about it! There was no one who came after that! at about 10:30am, another delegate came. It was ...

Yes, I know the title sounds familiar to you(I won’t mention with whom, go figure :-) ) but that’s the best I could think of since this is about the complete travel of mine rather than of either going to or coming back from the tour. And I wish to all Indians worldwide who celebrated Raksha Bandhan yesterday. I wanted to say it yesterday only but I reached home yesterday itself and I was DEAD tired. But all said and done, I am still very happy that I could make it to home (even for just two days)  and was able to spend time with my mom, dad and my sis. Its the first  Raakhi after her wedding and I so wanted to make sure that I won’t miss it and fortunately, I didn’t! This travel of mine was probably among those tours which were the shortest in time. I went for just two days. But being short in duration didn’t make it less exciting. Right from the beginning of it, it was full of excitement and the icing on the cake was that the session did go so very well! The delegates, tho...

Today is International Friendship Day , a day to cherish your friends and their friendship, to tell them that they mean so much to you and its their presence that makes your life meaningful! All the relations which one has in his life are given to him but friends and love are two which one chooses by himself and if any one out of two gives a bad taste, it hurts much more than words can say! So on this day, do not just tell your friends that how good they are for you but make sure that you take care that you don’t leave a bad taste in their mouth ever and be there with them all the time when they need someone! This world is a place where people prefer to be selfish, practical and care much more for their own dreams, wishes and aspirations than caring for others and their feelings/emotions/cries and tears. Do not do that if you call your self friend of someone. I wish all of you a very happy and friendship day! And just in case, this question is popping in your mind that whether I beli...

I just received this as a text and as I said, its simple, short, true but not a sweet one liner! Have a read, When you love someone more than they deserve… you will end up more hurt than what you deserve! Isn’t it just what’s the title is saying?

The last week’s session, I don’t know why but was something that I can’t say that I really liked. Nothing wrong with the module or with the delegates but its with me only I guess. I was kind of burned out after a LONG travel and may be, the sickness of mine also contributed to it. Yeah, I am not feeling well, severe stomachache which started two days ago out of nowhere and fever(which is now, after a day at home, a little better) which just made the last two days of the session and my travel, completely messed up. But still, one thing which made the session completely successful was that the delegates were happy when left and they had a smile on their face, a good sign always to tell that you did well. Thanks so much guys for the kind words and for your cooperation. I hope I did say something which was useful for you and you would be able to use the things we discussed in your work productively. A big thanks once again to be there and listen to me :-) . The travel back to home was al...

Well, first a quick travelogue which in fact, I started writing when I was at home for a night on this Saturday. I had a really tiring travel for the whole day and reached home at about  9:30pm. Though it was so good to be back home after so many days, even if it was only for a night but I was a little sad too as I was leaving just the next very morning. It was a tiring, in fact, really tiring travel but you got to do what you got to do so here I am, sitting in my hotel room writing this quick post about two small moments of happiness which did come today. If you are a regular here, you must be aware that I spent the last week traveling overseas and it wasn’t a place where I was very keen to travel. But those who know me, they are well aware of the fact that if I am out for something, I shall give it my best even if I am upset, sick, whatever! I had my mind going crazy sittig there thinking tons of things but I tried to stay as much focused as I could for the program. Though I go...

I have just finished my session here at Malaysia. I started writing this post when I was still sitting in the training room only but then I got busy talking to another, local instructor lady C who also attended my session as an observer. All the delegates of my session have gone out for a movie or site seeing but I am going to stay inside my room only because one) I have no one to go with me and two and important one) I don’t want to go at all. So I am just sitting now on my hotel room desk and writing it. As I mentioned already, it was a very tiring week for me and though, I was going to write about some things, like the questions that I was asked which I didn’t answer either completely or just dodged them with my skills but I couldn’t do it at all. Anyways, I am done with the session and I hope that I shall get some time to finish this post and write about almost everything that I can put here. But first thing first and for which I came here in the first place or I should say, I was ...

I am sitting in my training room right now. Its been  very tiring last few days. That’s why I couldn’t write anything. I shall see if I shall get some time to write about some of the questions that I was asked in this session(non-technical ones). Its lunch time and I haven’t gone out(neither did yesterday and the other day) for it nor would be going for the next two days. I even haven’t gone out at all after my session from my hotel anywhere. All I would do, finish my session, lock myself in the room. Don’t ask why! Anyways, this post is a relatively quick one and is about a small poetic masterpiece that I have just read. I mentioned few days back that I shall be posting two posts, one about two videos that I had seen on YouTube which brought tears in my eyes and another about a poetic masterpiece from Debi Makhsoospuri which again brought tears to my eyes. I shall write about both because watching both did brought immense pain to the heart. The poetry that I read today, just now,...

Okay, so I have reached the place, the same place where I have travelled already 4 times and sitting in my hotel room. I am at The Gardens Hotel . Its a different hotel from the one where I stayed few years back. Well, this post is not about what I mentioned here . May be some time later tonight or tomorrow, I shall write about it. This post is unrelated to it but is about very kind words that one very close friend sent text to me after reading a very old post on my blog that it’s really good and reading it brought tears in the eyes. I am just so touched by hearing that someone did like it so much! Thanks you, thank you so very much, it means a lot to know that few people still exist in this world full of “practical” people, who understand the depth of that write-up and the true meaning behind it. And in case you are wondering which post it is, well its a series of posts, linked to each other. If you are interested to read, here is the link to the first part which would link further...

I shall be moving towards an overseas travel tomorrow. Well, what’s new in this you may ask and the answer is nothing actually! But what’s slightly different is that its one of those locations for which I have vowed not to step into. I won’t mention the reason and/or the details. Its official now and is decided so I can’t do anything about it now and moreover, I have faced enough insults, taunts in the past many times for first asking for certain assignments and then going ahead and saying that  I won’t be going for it and the irony is, no one, even those for whom I did do all those naive acts, didn’t give a damn and bothered to understand that how tough it is to face people after doing such acts. Anyways, as I said many times, all what people of this world is bother about themselves, not about what others do, even when what is done is for none else but for them only! So, in a simple sentence, I have to  go and and in fact, I am going. It’s not a new place for me though, been ...