Aman's Blog....

The tough gets going, right? Well, to some extent, okay to most of the extent, its correct! But what is not mentioned is that even for the tough person, its not an easy thing to do and when its just tough going all the time, there can be chances that even the tough person may lose his will and charm to keep on going! That’s what is exactly is happening with me at the moment in my current program! As I mentioned in my last post that I am assigned a session which was not assigned to me originally. Well, the reason for assigning that task was genuine and its okay as well for me to take it up. But what the issue is that its a real painful time for me, thanks to those tons of issues that I am facing here! Because of all those issues and despite of all the efforts that I am putting to keep things in control, I am losing the will, patience, strength somewhat for this program! A bad sign and something which I never like to see happening but what to do, am a human too and may be not so easily,

I guess, it will keep on continuing for some more time that I shall remain upset and annoyed over  people for many reasons! In the continuation of the same,  I just got a news about a task that has been assigned to me at the last moment! I can’t put any details of it here but still, there are couple of things which I shall say for sure. First thing, I am not upset that I am assigned for this at the last moment. Its okay. At times, there are certain things which come all of a sudden and that’s perfectly fine! But what I am upset about is that why it is always that when in need, its Aman indeed ? If there is someone that needs to understand about any damn thing, its got to be Aman! WHY! But when it comes about Aman, when he says something, its commitment , reasons , helplessness   and all the other damn words of the same type which come flying from all over! Why not people step ahead and see how tough it is to meet commitments, how really tough it is to make a promise and fulfill it!

I am just burning, really really upset and annoyed! I just so wish that I could mention for what and on whom but I just can’t! All I can say that I am so upset at the moment! I am supposed to work on a paper that I have to submit tomorrow but I am not in  a mood to work over it at the moment. I should be on the bed at this moment but I am not sleepy at all and I should feel hungry since its my fast today but I am not feeling any sign of that as well! All I can feel is that how much angry I am and even being so, I can’t get it out anywhere (and on anyone as well) except mentioning it here! Hope morning comes as soon as possible so that I can get back to my office , do lots of work and in all this, I won’t get any time to think anything and be upset some more!

{Rant Started} I am sure if you are a regular here, you must be knowing that I am still traveling only. I haven’t written anything though since I have come here. Its my 3rd visit to this city and my experience is ( like the past times) quite pleasant so far! The most important thing for me,since I am on an official tour here, is how my program is going and how delegates are receiving what I am saying . In that aspect, I guess, the delegates are extremely intelligent yet very friendly and co-operative ! We had a little bumpy ride for the first three days because of some logistic issues but today, that issue is a bit resolved since the venue itself is changed now! So today, as per the feedback given by the delegates, all went well and things were very smooth as compared to the last three days. And there is nothing that matters more for me than  the customer’s satisfaction so its the greatest thing for me that finally, delegates are happy! Other than that, here there is a different kin

I always say that its the easiest to tell and express that how happy you are but its the most toughest thing to do in this world to tell how much sad you are! Pain has no limitations, pain can’t be confined in few words and few lines! Tears don’t change color when you are in less pain or are in so much of it! Still, there are always attempts by many many authors in this world to express this most common emotion of us humans in their own ways. In every corner of this world, in every language, attempts have been done to express emotion of pain by many! Some attempts are really good, some are not so good but still there are always and there would always be attempts to do so in the future as well! So there are a lot of people who are trying to do the same thing yet in this mad race, there are some distinct poets, who are miles ahead from their counterparts and are doing some incomparable work which goes way beyond from the limits to get a ranking! S M Sadiq is one such poet! I guess I no

When I was in Sri Lanka, one of my colleague and mentor read some of my status updates where I was mentioning about the yuck candies, “hot” lunch and things like these. She was worried and since I was not available on the phone, she wrote me a mail asking me where I am and what’s going on? When I sent her the reply back and told her that I am traveling overseas, she became really happy and gave me her blessings. She also did ask me that am I getting any chances to travel to two other countries any time soon in the near future? At that time, sine I was so busy in my session, I just wrote a quick reply to her that I am not getting any schedules for those two countries at the moment and sent to her. I was just browsing my inbox when I saw that mail again and than I re-read my reply. While I was re-reading my reply, it did occur to me that there is more than that one liner reply for this question and that’s certainly not linked to get a chance by luck to go to those places. The reply that

I have come back last night from Hyderabad after finishing another session. I am having back to back sessions going on so this was just in continuation of the stream. I had to go to Hyderabad straight from my trip to Sri Lanka and now, tomorrow I shall be leaving for another (and rather longer) tour which is happening at Mumbai. Every sessions leaves me some memories and this was no different in this regard. I am always fortunate that I get really great delegates all the time, discussing with them the nitty-gritty details of oracle db was a really memorable experience. There were so many fine points that we discussed to great lengths and I hope, those discussions did help the delegates to understand some of the toughest concepts in oracle db in a better manner. Besides talking about oracle db’s technical stuff,I also did share the benefits of being more social and sharing your knowledge about oracle with others with the delegates. Honoring my words, one of the delegates, who herself is

