Aman's Blog....

At times, some wordings , even when they come in front of you all of a sudden, are so good and awesome that they leave a print on your mind and heart for forever. Yes, it does require that you do have what it would take to understand the deepness of those words though. I came across such one short poetic marvel few days back which I liked so much and thought would share it here. So since today, I have got some time free with me and also, thanks to headache(and a little fever which is slowly creeping its way) due to which I am not able to do anything technical at least today, I thought to finally put that poetry here. I actually should have been sleeping since I haven’t slept almost not at all in the entire last night, but I am not able to so what more can be better than sharing something which I really liked so much! So here is the Punjabi version of the poetry first, Kalleyan ishq kamauna aukha, Kise nu yaar banauna aukha! Pyar pyar te har koi bole, Kar k pyar nibhau...

I have just got back home today morning. I wasn’t supposed to come back actually since there was another session scheduled for me but somehow, it got cancelled. If you have read random thoughts , you would be knowing about the reasons that why it got cancelled. In a way, it happened for good only because I am completely burnt out and was having no strength to pull it through at all. So after a little bit of initial confusion that whether I am traveling back or not, it was finalized yesterday that I am indeed traveling back and I did! it had been cold two weeks at Hyderabad and it seems that I brought the same cold, chilly weather with me back to home as well. The temperature in Hyderabad is always pleasant, at least in the night it’s like this. Since I have seen, experienced much colder weathers than what the residents of Andhra live into, I can bear much more “cold” than what is there. But still, this time, even for me, it was indeed cold there. The temperature was almost the same w...

I have just finished the session. Though overall, it did went okay and as I mentioned in the last post, the delegates( overall) were good and friendly. This was among those sessions which are really hard to do and takes a lot from your mental side because there are tons of things in it which are really hard to express and show in a confined outlined content, not to mention that there are some practical hands-on as well which delegates must finish and is an integral part of the curriculum. So overall, looking at all the factors, it can be easily categorized as a very tough module to deliver and to be honest, to attend and understand. That’s not the only trouble with the course that it’s tough, there is one more and a bigger, more serious one! If a course is really really tough too, it can be made easy by going into very deep of the things provided the people who are sitting in front of you are actually able to understand what’s coming out of your mouth and words spoken by you are not ...

I was actually going to put the title as “two gone, one left” but then I changed it to the current one. No, the original one didn’t mean anything “adventurous” but it was just to mention that out of 3 days of my current session, two are over today and there is only one left. It has been a tough tour for me actually. Not to mention that the modules are really tough, the constant headache, fever, wandering mind, all of these made things really really harder than they actually could be. There are some other things on at the home front too which are also not pleasant and thus adding to the already-not-good mindset of mine. I should be sleeping by now but there is no sleep in the eyes and that’s the reason of me sitting and compiling some random thoughts. I guess I have mentioned it already that the module is really tough and not the current only but all the past three that I have finished so far. Some do ask me that why do I think that they are tough? In fact, even just today, I had a co...

Its almost 2am and I am not able to find sleep anywhere near to my eyes. One reason can be is this headache which is just not ready to go away. One of my colleague, in the office mentioned that it can be serious and can be a migraine as well. I can’t say that I can deny any of the two things. Its not that I didn’t take any medicine or tablet for it, I did and in fact, I did have just a few hours ago in a hope that it will heal the headache but it doesn’t seem to be working. The other reason that probably is not letting me sleep is the presence of so many thoughts in mind about so many things. I wish, like computers, there could be a reboot or a “kill –9” ( command to terminate forcefully a struck (even running) program) to my mind :). But it can’t happen but still, I am trying( in vain) to get somewhat near to it. Let’s see, how far I would be able to go.

Well, as I said already, I wasn’t very hopeful about it being any different from day 1 and I came out to be correct. There is nothing which I would mention about the day as good. The day started (actually carried forward from yesterday) with a headache which is still giving me company (despite of my wish) . On top of it, there is a lot of things that are going on in the mind making me so much upset and tense. So all I did was that I was in my room, ordered lunch from outside and took a small nap after having it and after that, was just in the room lost in the thoughts. I just had two Disprins for headache and would be going to bed now in a hope that sleep may come, even for some time, it would be fine since I have a session starting tomorrow and it’s needless to mention that it’s a tough one. Hope sleep shows some kindness over me.

I am sure that you must be waiting for the Day-2 update but that probably has to wait because there is nothing I have done so far which can be counted as an update. After a real late wake-up, all I have done is that I have had my breakfast and also two Disprins to ease out a little the headache which is hammering my head like someone is playing drums with full power. To make things real spicy, there are some tons of thoughts which are there in my mind. I have made a small plan to visit some mall in the afternoon, let’s see how much I would be able to stick to it? Anyways, so if this post is not about the update of weekend’s Day-2, what it’s all about? Well, its about poetry which I have read and really liked. Words, either in written or spoken form, can do wonders in expressing emotions. Yes at times, even words are not enough to express some things and fail miserably even getting closer to show some emotions. But that’s not what I am going to write about here. I read three very nice...

