Aman's Blog....

I am leaving tomorrow. There are 2 programs ahead which I need to take care of and after that, there are 2 other programs. As I mentioned in the last post, there are couple of stupid tensions over my head and I really am not sure that how would I perform in these programs of mine with those tensions? Let's see what happens. Hope all would go well. Pray for me guys that all would go fine and even the tensions would go away!

I didn't write since I came back. I won't put here the reason that all I guess do, "I was busy". No, its not the correct reason in my case. I wasn't busy in anything. All I did was just nothing  and still I didn't write anything. Well, I did  write a small post on my oracle blog but that too wasn't really exciting for me. I didn't write because of this loneliness that I am feeling, which is not letting me do anything. I wanted to get some clothes for me, I left the idea. Now, there is a stupid tension that's there on my head and is killing me(no, its not about clothes). I am not sure why but I just don't feel like doing anything at the moment. One may think, if not doing anything than he must be sleeping.  Sadly, that's also not happening. I haven't slept in last couple of years for more than "few" hours(don't ask few=how many) and yesterday, when I did sleep for some time, a nightmare woke me up after which I couldn'...

I got back home today morning. I am not sure but this time, I really was a bit desperate to come back home. Not sure why though? Anyways, so I am back home and the session is over. About the program, well, I can just say at the moment that its finished, how it went really, I am not sure? I am waiting for the official score to come which would take some time. As like in all of my programs, I try always my best to deliver and there was no difference this time as well. But still, there are times when the delegates are from a different stream and the content talks about an entirely different area of expertise and this, never is a good combination. The same happened this time as well. Though the guys , in the end , were smiling and did ask for my contact information, which is always a good sign if you ask me, but I am still eager to hear what they said about the program and surely about me as well. Let's see what comes up, hope it would be okay :-) . I am just so much tired. Though I ...

I am leaving tomorrow morning. Its going to be a tough program even though when I have done it numerous times already. There is a lot of hue and cry that is there for Swine Flu here at my place and its actually becoming more and more scary with the passage of time. I just got a little better and now I shall be again at a place which is being caught up by this flu very rapidly. I just hope that everything remains fine, both with me and with the program. Pray for me guys and wish me luck, as like always, I need it so much!

At times, some lines, some poetries depict truly what you are feeling. It doesn't happen very often though! I happened to be in a very bad and upsetting mood today and what I see in my mail, a friend forwarded a poem which  just left me standstill. If you have ever been hurt by your loved ones, ever it happened that love has hurt you, leaving you just a body without soul who appears to be alive but actually its dead, you would love it! Unfortunately, I don't know who is the writer of this poetry so I would urge if anyone knows, do let me know via comments and I shall put his/her name here because credit must go where its due! The actual poetry is a mix of Hindi and Urdu(which is not so good of mine). I shall put the English translation as well. First, in Hindi, Ye kaun doob gaya aur ubhaar gaya mujh mein, Yun kaun saaye ki suraat guzar gaya mujh mein! Ye kis ke sog main shorida-haal phirta hun, Wo kuan shakhs tha aisa k mar gaya mujh mein! Ajab hawa-e-baha...

Yes, I am just totally pist off from some people and from their acts. I really am not sure why some people do completely insane things , act completely irresponsible and yet claim to be right. And some do completely wrong things which are bound to hurt others, they know their acts are hurting others, yet they just do whatever the heck they want and still claim that they are right giving their illogical logics. Not sure why and how one can do it? And worst is after doing everything just plain and clearly wrong, they think a simple sorry would be enough. Give me a break! Sorry is for those things when you unknowingly did some thing wrong, not when you did it within your complete senses. I really have no idea about how one can do all this and still claim him/her to be correct but yes, seeing it happening just make me really upset and I am very much upset at the moment!

Its been years I guess now since I have gone and done some real shopping for myself. I can count on fingers what I have bought since last 7 years. What's the reason? Well, there are couple of them and I certainly won't put them here. That doesn't mean that I have not been to shopping stores at all. I actually went many times but it was just not for me and for others. I still have my membership cards lying in my cupboard of those malls from where I used to buy so many gift items. And I still go do lots of shopping for my sis and few close ones. Still, I do have some things in my shopping list which I want to get. Not sure when I shall be doing it actually though but there is no harm in having a list isn't it :-) ! The very first thing is a bike. Are you saying, what, this guy has no bike! Well, yes I don't have one , I didn't buy one actually. One of my friends from Hyderabad just bought a new one and he (purposely) sent me his snap riding over it and needless ...

