Aman's Blog....

I got back home yesterday. I can’t say that how much relief I am feeling after coming back home. I don’t know why but this time, even when I was out for just 10days unlike the last trip, where I was out for more than a month, still I was feeling so restless and just wanted to fly back to home ASAP! One reason for this,  I guess is the anxiety and restlessness that I am having in my mind thinking and worrying about those so many thoughts which are constantly moving around in my mind. I had a long talk with my mom yesterday about the issues. Though I did assure her that all would go fine as well as told her not to worry, the fact of the matter is that whatever is happening is actually a matter of worry and concern. I really feel so helpless when I see trouble coming from those people about whom, I can’t do a damn thing and since I can’t see my mom in tension, its making me much more mad and upset at the moment! Just hope and wish that all would go fine, not sure when it would happen ...

It seems its a ‘pain-day’ today and I am not sure when its going to be over! I am having a very bad stomachache happening at the moment when I am writing this post. Since morning, a little of it was there but now,its a little too much! At first I thought its happening because I am fasting and haven’t eaten anything but I am not sure that this is the correct reason. But even then, I don’t know what’s the actual except this that its killing me at the moment. I just wish I could be at my home, I really wish! The second thing which is upsetting my mind is related to something really important to my professional life. There are some very important matters which are hanging at the moment and  a good ending of all those matters is very very important for me! I am not sure what’s going to happen but I am getting mad thinking about all these. The last one ( for the moment) is related to my family and links also to my work. There is something really important that we are working over a...

It was a completely boring day for me. Though one good thing did happen that I was not having any session so I was just in my room but other than that, it was a completely boring day! I did catch some sleep but since there are tons of things going on in my mind, rather than being relaxed, I am much more restless! Given the fact what my nature is, I am going to stay like the same for some more days( or weeks may be , not sure)! There are some really important professional changes that I am looking for but thanks to the selfish nature of the people of this world, its becoming too tough for me to obtain those changes. I am working over some thing really important and I am really really looking forward to see it getting accomplished but I don’t know what and how it would be done since there are many people who are putting many obstacles! If this won’t work, this would come out as one of the biggest setbacks and upsetting thing for me and I really really wish that this won’t happen! I shall...

I have just got back from the session. Yes, I was working today as well and since last one week, I am working really hard since the session was very tough! I am just so happy that it got finished today and for one and half day, I shall be having some rest and sleep. I am not sure yet that what’s the rating but it has not come yet. Though I am very eagerly waiting for it to come but all the delegates were quite happy and left with a smile on their face. Few gave some very kind comments as well and since all the delegates were so senior, hearing such nice words from them mean so much to me! Other than that they gave me very kind comments and appreciation, all were really nice, friendly and co-operative! Thanks so much guys for everything! Hope to see you all soon! I am going to be having another session starting from this Monday here only. So I won’t be flying tonight. Since the session was so tough, I had to study every night for quite some time , reason of which I am feeling so sleep...

Its the last day of my very short break( which wasn’t actually a break even since I was doing lots of house work). From tomorrow, I shall be on the road again and also will be handling a very, VERY tough module! I am not sure that how much I am prepared for it since I haven’t spent much time doing the preparation. I shall try to do it once I shall reach at my destination. Besides that its going to be a really tough and long week for me, I need to pull up my socks for my book’s remaining chapters as well. I haven’t done much of the writing ,partly because I am just too much occupied in my travels and sessions and partly, of the tiredness which comes after I come back to my hotel/guesthouse from the session. But, I have to push myself a little to finish all the stuff, tough thing but not impossible I guess! Okay, about this, I shall see later. The first and most important thing is that I have to make sure that my session goes off well. Pray for me guys and wish me luck, I am going to nee...

I have just come back with the last shopping of the day and that was my plane ticket for Monday. Yes, my short holiday is over and I am going to hit the road on Monday again and will be handling one of the toughest (and this time, its newest version) modules related to Oracle database. I can’t even say that it was a holiday since I spent almost the entire time doing one thing or the other and ironically (or surprising to many) , very less time was spent on Oracle db(there was indeed but a lot less) . Our home is undergoing a major repair work at the moment and because of it, there are just so many many things happening at the same time! You can imagine the chaos when from one room, painter is calling you telling that pain is going to finish soon and from another room, carpenter is telling that he needs bolts and tells you the specs related to those bolts which are as tougher to remember as a complex algorithm working in Oracle kernel :-) . Its been MANY years since we did any kind of r...

Its been quite some time since I have gone and sat in Cafe Coffee Day(CCD) . Its not the coffee alone for which I want to go there but I also want to spend some time with just Aman too! And what can be better than doing it while sipping a Devil's Own! I have tasted all the flavors what CCD can offer and their counterparts from other places too like Barista . Still there must be many tastes which I have not yet get a chance to taste and the reason purely is logistics for it. For example, I tasted Hazelnut Latte while wandering around with Sidhu and it was indeed good but we bought it from a small coffee shop inside the City Select mall. I want to try it also from Starbucks but I guess Starbucks haven’t realized yet that how much business they are loosing by still not coming to India when every Inc. is counting a big chunk of its business from here! Anyways, I shall have my coffee some time later either today or tomorrow but since I have just come after driving on my scooter for...