I have finished my last session yesterday and there is another one that I need to finish, starting from this Monday. And that means, that  I have a weekend with me to spend here. If you are sitting all alone in a far distant place, have no idea what to do, where to go and have a weekend in front of you to spend, it can be a real tough thing to handle. Okay, may be I am just exaggerating things a little too much. I do have an idea about the place in fact as I am visiting here from quite some time, know couple of places where I can go but may be it’s just upset mind of mine because of which I am not getting up and actually going. I have planned to visit some shopping mall in the evening in a hope that since it’s Xmas, there would be a little different decoration that would be there. Oh and BTW, Merry Xmas to all who happen to visit this place. I wish you all a very great 2011 and hope you would enjoy your Xmas and weekend, with your family and friends in a great spirit and would have...

It’s going to be a short update though because I am not feeling well, both mentally and physically. I reached here at Hyderabad yesterday evening after finishing a two weeks program at Banglore. Though I initially decided and it was suggested to me as well by Amardeep and Ankit that I should actually stay with them over weekend, I still decided to go to home for a day. My mother’s health is not fine at the moment. So even when it was just going to be a day long visit, I decided to go to home. This proved to be much tougher than I thought because of the extreme chilly weather. To make things worse, the flight of mine got delayed by more than 2 hours. I planned to reach Delhi by 12am so that I could reach home early morning. But thanks to the delayed schedule, I only managed to reach at about 2:30pm to the bus stand itself. I managed to get a bus right away and finally reached home at about 9am. The day was completely packed with lots of things to be done and that’s an essentially tough ...

There was nothing too exciting that I did on day 1. I had to go to doctor for my checkup, thanks to Mr. Headache, so I went to him. He didn’t say anything which I myself don’t know. I mean, I do know I have to sleep, eat , don’t have to stress out myself and all such normal things. I believe all know it right :) . Anyway, I did listen to all what doctor said. He said , he is going to give me a strong medicine for headache and I should revisit him after three days. I certainly would do that if I would get some time and once I shall finish the medicine ( I forgot to have it today but I shall have it after dinner because headache is still there) . Okay, enough about medicine, doctor. The next place I went to was the famous M.G. Road of Banglore, a place which boasts a huge presence of many shopping malls, big shops and lots of people. Tons of stuff is sold there and I could see only the branded, really costly stuff there. It seems all the people just go for one thing and that is , shoppin...

I came back yesterday quite late. In fact, I had come late in this entire week. After coming back too, I was (am) so tired that all I could do was just to study for some time and then would go to bed in a hope that I would be able to sleep for some time. But that too didn’t happen and I am not sure that whether it would be happening in these forthcoming days as well. Headache, tons of things on mind, being tired from work, these are few of the top reasons that I can think of for not  getting enough sleep. Anyways, what would happen , will see about it later. Let’s talk about today and a little about yesterday. I am coming to this place Banglore from last 5 years now and I have been working with one manager over here. Ironic it may sound, but I have not met her for more than twice (2nd was yesterday) in all these years and that too , not for more than 5 minutes. But its always a pleasure to meet her and the way she comes and meets, that’s really good. Yesterday, I was busy talking...

It was one of those days when calling me “dead” after the class is just about right! I was(am) having a very bad headache since the morning itself and it was just (bad) luck that  today only was the first day out of forthcoming three which are having the toughest of the things lined up. So because of this, there was a HUGE discussion which did happen throughout the day. I spoke almost non-stop ( took a break of 10 minutes for tea) for about 3.5hours in the first half before the lunch time happened and then after it, again for about 1.5 hours. There was a small rest which I got when the delegates were doing their practice but by that time, the pain in the throat was already there and I was feeling like “dead” . The delegates suggested to finish one more chapter to save time for the practice on the last day and there was no reason for me to say no for it so after that break, I again delivered a session for about one hour. By this time, I was almost not able to stand up. I had to look...

Warning: If its going to sound completely unordered post, well, believe that it’s really is a result of an equally disturbed mind inside a sick body. I am at Banglore. Even though my day yesterday started at about 3:45am, I spent almost the entire day, up till 8pm to reach here. The journey was so much tiring and thanks to couple of types of pains, it wasn’t really a joy as well. I managed somehow to take dinner and was on bed quite early. I had no strength in me and not much has changed even today as well. As I just said, my day started really very early morning yesterday. In fact, saying that the “day started” won’t be completely correct because I couldn’t sleep at all the other night at all. Since about 7pm, really very severe pain started in the lower portion of my right leg. I normally don’t really bother about what happens to external side of mine. Even if I am not in a good position, I won’t say anything. The other night too, I didn’t say anything except for the fact that I ...