I had always been asked why don't I write a white paper about Oracle? I am told that the I explain things in a simple manner and it would be good if I would write some thing simple which people can understand with less difficulty. Well, my reply always is for this question that I know nothing about Oracle so I can't write. But from past some time, I was asked couple of times to write on certain topics which I discuss many times in my sessions and delegates don't find them explained them very well either in the material or at other places as well. So I was asked to write about those topics. There are couple of them and I finally gathered some courage and tried to write a small white paper, my very first one! I yet have to see how it is received and for this reason, I have mentioned its version as 0.1. It would take couple of revisions before I make the number as 1.0. But I am really happy that I finally was able to write one. My statement still remains the same that I know n...

Did it happen with you some time that all you are doing is sitting in the worst mood that you can be into, with a totally upset mind, thanks to things that someone either did or said or both. You are so much upset and not liking anything. You are thinking/looking for some thing to cheer you up and all of  sudden you look at something which just brings a smile over your face, making you forget all the anger and cheering you up! Its not mandatory that you always have to see some thing to make you feel good, at times you just remember some thing that did happen which was either funny or was very good that makes you smile. And at times, its nothing but just few words that you had heard some time back which get you out of that mood. The same happened with me today when I was sitting completely turned off thinking about some things done and said by some people. To make things worse, some one wrote a nonsense line addressing to me over  OTN Forums just because I corrected him couple...

Well, its just the title, I am not at all a poet. Yes , at times, just out of the blue moon, some thing gets written but that's really is not poetic in my opinion. It just happened today again that I wrote the following two lines thinking about some one and some things. After hearing some kind words from my friend Sidhu , I thought to put it over here as well. I know surely well that its not really that great but still, if you do like it, I would love to hear that( and even if you won't too, just being fair :-) ) Here comes first in Hindi, Kuch haseen palon ki darkaar mein, kar to liya sauda-e-ishq, Kise pata tha dard-e-dil tamam umar goya keemat bhi hai! And here is its meaning in English, Just in the wish of few good moments, I did fall in love, Who could guess, it would give nothing but cries for the rest of the life!   As I said, I am not at all a poet, so excuse me if it didn't make ant sense for you. Very few know the why/what of the above written...

I got back this morning. It was part bumpy, part smooth tour. Fortunately, it was smooth where it was supposed to be, for the program. The session went well I guess and all the delegates were happy. We had some very good discussions and had a great time. The delegates were very supportive, cooperative and keen to learn, all ingredients of a good and interesting session. I hope the delegates enjoyed the program the same as much I did. I had the pleasure to hear some very nice comments at the end from them for which I really am not worthy and just can say, I am really thankful for all of those kind words! Over all, a very nice program ended up nicely as well! I thought that I would come back home on time but its always that when I think/plan something, it doesn't happen like that. When I got at the bus stand, I found the most biggest crowd present over there which was the largest from any time that I can recall from the past. When I tried to find the reason of this, a shocking reve...

I have just come back to my hotel. Things are partially okay and partially not. About being okay, the program is going okay for so far. There is not any major issue that we have faced except for one which happened today when one delegate lost his database and we never had any backup of it as well( its not a backup/recovery session). I still have to get it sorted out if I would be able to do so. Except that, I guess things are pretty much okay. Now about not being okay things, well I am not okay :-) . I have fever and with all of this Swine Flu fear-factor spread around, I have been getting more worried. I am not sure that whether I do have it or not( I hope not) but I don't have those symptoms yet, like vomits, sneezing, too much coughing and so on. So not sure what's there? May be its just in my mind. I am having medicine for cold and fever daily though. Yup, I am wearing that "scary" mask as well :-) . So let's see what's going to happen? I need to get bac...

Well,  I am sure those who are regulars would have guessed it already that I am going for my program tomorrow. I have mentioned already that I shall be leaving soon in the past here. There is just one change that now I am going for a different program for a different set of delegates and for a different(longer) duration. Hope everything would remain fine despite that my health is still not in its right state. Let's see what would happen with the program, I just hope that all goes well. I have couple of things lined up for me and this does include a very important project on which I have started working after initially saying no. That is taking a little too much time of mine and I am finding it tough, really tough in this state of health of mine. Anyways, you got to do what you got to do so can't be complaining. Hope the program goes fine. Pray for me guys :-) .

At times, you come across some thing which just shakes you and leaves you speechless! To do so, the writing must be really good and should be depicting the emotion, whatever it may be, really well. And there is no other emotion better than pain. And when the pain is not just any other pain but the pain that one gets from his/her beloved, there is just nothing which can match its intensity, its deepness. That pain, those cries, those tears which come in the eyes all of a sudden when you are sitting alone thinking about some painful words that were said to you by none other than your beloved, some things done by your beloved which did hurt you so much but he still did them despite knowing that they are hurting you, there are not many things or words, which can explain that pain truly. Yes all this and much much more is there which just can't be explained with any wording. But still, at times, some one writes such marvel which says it all and just not says it, but depicts a story whi...