In case you don’t know ( if you are new here or don’t know me yet completely ) , I belong to Punjab and I am an in and out Punjabi guy who loves and has proud over being a Punjabi! I must say, because I have travelled  ( and still do) in almost entire India and abroad as well, I have a great respect for  the other  states as well  and before calling myself a Punjabi, I would call myself an Indian first! But still, its not just me but the entire world knows that there is no match of Punjab and Punjabis in some things! I can go on and on to explain the qualities but that’s not something that I am going to do today. Instead of that, I shall be talking about something that I just saw and which I like so much as well! In India, the national game is Hockey. After this, the national Punjabi game is Kabaddi , a game which needs so much of strength yet demands being so quick! A complete team play which must be there in order to be a winner! I am a die hard fan of this gam...

I have just managed to finish my session which went into tons of issues since its starting itself! Even the session was going behind the schedule by one day and when I took over, it was already two days passed from a five day total schedule! You can imagine how tough it would be to manage in such a environment where nothing was working and we were already going behind the schedule! I guess, this time, even I wasn’t sure that whether I shall be able to pull the module on time or not since the module is very heavy with tons of content in it! But somehow, I was able to do so and we are done now with the module and all the delegates are done with all the labs as well since the time I took over the session! I know I went really fast to complete the session but it was needed as well! I still tried to maintain this thing at my best that I should not skip any explanation where ever was needed and demanded! I am still feeling really bad for the delegates since they suffered a lot in all of thes...

The tough gets going, right? Well, to some extent, okay to most of the extent, its correct! But what is not mentioned is that even for the tough person, its not an easy thing to do and when its just tough going all the time, there can be chances that even the tough person may lose his will and charm to keep on going! That’s what is exactly is happening with me at the moment in my current program! As I mentioned in my last post that I am assigned a session which was not assigned to me originally. Well, the reason for assigning that task was genuine and its okay as well for me to take it up. But what the issue is that its a real painful time for me, thanks to those tons of issues that I am facing here! Because of all those issues and despite of all the efforts that I am putting to keep things in control, I am losing the will, patience, strength somewhat for this program! A bad sign and something which I never like to see happening but what to do, am a human too and may be not so easily, ...

I guess, it will keep on continuing for some more time that I shall remain upset and annoyed over  people for many reasons! In the continuation of the same,  I just got a news about a task that has been assigned to me at the last moment! I can’t put any details of it here but still, there are couple of things which I shall say for sure. First thing, I am not upset that I am assigned for this at the last moment. Its okay. At times, there are certain things which come all of a sudden and that’s perfectly fine! But what I am upset about is that why it is always that when in need, its Aman indeed ? If there is someone that needs to understand about any damn thing, its got to be Aman! WHY! But when it comes about Aman, when he says something, its commitment , reasons , helplessness   and all the other damn words of the same type which come flying from all over! Why not people step ahead and see how tough it is to meet commitments, how really tough it is to make a promise an...

I am just burning, really really upset and annoyed! I just so wish that I could mention for what and on whom but I just can’t! All I can say that I am so upset at the moment! I am supposed to work on a paper that I have to submit tomorrow but I am not in  a mood to work over it at the moment. I should be on the bed at this moment but I am not sleepy at all and I should feel hungry since its my fast today but I am not feeling any sign of that as well! All I can feel is that how much angry I am and even being so, I can’t get it out anywhere (and on anyone as well) except mentioning it here! Hope morning comes as soon as possible so that I can get back to my office , do lots of work and in all this, I won’t get any time to think anything and be upset some more!

{Rant Started} I am sure if you are a regular here, you must be knowing that I am still traveling only. I haven’t written anything though since I have come here. Its my 3rd visit to this city and my experience is ( like the past times) quite pleasant so far! The most important thing for me,since I am on an official tour here, is how my program is going and how delegates are receiving what I am saying . In that aspect, I guess, the delegates are extremely intelligent yet very friendly and co-operative ! We had a little bumpy ride for the first three days because of some logistic issues but today, that issue is a bit resolved since the venue itself is changed now! So today, as per the feedback given by the delegates, all went well and things were very smooth as compared to the last three days. And there is nothing that matters more for me than  the customer’s satisfaction so its the greatest thing for me that finally, delegates are happy! Other than that, here there is a different...

