Aman's Blog....

I guess you might have understood. If not, that’s “hello” from a male in Thai language :) . Yes, I am at Thailand right now. No, not for vacation or holiday but for work (not going to make any trip anymore for vacation or holiday, have already tried to make one(and not just for me only) and got just punishment for doing so) . I am sitting here in my session and fortunately got a free internet access to use so thought will put this small note here. I shall be writing more about the day 0 and rest of the days soon. Have taken some pictures with a machine gun approach already on day 0, will try to take some more and post all soon. So keep watching this space :) .

I got a call from a friend of mine whom I met about 4 years back when I went for a training. He was a participant, a really good, nice , intelligent and technical guy. Though all the guys were so much good in the session, he was a little different from all because one, he was almost of my age( turned out later that he is actually older than me) , second, he is also a Punjabi guy, third, he was very friendly. After the end of the session, I invited him and his wife for dinner at my hotel and both kindly accepted my invitation. We did a lot of talk and had a good time speaking about lots of other things other than oracle. His wife is also very nice. Needless to mention, it was one of the best moments for me because it doesn’t happen very often. I was very happy to hear that they did like this (bad, stubborn and god knows what else) guy so much too and asked me to be in touch for the rest of the life. I am not a sort of person who would promise and wont keep it and I did promise that I wo...

I am sitting here in my class room and waiting for the delegates to finish the practice session. Though I am not feeling well, but I guess, we still had a great week and discussed many things about oracle. I hope that despite my upset mood which has nothing to do with oracle didn’t impact much my program and also the delegates didn’t see the anger on my face which I tried to put behind my smile. The delegates are really good, friendly, supportive and showed a great interest in listening and learning the complex module which we have covered in this week. I hope I was able to say something useful and did help them in some way to get started. For few times, I was totally blank thinking about somethings but then I was able to gather myself and was back on track. For the next week, I was going to be staying here only. But there is a change of plan now and I have to travel overseas. It has come all of a sudden and the module also would be a real tough one. On top of it, I am not feeling so...

Why it’s so that even when someone is almost dead, it just doesn’t matter? Why it’s so that even when one knows that he is completely wrong and is hurting the other person so much, it just doesn’t matter? Why it’s so that even when someone is told that that the person is so much sick, is on the bed and almost died and is upset, all what he says that “sorry my bad, get well soon” like it doesn’t matter? Why it's so that one can’t see that the other person is not so unimportant and if he is angry, there must be some reason for it and  but still gets the treatment like it doesn’t matter? Why it’s so that even when someone is crying so much, it’s so easy to just get up leaving him in tears like it doesn’t matter? Why it’s so?

I have just got the below two lines from a friend in a text message and I just loved them. So without saying anything more, here they go,   Tujh mein aur mujh mein faraq sirf itna hai, Main tere liye sirf hoon aur tuu mere liye sab kuch hai!   And it’s meaning in English is, The only difference between you and me is, For you, I’m just there but for me, you are everything!   I am not sure that I would add something  more to it except this that it takes a lot to forget yourself and do things for someone else but it’s very easy just to think about yourself. It takes nothing to live for your own but it takes a lot to die for someone else. It’s so easy to smile for yourself but it takes a lot to cry for someone else. I guess I shall stop here since I am going to be in the session. There is another piece of an awesome (sad) poetry with me which I shall be putting here soon. So till then, watch this space :) .

It’s been a crazy and busy day today. I was running from here to there to do tons of things, mostly doing damage control. I shall be on the road again and to tell the truth, I am in a real bad mood! Day started with visiting my travel guy whom I have to pay back some amount for a travel. I had requested him to let me pay him in installments since there are tons of things that are on my head and since I happened to know and working with him from so long, I believed that at least this much flexible he can be while doing business with me and fortunately, he did accept my request. So today it was the first installment that I went to pay him. He asked me how did everything go, in answer of which I gave him my “signature” smile and said, “it was okay”. Not sure if I could really tell him that for whom I went, they didn’t even wait for  me to get back home to punish me for doing “always just what I want”, I don’t understand a darn thing and I am just wrong in doing anything and everythi...

I was going to write about my traveling which would start from tomorrow and couple of other things which did happen today but then, I got a call from a friend who asked me that whether I have heard the above mentioned song? Well, I didn’t apparently. He made me hear the song over his phone and told me a story behind this song. I liked the song so much that I immediately asked him to email me the song which he did and the next step for me was to find that how really well it’s out in the web world. To my amazement, it’s really is a popular song! About the story behind it, I have been reading different versions of it, even this that it’s fake but nevertheless, I would still mention it here. If it turns out to be a rumor, I shall put a note and will edit it in the future. But I do believe that what’s mentioned in the story, it might have happened in real as well. With all due respect to all the girls of this world, I still do believe that what is mentioned in the story, it really might hav...