I got back this morning. As I mentioned , it was supposed to be a short travel so I am back in just 2 days. This was probably the shortest travel that I had done so far in all these years. I shall be leaving again on this Sunday, again this won't be for a long time but still won't be as short as this tour was. Anyways , enough about the duration of the tours I guess :-) . The program went fine, at least I hope so. I have yet to see the official rating and as long as that doesn't come up well, I can't really be sure that the program was a success. But still, I could see the smiles on everyone's face and as I have mentioned couple of times before as well, when you are asked for your contact details, it means people did like what you said and how you said. So based on that criteria, I guess things went fine. The next program would be having some delegates who attended this program as well. Let's see what happens at that time? Oh , the delegates were just awesome, v...

It was a very good travel. Though I was very sleepy and very tired and yet I couldn't sleep because the bus was not comfortable at all, still I enjoyed the travel because  the driver was playing for all 7 hours and guess what, all were my favorite Punjabi songs :-) . So it was overall a fun this time. I started at about 9.30am in the morning fearing from the rain which came at about 8am without any prior notice. It was raining very heavily at that time and I didn't want to get wet at all. So as soon as rain stopped, I started. It was quite early for me to start as my flight is departing very late. Its still 2 hours from now when I am writing this. But still, it was okay. Because it rained, so the weather was pleasant and luckily I got a "musical" bus, so I can't really complain. I just had a south Indian Dosa as my lunch/brunch whatever you want to say it and now I shall be waiting for the flight. If it would come on the scheduled time, I would be having enough ti...

I am leaving tomorrow.  At the moment, with the current information that I have, its going to be a short travel but with me, things change instantly so can't be completely sure about it. Though I am not well but its important for me to go for two reasons. One, because its already committed. About second reason, I can't say anything here but that's even more important the committment. I can just say that words like, "compulsion" or "desperatation" if I use, they would not be in inappropriate. The venue and the people , both would be new this time. Though I have already taken the module elsewhere, still there are butterflies in the stomach. Hope everything goes fine.  Pray for me guys and wish me luck, need it so much!

Its not very often that I would hear any other song except a Punjabi one. It takes a lot for a song to be liked by me even though it may be a Punjabi song or not. But at times, some songs are just awesome and when you hear them, they just steal you from yourself for the time being when they are being played. There is no better way to express any feeling except music. I got a chance to hear one such song just 2 days back when a very close and special person referred it to me. I hadn't heard it before and neither did I hear about the singer as well but I am glad that I finally did hear it! Its sung by a lady singer, Carrie Underwood who won the 4th season of American Idol . The song's name is I Told You So . I liked it the moment I heard and since then, I am not sure how many times it has been repeatedly played. I am sure you are going to like it( or may already do ).  I shall post the lyrics of the song in a while. Firstly, here is the song over Youtube. And here are th...

I was not sure what else to put as the title looking at the series of events happening so that's the best I could come up with me, so bear with me on that. I have just got back from hospital , sitting in the emergency ward where my friend Manjit was admitted. He had some medicine which didn't suit to his body and his breathing got almost stopped with swelling over the entire body. Immediately, his elder brother took him to the hospital where doctors admitted him in the emergency section. I got a call from his wife who herself got back today only from the very same hospital after a week, giving birth to her and Manjit's second son. I couldn't go and see her in the hospital for a reason which I would mention in a while. So I was saying that she called me being in tears and told that Manjit is in hospital and his condition is serious. I immediately rushed to the hospital. It took about 3 hours but thank  god, his condition got stabilized and now he is shifted to a private ...

Few days back, I posted blog post of a video of one of the best write up   of Debi Makhsoospuri . I shall say here again what I said over there as well, there is no one who can match the quality and thinking of Debi and when you are talking about the people who hurt their loved ones and the pain they give to them, no one says it better than Debi. The following is not a song( as like the last video) but just few lines of poetry, again penned by Debi only. The only difference is that this time, they were recited by Manmohan Waris at a festival which happened in Canada. Manmohan is one of the best singers that we have in Punjabi industry. He, along with his brother Kamal Heer, presents a show called Punjabi Virsa( Punjab's Heritage), an awesome , live event where both Manmohan and Kamal, along with their third brother, Sangtar, presents some of the best songs of them. This poetry is written by Debi and hits very hard deep within the heart, especially if you are a person who has hur...