I just finished reading a part of my oracle book. Also, I did send two very important mails just now for something very important, which I just hope would happen this time since I am waiting for it from a long time! Its so late at the moment and even though I thought to write another blog post about a mail which I got some time back from a colleague of mine about two countries which she asked me whether I am traveling to or not, I am going to defer it for some time( tomorrow may be). I am feeling so tired and restless since there is just too much to do and I am occupied uptill my nose at the moment with the work. Even work is not  a problem but because of my travels and some other things which are happening at home, I am not able to concentrate at all! Hope some things get settle down as soon as possible and I shall be able to finish some tasks from my to-do list! Anyways, that’s a distant thing. For the moment, I am calling it a day( does that saying really fits at this moment, at 1:0

I can’t think of anything better to fit as a title given the situation where I am in at the moment. I have just landed back to India after a grueling session that I delivered at Sri Lanka . Normally I get a day or two’s rest once I finish any program but this time, due to the schedule that I had got, I have a session starting from tomorrow. So I had to take a flight from Colombo to New Delhi, had to wait there for some time and than had to take another flight from there to Hyderabad where I am at the moment. If you travel too much, you would see those places too which you may not have even imagined even that are there and this time, I did see one such place like this and that was the inter-terminal transit that I took. I never saw those places which are there in between of the international and domestic terminals. It was a small but still exciting bus travel. So after a total of 4 hours of flying in flight 1+ 2 hours of stop+ 2 hours of flying for flight 2 + 1 hour( how many hours in t

As I mentioned in my last post, I shall be traveling and would be on a long tour, I am writing this post from very far! I have just done with my session and waiting for my cab to come and pick me up. I know I should have written about the travel, session , post some pictures of the place where I am at the moment, yes I know all this and  hopefully, I shall do it as well as soon as possible but not today! I am just feeling totally lost at this moment. I was completely fine in the entire day and now, all I want is someone to hold me, let me have rest over his shoulder. I didn’t feel alone at all in all the last 4 days since I have come here even when I am not able to talk to anyone since my phone is not working but just now, I am feeling so lonely! I won’t mention anything here but this only that I am feeling completely lost and gloomy! Sigh! Hope my cab comes soon and drops me at my hotel so that I can do something (anything) which can just distract me from myself! Not sure its funny

Its been some really busy 3 days at my home and I shall be honest, I have no mood to leave for the session tomorrow after seeing that how much enormous work is going on at my home! Yes, we are in the process of revamping our complete house. There are so many things attached to it and also to this moment when we are finally doing this thing. I am not sure that whether I shall put that entire thing over here, on my blog, or not but still nonetheless, I must say, for me and for my entire family, this means so much! This may sound to many completely insane and completely normal thing but its not for us! So with that small note, I guess it should sound reasonable that why I am not willing to travel tomorrow seeing that my family needs me here with them! There is tons of work going on and to do that, the only person over here is my dad. My mom won’t be able to do anything and so would be the state of my sister as well. And my dad can’t be everywhere too! I can’t say it enough that how much m

I always mention here that it may be possible to depict every emotion through words, through phrases but its almost impossible to express pain, sadness! When one is happy, the smile becomes bigger, turns into laughter, eyes start shining and face starts glowing but does the same happens when there is pain in someone’s heart? Color of tears don’t change, eyes fail to express the pain and at times, face shows nothing compared to what’s hidden in the heart! Yes, its almost very much not possible to express pain via anything. Yet, at times one encounters some words, few lines which come very close to express that pain as much realistically as possible! Its a tough, very tough task to do if you ask me but still, at times, some things make you pause for a moment and force you to think. I heard such two lines just now which made me feel to do the same. The lines are put in a song even though when the original lyrics don’t have it. I shall put the original song and its translation also over he

Yep, I got back home after finishing a very nice session. I actually got home yesterday morning and started writing this post last night. But thanks to the tiredness, I had my eyes getting closed in the night so I just stopped writing it! There is some work going on in my home and because of it, the entire house is messed up, including my bed too where I would sleep. So there was no sleep for me after the whole day even when I wanted it so much otherwise I could had got a little nap in the day time. About the session, it just went very well I guess! I always find it really interesting and equally challenging when I have to explain the complexities of oracle database to those, who don’t understand it or know about it at all! The questions which come up from this category of delegates, at times, are very deep and the discussions which happen over them, makes the whole experience a memorable one! And this is what I like to do all the time, being more and more interactive and that’s what I