At times, it takes thousands of sentences to depict the pain and at times, just few words say it all, tell about it all that how the wounds given by the beloved ones hurt, kill you long before you would actually kiss death! I read few of such lines just now and they all hit the nail right on the head and did complete justice to depict such pain. They are in Hindi, I shall translate in English as well. So here is the first one, Usi ka shehar, wo hi muddai, wo hi munsaf, Humein yaqeen tha humaara kasoor niklega And here is it’s translation in English, Her city, she only being litigant, she only being judge, I was sure, I would be proved guilty! Here comes the second one, Mujhe bhi yaad rakhna jab likho tareekh-e-wafa Sagar, K maine bhi lutaya hai mohabbat mein sukoon apna!   And here is it’s translation, Do keep me in mind too when would write the tales of love, That I too have lost my peace, happiness in love!   Third one, Humaare bagair bhi aa...

One of my very close friends came to see me just a while ago. He came because he came to know that I am not feeling so well. Why? Well, I can’t blame for it on anyone or on anything else because I myself made that happen, something same which I did couple of years back as well and tried my best to be successful in it but I couldn’t. And this time too, I couldn’t get it done unfortunately but I have promised myself to get it done no matter what, whatever way possible! Anyways so he came to see me and he didn’t ask me a single thing. All he said, “Don’t bother explaining, I can very well guess. Just know this that you are so much good, there are few who would miss you so much if you would go away. That’s all you need to remember.”  I just couldn’t say anything except being in tears. I so wished that he could come a little earlier, on the day may be when I came back to India. He was there with me last time too when I was sick and this time too, he didn’t miss the chance to come and se...

It’s very easy to hurt someone, let him be into tears and still pay no attention. It’s very easy to say to someone that “you don’t understand” without even thinking for a moment that it may be possible that the other person may be knowing much much more than you can possibly imagine as well. It’s very easy to give a promise but it’s so hard to keep that promise. It’s so easy not to take even a step ahead and sit peacefully, it’s so easy to not to do anything. But  even if it’s the smallest and easiest thing to do too,  it’s  tough, really tough to do whatever it takes to keep the promise given and yet when you hear when you do something with so excitement, despite of all the troubles that you have faced for someone who means so much for you, that you did so because “you always do just what you want to do”, not knowing that even though one may think that task was nothing and it was so easy to do it, not knowing that how how many troubles the other person might have faced...

At times, you read some thing which just explains what you even can’t express in words. Somewhat same happened with me as well today. I have just got back home. Where I was? I was sitting somewhere alone thinking so many things with eyes wet. While sitting there, I got a text from a friend of mine and that’s just summed up not just today but the last almost one week of mine. I decided that when I shall be back, I shall put it here with it’s translation in English. Here is the original version in Hindi, Aaj udaas hoon to kisi ne aawaz bhi na di Faraaz, Ye matti ke putley kyon kisi se wafa nahin karte!   And it’s translation in English, Today when I am so sad, no one even called me for a moment too, Not sure why these statues don’t love anyone! I am not in a state of mind to say anything. I took leave for something and I shall be back on roads tomorrow traveling but this time,I shall be ensuring that I am not coming back home soon. The program that I am going to under...

It’s the Chinese new year and I wish you all a very happy year of Rabbit . If you are not sure which animal sign you are ( I am Monkey just in case you are wondering) , you can check it here . My new year has started with a painful left foot which I got when I was taking a walk in the night. It happened all of a sudden and after a real painful night spent, what I see in the morning is that the foot has got swelling. I shall put some ointment over it today and would wait for it to get better otherwise, I would be forced to say a happy new year to some doctor. I hope it doesn’t happen. Anyways, I wish that this year brings you all a lot of happiness and success in whatever you do and if in case, you are willing to know what’s the year has in store for you, you can check (out of many) this link ( this is for me, you need to select yours though).

Qateel Shifai is not an unfamiliar name for those who have an eye and taste for good poetry. He is considered as one of the best poets who has crafted some of the finest poetic masterpieces. It’s so tough to say that which one is more better than the other because they are all so good still, I have couple of my favorites and I decided to put one here with it’s translation done in English. It’s originally in a mix of Hindi and Urdu though. So without further a due, here is the original version, Ik ik patthar jod ke maine jo deevar banaai hai, Jhaanku us ke peechhe to rusvaai hi rusvaai hai. Yun lagta hai sote jaagate auron ka mohataj hoon main, Aankhein meri apni hain par unmein neend parai hai. Dekh rahe hain sab hairat se neele neele paani ko, Poochhe kaun samandar se tujh mein kitani geharai hai. Sab kehte hain ik jannat  utari hai meri dharti par, Main dil mein sochun shayad kamzor meri binaai hai. Bahar sehan mein pedon par kuch jalate b...