I always say that its the easiest to tell and express that how happy you are but its the most toughest thing to do in this world to tell how much sad you are! Pain has no limitations, pain can’t be confined in few words and few lines! Tears don’t change color when you are in less pain or are in so much of it! Still, there are always attempts by many many authors in this world to express this most common emotion of us humans in their own ways. In every corner of this world, in every language, attempts have been done to express emotion of pain by many! Some attempts are really good, some are not so good but still there are always and there would always be attempts to do so in the future as well! So there are a lot of people who are trying to do the same thing yet in this mad race, there are some distinct poets, who are miles ahead from their counterparts and are doing some incomparable work which goes way beyond from the limits to get a ranking! S M Sadiq is one such poet! I guess I no...

When I was in Sri Lanka, one of my colleague and mentor read some of my status updates where I was mentioning about the yuck candies, “hot” lunch and things like these. She was worried and since I was not available on the phone, she wrote me a mail asking me where I am and what’s going on? When I sent her the reply back and told her that I am traveling overseas, she became really happy and gave me her blessings. She also did ask me that am I getting any chances to travel to two other countries any time soon in the near future? At that time, sine I was so busy in my session, I just wrote a quick reply to her that I am not getting any schedules for those two countries at the moment and sent to her. I was just browsing my inbox when I saw that mail again and than I re-read my reply. While I was re-reading my reply, it did occur to me that there is more than that one liner reply for this question and that’s certainly not linked to get a chance by luck to go to those places. The reply that ...

I have come back last night from Hyderabad after finishing another session. I am having back to back sessions going on so this was just in continuation of the stream. I had to go to Hyderabad straight from my trip to Sri Lanka and now, tomorrow I shall be leaving for another (and rather longer) tour which is happening at Mumbai. Every sessions leaves me some memories and this was no different in this regard. I am always fortunate that I get really great delegates all the time, discussing with them the nitty-gritty details of oracle db was a really memorable experience. There were so many fine points that we discussed to great lengths and I hope, those discussions did help the delegates to understand some of the toughest concepts in oracle db in a better manner. Besides talking about oracle db’s technical stuff,I also did share the benefits of being more social and sharing your knowledge about oracle with others with the delegates. Honoring my words, one of the delegates, who herself is...

I just finished reading a part of my oracle book. Also, I did send two very important mails just now for something very important, which I just hope would happen this time since I am waiting for it from a long time! Its so late at the moment and even though I thought to write another blog post about a mail which I got some time back from a colleague of mine about two countries which she asked me whether I am traveling to or not, I am going to defer it for some time( tomorrow may be). I am feeling so tired and restless since there is just too much to do and I am occupied uptill my nose at the moment with the work. Even work is not  a problem but because of my travels and some other things which are happening at home, I am not able to concentrate at all! Hope some things get settle down as soon as possible and I shall be able to finish some tasks from my to-do list! Anyways, that’s a distant thing. For the moment, I am calling it a day( does that saying really fits at this moment, at...

I can’t think of anything better to fit as a title given the situation where I am in at the moment. I have just landed back to India after a grueling session that I delivered at Sri Lanka . Normally I get a day or two’s rest once I finish any program but this time, due to the schedule that I had got, I have a session starting from tomorrow. So I had to take a flight from Colombo to New Delhi, had to wait there for some time and than had to take another flight from there to Hyderabad where I am at the moment. If you travel too much, you would see those places too which you may not have even imagined even that are there and this time, I did see one such place like this and that was the inter-terminal transit that I took. I never saw those places which are there in between of the international and domestic terminals. It was a small but still exciting bus travel. So after a total of 4 hours of flying in flight 1+ 2 hours of stop+ 2 hours of flying for flight 2 + 1 hour( how many hours in t...

As I mentioned in my last post, I shall be traveling and would be on a long tour, I am writing this post from very far! I have just done with my session and waiting for my cab to come and pick me up. I know I should have written about the travel, session , post some pictures of the place where I am at the moment, yes I know all this and  hopefully, I shall do it as well as soon as possible but not today! I am just feeling totally lost at this moment. I was completely fine in the entire day and now, all I want is someone to hold me, let me have rest over his shoulder. I didn’t feel alone at all in all the last 4 days since I have come here even when I am not able to talk to anyone since my phone is not working but just now, I am feeling so lonely! I won’t mention anything here but this only that I am feeling completely lost and gloomy! Sigh! Hope my cab comes soon and drops me at my hotel so that I can do something (anything) which can just distract me from myself! Not sure its fu...

Its been some really busy 3 days at my home and I shall be honest, I have no mood to leave for the session tomorrow after seeing that how much enormous work is going on at my home! Yes, we are in the process of revamping our complete house. There are so many things attached to it and also to this moment when we are finally doing this thing. I am not sure that whether I shall put that entire thing over here, on my blog, or not but still nonetheless, I must say, for me and for my entire family, this means so much! This may sound to many completely insane and completely normal thing but its not for us! So with that small note, I guess it should sound reasonable that why I am not willing to travel tomorrow seeing that my family needs me here with them! There is tons of work going on and to do that, the only person over here is my dad. My mom won’t be able to do anything and so would be the state of my sister as well. And my dad can’t be everywhere too! I can’t say it enough that how much m...