At times, certain things, even being so small, bring smile on your face and makes a normal looking day a little special for you! The same goes for the people as well who with few words of their can either make or completely ruin your mood as well as day! Fortunately, this small post is not about a ruined day and/or mood but about a bunch of few words spoken by a delegate which just made me feel really special and made my day completely! Technically, this is an event of the yesterday now since its already 1.50am but its not my fault. The internet in my hotel is behaving odd and since it wasn’t working and I was so tired, I slept quite early. Just now when I woke up for no apparent reason, I checked the internet and it was working so I thought to write this post. One of my delegate of the session asked me a question, to the answer of which, I asked him to check an thread on OTN forums where I replied to someone else about the similar doubt. When I was done for the day and was about to

I didn’t get a chance to write since my last post and since the time when I landed here in Banglore. Yes, I am at Banglore at the moment, handling a session. I thought its going to be an easy week but somehow, its not. There are tons of things which are going on and are just making me mad and tired, both mentally and physically. The program has kicked off well( thank god for it). I do like it a lot when the room is full of delegates and all are very energetic and this time, exactly this is what I have got. The delegates are really smart, intelligent and curious to understand things in more and more deeper manner which means, lots of discussions, cross-questioning is happening in the session. And this is something which I always look forward to see in the session. Most of the delegates are just starting to take their first step in the database field which means that they are getting bombarded ( blame it on me) by lots and lots of keywords, complex  concepts and tons of commands! I can

Yes, I have finished my last program of this week and have flew back to Delhi. It was a very tough, very tiring program but I am glad that I was able to finish it up with giving a smile on everyone’s face. The best thing which did happen was that all the delegates too did like the program a lot and mentioned couple of times that its really helpful. Now, what would be a program which is not liked by those even who are attending it and I always believe that a training given is of no use as long as it won’t be able to help in any matter to the attendees. When I did hear that that the program actually did give some tips to the delegates, that was really a very nice feedback. Other than that, all the guys were really good. I even had one guy who attended a previous session of mine for the same module but on an older version. He was the best person to judge the module and according to him too, the current module is much better than the last one! I had a really good time discussing with all o

I have got the following story in my email and I guess, its really excellent and leaves a very good advice as well. That’s why thought to share it over here, A saint asked his disciples, ‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’ Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’ ‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?’ asked the saint.’Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’ Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint. Finally he explained, ‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’ Then the saint asked, ‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each oth

Thanks to non-functional internet at my home, I couldn’t write this post from my home. I am not at home and my “very” short break is over before I could even start enjoying it. I am back on the road and at the moment, sitting and writing this post from my hotel room. I am not sure how long this tour would go since there are couple of things which are scheduled but either are not confirmed but are confirmed but after that, there are some other more important programs which are clashing with them. So not sure what and how everything is going to happen? Anyways, that’s a matter related to future, let’s talk about the present and which means the current program as well for which I am here! Its one of the toughest programs and I just hope all would go fine. I am so tired so I guess, I won’t study anything tonight and would just go to bed. Hopefully, tomorrow’s day and also the program, both start and carries on well. Let’s see what happens? Though its not too late but I guess, I am just abo

Yep, Its Holi today and I wish you all, whether you would play it or not, a very happy and colorful Holi! Have lots of fun, play with lots of color ( but be safe as well) and have a good time with your family and friends! Wish you all a very happy holi! And what’s more better can be that I am at my home on this day! Yes, I got back home yesterday evening after a long but rather comfortable travel. Why comfortable you may ask so the answer is that the travel of flight is never tiring for me. I can do it on daily basis too if  I have to. Its the travel that I do over bus from New Delhi to my hometown, that’s most tiring travel! But fortunately , this time when I got at the bus stand, I saw that there is an air-conditioned bus from Punjab Bus service standing there. I normally don’t take it because its charges are more than double from the normal bus but this time I though to give it a try and I am just glad that I took that decision. It proved to be worth of its price in both comfort a

I have just finished my 2nd program for this week and my last program of this tour. I hope it went well since I could see the delegates leaving with a smile on their face and I can confirm you that if you are doing a presentation/session/taking a class/any sort of public speaking, if you are able to see your audience leaving with smiles, very well chances are there that things have gone well! It was among the longest tours of mine and it would had got extended further more for 2 days but thank god that’s not happening anymore! I just got finished and got back to the hotel room of mine. When ever I finish a session, I feel terribly tired and today also is no exception. I won’t get much of the time to take rest since the next program is also going to start soon, “very soon” ,but still whatever time I shall have, I shall try to take complete rest in it. I have just booked my cab for tomorrow. Normally, I get a flight on the same day when I finish my program but this time, its for the next