I am sitting here in this room alone at the moment, thinking about tons of things, lost in many many of the thoughts. Why? Well, that’s not something that I can tell, may be it’s just my own fault so I can’t say anything or may be….never mind, it’s not important, neither me and neither the thoughts of mine.I am really worried as well since someone is not feeling well and I can’t do anything about it.  So let’s see, what you do sitting idle and alone? No, I don’t watch tv much (and not really came here to watch it anyways) . No, not going out or eating too, not in a mood to go anywhere (though the cab driver of mine was telling me some places to check) and haven’t eaten anything actually since yesterday except a stupid cutlet. So what else? Well,  I checked OTN forums , my emails(nothing much is there) and then listened to songs repeatedly on my iPod.  So when I was done doing all that, I decided to check whether there is any new song out or not and guess what, there is! I...

I am not sure what to say? I have travelled to some place so far so that can bring a little happiness but I guess, it didn’t happen and I just caused the trouble, that’s all. I am sitting in this room thinking about some things and wondering. Tears are flowing through the eyes but at this moment, even they are not helping. Want to say so much but I guess may be running short of words or may be, just don’t want to say anything. Update: I just came to know that I did put that someone in trouble. It seems that I am just wrong in everything, whatever I do, I am just wrong in it. I don’t know what to think right now, just want someone to be fine, just this that’s all!

No, that’s not BlackBerry I meant, it means Back Bitching . Yeah, I know that the words are not really polite but I am also not in a mood to be nice today either. I am nice( almost all the time) but when I am in bad mood, well I can just say that I am not so nice at that time. That’s exactly how I am feeling right now. I don’t know what business speaking bad about people or talking things taken out of the context about someone does any good for anyone since I don’t do it myself but I have seen it today happened with me. I may not know how it’s done but I surely am feeling the outcome of it! I have got a call today from a colleague telling me that one another colleague is upset over me. When I asked why, he said that someone ( he didn’t tell who, he didn’t know actually) told to that “other colleague” of mine some bad things that eventually I have spoken. WTH! I did hear the matter and called that upset colleague and clarified that it was most probably a statement or two taken complet...

I have just got an email which had a small but amazing poetry. So good that I couldn’t stop myself from putting it here. I am not aware about the name of the poet to give the due credit at the moment. If anyone knows, please let me know via comment and I shall give the credit to the poet(s) as (s)he truly deserve it. The poetry is in Punjabi and no prize for guessing that I shall be translating it to English. So without further delay, here it is, Ajj oh mainu russe nu manaun aayi, Saare gile-shiqve mitaun aayi! Main chup-chap sunda reha, Ajj jad oh dil da haal sunaun aayi! Ro ro k usne mangi muafi, Ajj oh apne ton bewafa da daag jad mitaun aayi. Main khudgarz peya hi reha, Uth ke us de hanjhu v naa poonjh sakeya, Jo meri qabar te ajj deewa jagaun aayi! And here is it’s translation in English, Today she came to please me, To settle all the disputes and quarrles. I kept on listening to her quitely, ...

The reason for that (short) title is that I have got couple of emails asking that where I am, am I alive or not , I have just ‘disappeared” :) . Well, I am alive, haven’t yet shifted to Mars and (unfortunately) haven’t got disappeared yet. I am at home from a week and shall be traveling tomorrow. Though I was at home, I still couldn’t write anything because of couple of things happening around. Not much out of those are sorted but still, I just thought would write a short travelogue before I shall start my travel of tomorrow. I am at home since a week but most of the time, I was busy taking care of someone very special within the family. She is not well at all and in the last 4-5 days, she was really really not well at all. Since yesterday, she is a little better but still far from being called fine. Almost the entire time me and whole family spent taking care of her. As I am leaving tomorrow, the biggest tension on my mind is that she would remain fine and the medication that we hav...

Another year has come bringing new wishes, arising new hopes! I wish you all who come here by any ways, a very happy 2011 and I pray that all of you achieve lots of success, happiness and joys in everything you would do in this year, also with a great health! I hope you had a great new year eve’s celebrations at your place and had a lot of fun with your nears, dears, family and friends! Have a great year ahead and a happy weekend as well from me i.e. AristaDBA aka Aman Sharma :) .

At times, some wordings , even when they come in front of you all of a sudden, are so good and awesome that they leave a print on your mind and heart for forever. Yes, it does require that you do have what it would take to understand the deepness of those words though. I came across such one short poetic marvel few days back which I liked so much and thought would share it here. So since today, I have got some time free with me and also, thanks to headache(and a little fever which is slowly creeping its way) due to which I am not able to do anything technical at least today, I thought to finally put that poetry here. I actually should have been sleeping since I haven’t slept almost not at all in the entire last night, but I am not able to so what more can be better than sharing something which I really liked so much! So here is the Punjabi version of the poetry first, Kalleyan ishq kamauna aukha, Kise nu yaar banauna aukha! Pyar pyar te har koi bole, Kar k pyar nibhau...