I was supposed to continue from this yesterday itself but I got back quite late, wasn’t feeling well ( this has not changed even now too) and was busy “playing” so couldn’t write. So first, about travel, its partially finished. The reason I am saying partially finished is because that the last 2 days travel is over but there is another one starting “very early” morning tomorrow. The last 2 days one got successfully over and despite all the odds i.e. health issues and mood not being fine, I managed (somehow) to get it complete on a good note. Though it was an easy session but due to issues that I have mentioned, it proved to be a real tough nut to crack. Anyways, its done now and its done okay so its now time to worry about the next travel which is going to be far more tougher than this one. That’s all is there for the travel part. Next, about a “little” shopping that I did yesterday itself. I am not much into buying things for me. I do buy for others a LOT ( even I did buy yesterday...

….But you can’t skip too if you really have no choice in your hands. That’s kind of same what happened with me as well. I am back from day 1 of 2 travel almost an hour go and I am feeling really burnt. Why? First, I am not feeling well and as I said just now, don’t travel when you are sick, especially not for work, again for which I traveled today. Second, not in a good mood. Actually, in a really bad and upset mood and in my field of work, its not a good combination when you are in an upset mood and is out for work. Its a torture, plain torture! Mix bad mood with fever and you have got everything you need to mess things up, being cranky and feeling like that earth must part and you disappear inside it without leaving a trace even! I have got another day of working left before I shall get a break for a day and then the BIG time travel will start. I am not sure that I would be able to sort out my health and mood by that time. Let’s see what happens.

I passed last almost 3 hours sitting on a bench in a park which is nearby to my home. I go there when I am in a specific mood. That bench, on which I sit, is like a faithful friend who never says anything, never asks me to leave, never questions me anything but just lets me sit there as long as I wish. Usually there are lots of people in the park but fortunately for me, today there were almost none. There were few kids who were playing for some time but then they left too because it was really cold in the evening today. I should had not sat there too because of not being so well (its not a good idea to sit in cold when you have fever)  but there was no other place for me to go except that one and as I said, that bench never asks me to leave or even asks me why I have come there so that’s the best place for me to be with myself. What I was doing there? Well, I was appearing to be sitting quite outwardly  but I was thinking a lot of things inside. Did I manage to get somewhere i...

If you are a regular here, you must be aware about this that I have started putting some of my favorite songs and their translations in English here so that people, who don’t understand Hindi, Punjabi or may be they do but not at a very deeper level, can still listen and enjoy these songs as well. I don’t know that whether others like these songs too but hey, its my blog so the content would be that only which I would like and want to put, right? :) . Anyways, so I have put several songs over here already and you can find them by a little bit of browsing. Today also, I am going to put one song and its translation here but the funny part is that I myself had not listened to it before ever. Its today evening itself when I heard this song for the first time. Though I have been mentioned about this song already before but I never did pay much attention to listen to it. Today, by chance when I heard the starting of this song, I couldn’t stop me from listening to it till the end and then aga...

This is really going to be a short one because I am in a terrible condition at the moment physically (and also mentally) . I haven’t slept much since past couple of days and I am sure, with the present state of mine, its not going to happen anytime soon for next couple of days as well. Anyways, I was listening to To Phir Aao in a loop (have listened some 60 times already I believe since morning) and was checking OTN forums side by side. One thread caught my attention since the request given by the poster is really weird. Its like asking that how can I fit engine of a car of 1980 make in the most latest car available in 2010. I did ask him that what’s the reason he is willing to do so. He replied that his company’s most important program is not yet ready to get to the latest release of oracle database and also, 8i is a more reliable and easy to use version than the latest releases. Okay, I must admit, I didn’t have a smile from last couple of days on my face but this one, this thre...

Sleep and thoughts, these are like two step-sisters who really don’t like each other. Only one can stay in the room of eyes at one time. The moment both get together, you can be assured that they won’t like each other and will fight. Most of the times, its the sleep who has to run away. Thoughts never get over-powered by sleep because unlike sleep, they have no dependency on anything like eyes must be closed for example. Thoughts, along with their buddy, mind, are always around, irrespective the eyes are open or closed. There is not such a big thing to not to have sleep in the eyes but the bigger question is, what to do when you are not sleepy and can’t do what you want to do at that time too? And to make things more crispy, thoughts just keep on doing aerobics in the courtyard of your mind when you are thinking all this! I have gone mad? No, there is no such thing. I am just lost in thoughts and can’t do what I want to right now so I am just trying to make my own self smile a little b...

Last week was a almost like roller-coaster ride. There were many things happening , some were making me happy, some were making me upset. You can imagine from this that the day I landed in my hotel, it had its broadband stopped and the irony was, they were having two connections and both stopped on the same day. I was told that all would be fine in a day only but it took them 3 days to finally sort it and then too, it did work only for 1 day properly. On 4th day, it was again not working and when on the final day of my stay, it did work too, I didn’t need it much anyways since there was a specific reason that I wanted internet so much in this week. I don’t lose my calm soon but I hate it when someone tries to give me a complete nonsense like my hotel guys were doing when I was asking them about the internet thing. If the same had happened in my home, I would had made sure that within 24 hours, it is resolved and that’s exactly the time which the company promises to fix issues, whose in...