Dead, Once Again….

It’s very easy to hurt someone, let him be into tears and still pay no attention. It’s very easy to say to someone that “you don’t understand” without even thinking for a moment that it may be possible that the other person may be knowing much much more than you can possibly imagine as well. It’s very easy to give a promise but it’s so hard to keep that promise. It’s so easy not to take even a step ahead and sit peacefully, it’s so easy to not to do anything. But  even if it’s the smallest and easiest thing to do too,  it’s  tough, really tough to do whatever it takes to keep the promise given and yet when you hear when you do something with so excitement, despite of all the troubles that you have faced for someone who means so much for you, that you did so because “you always do just what you want to do”, not knowing that even though one may think that task was nothing and it was so easy to do it, not knowing that how how many troubles the other person might have faced in order to keep his words but despite of all these factors, if one did something, whatever it may be, it’s definitely not what he did just for him. If someone does something, not big but just a small thing too like crossing oceans, traveling miles, climbing mountains for someone, there can’t possibly be any other reason for all this except this that for whom he is doing all this, he means to him so much and all the troubles, pains, whatever are there, seems so small in front of that someone special. Anything done with so much of love and affection is not because that person would have wanted something just for himself. It takes nothing to give a promise and then to come and say that it’s not possible to do anything about it but it takes a lot to  fulfill the words given. It takes nothing to hurt someone so much and not to even bother to look  that in how much pain that other person is! It’s something which just that person knows who has got that pain, it’s just he who knows that what it feels like to drink his own tears sitting besides the bank of a river or sitting lonely for the whole day and till late in the night on a bench in a park thinking and trying to find out that what’s so wrong you did, are you really so bad that just tears and pain is meant for you?

Giving logics and explanations thinking that you are right, not knowing or understanding that the other person may be knowing and understanding things in a much deeper way but still he may be is quite thinking that it’s okay since there is already very less time. There are always “situations” but there can’t be an explanation for the one in which you can’t even wait for someone to even get back but be so harsh to him, giving him tears and even when he is in so many tears, leave him sitting and crying only! It may be possible that the other person is more aware than you even about situations, time, moment but he is still not talking about it because it would hurt so much even to mention a word about it. That doesn’t mean that he is unaware of what’s going on and what will happen and that also doesn’t mean that you have to hurt him so much for no fault of his, use the words like “harass” for him and make him cry again and again so much and still say that it’s that person only who is non-understanding. It hurts, it really does hurt so much! There may be a lot of pain that he is already having in his heart which has still not gone away and when there is even more pain gets added to it, that person is just going to be dead, once again, because he may be appearing alive but only he knows that he is dead long time back already because of the things said and done to him. Its hurts so much to see when your beloved ones hurts you so much yet don’t even bother about it too,  not knowing that one should not hurt those only who care and love you so much because if the pains and wounds are gifted by anyone else, it’s still tolerable but if the same is given by the beloved ones,  it hurts so much more, it hurts so deep inside! And when you are so much hurt, so much upset, all what you have with you is tears and pains which also show no mercy over you. They also don’t listen to your cries and just laugh at you like the rest of the world, hurt you as much as they can causing an immense and unbearable pain that can only be understandable by one who is having it in his heart. But even that’s not so painful but what really is to be alive yet die with every coming breath and heartbeat! Before the pain which is already there within your heart, could settle, when you get it again and so much of it, it hurts much more what words can express or voice can speak. Yes it really does hurts so much!