Aman's Blog....

There are so many things that I want to do and there are so many wishes that I have in the heart but, not for me, for others! For me, I don’t want anything, don’t wish anything except one thing which I want to happen ASAP but despite trying twice for it, I couldn’t get it for me. Anyways, leaving me aside, there are certain things about which I haven’t told to anyone  but I really hope that I would be able to get them done before I close my eyes for forever. What are those wishes,  I won’t mention but they all mean so much to me. And may be because I really wished about it so much, I finally got a chance to do a small bit of it! My friend Porus Homi Hawevala is involved in lots of charities and is associated with lots of charities and NGO’s. He suggested to donate some money to open a bore-well, an effort done by an NGO Chaitanya Educational and Rural Development Society . They open these bore-wells and quench the thirst of some 30 families in small villages which otherwise...

There is a lot of good stuff that people say about women, gals and with all due respect to women, gals, I am sure it must be true! But when it comes to guys, all what I hear most is just the bad stuff. I myself had posted a blog post about secrets about guys which gals must know . I just received the below text in the email and I think its really a good write-up. That’s why I thought I shall share it here. Have a look and read, I believe, each and every word of is so true! Its rare that a guy would ever reveal what he has really done for any one, especially for his gal but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t deserves respect! Guys cry too, its just that they don’t do it like gals but while sitting alone in the corner of their hiding their face or while sitting on a bench in a park all alone! Yes, guys have emotions too, remember it!

I have reached but not at my home. There has been a change of plan as I am stuck up in the mid of few planned but not-yet-scheduled programs. And because of it, I decided to stay at Delhi at my friend Sidhu’s place. There is a vacation trip that Sidhu, Ankit , Neeraj and Vaibhav are going to and I so want to join them but not sure that whether it will happen or not. Anyways, I just had my breakfast and after checking emails and other stuff, will look out what’s going to happen finally, hope it would happen in the way we all want!

Marc Anthony needs no introduction! The guy has sung some songs which have become like a milestone and one such song is, When I Dream At Night . I am listening to it right now and from past many years, Here are the lyrics of it, I have been in love And been alone I have traveled over many miles To find a home There's that little place Inside of me That I never thought could Take control of everything But now I just spend all my time With anyone Who makes me feel The way she does Chorus: cause I only feel alive When I dream at night Even though she's not real It's all right cause I only feel alive When I dream at night Every move that she makes Holds my eyes And I fall for her every time I've so many things I want to say I'll be ready when The perfect moment Comes my way I had nev...

I just finished my session here  and have come back to my guest house. Session went well and though few delegates found it hard to cope with the module’s toughness, all appreciated it in general and mentioned that they did like it so much! All the delegates were very friendly and eager to learn the module. One thing, which I would always remember that all took the snaps of the explanation that I gave on the whiteboard . Now, if I shall be asked, I would say that it was of no use but still, I felt so happy to see it happening! All left with a smile on their face and all asked for my email and phone number(which I gladly gave) showing a clear sign that they all liked the session! Thanks to all the delegates for coming to the session and I hope it was productive for them! Its time now to start getting ready for the travel back to home. I was going to have some free time (not much but just 4 days) but seems that would not be happening anymore as I just got a call for another program ...

I am sitting here in my office room right now and as usual, I came quite early to the office. There is nothing to do in the guest house’s room and its better to  come here and check emails, OTN forums and also, have a cup of coffee. Its still 8:40am only at the moment and I was thinking while sitting in my cab, about Chandigarh where I stayed this Sunday before taking my flight from there to Hyderabad, a place which has a deep place within me. Many don’t know that I had stayed at Chandigarh for few months as well. I was working in my home town, at a very esteemed institute from where I got the initial training of Oracle database and got the honor of being selected there only as a member of staff, something which never happened for any student of it before. I was the first and last one who was offered by the management to join there, something over which I am still so proud because getting a job in that institution was considered a matter of big pride back in those days since it ...

Two not-of-any-use trivia's told to me by my colleague. One, there is a street on my name here, Jalan Aman and two, in the office, there is a meeting hall whose name is also Aman ! Okay, going to get ready now.

Finally, I have finished this week’s session of mine and I am happy to say that it went well too. It was a tiring week but still, at the end, it feels nice to light that bulb on the delegate’s head and to hear from them that they did like the delivery and also the instructor. All the delegates were really so friendly, especially two who really made the entire week’s sessions very lively. And all of them were very eager to learn the module even when it wasn’t going to be used in their day to day work and the best part is that they did mention that this session has helped them in understanding this technology more clearly and now they are feeling more confident to talk to their actual, hard-core database staff who actually handles all of the stuff that we discussed. All of them had a smile on their face and few, also asked for my email id,two confirmed signs that they did like the session. And also, in the official rating, there were couple of very kind comments about me along with, prob...

There is no particular reason for this post but I just thought to put it together when I read the announcements on the Google’s blog about the new updates they have done among a major one that now Google+ is free for all! And just at the same time, I got an email from Facebook about a change that they have started to put about the notification emails. So reading about all this, I just thought that I shall put my thoughts about the two company’s battle here. I am in my session but my delegates are busy finishing their lab practices and I have some time free with me so here it goes! Apple ’s Steve Jobs said that year 2011 is going to be the year of iPad2 . No, I haven’t yet bought it and I have no plans to buy it at the moment too. Yes, I am planning(really seriously) to buy a new laptop because my current one has started giving me issues like BSOD . It also has become very old and I must get a new one now. I hope I shall get one soon(fingers crossed) but iPad is not something that I a...

At times, even when you are so much sensible, you still act so naive! That’s the same what I did today! If you have been a regular over here, you must be knowing that I am traveling at the moment to an overseas location. I have written a little about this location and my relation with it in some previous posts. One thing that I have mentioned couple of times is that I haven’t traveled here, except for the last and this travel, for any professional reasons. I haven’t (and won’t) mentioned  for what other reasons I came here because those reasons matter and are important only to me and not to anyone else. So don’t bother asking about them and that’s not the point of this post as well. I might have written a little (or more, whatever) about my travel here but one thing that I haven’t mentioned ever that whenever I came here, a sound of door knock(yes, a door knock) is what I have waited to hear all the time. That sound always brought up a smile on my face, a true and genuine smile...

Yes, its traveling time once again and it would be an overseas trip. If you are a regular here, you already must be aware that I finished a session today only and I desperately needed some rest but instead of that, I shall be traveling tomorrow only for this program. Normally, I start on Sunday but since its an overseas trip, I need to travel tomorrow only, not something that I really would like to do after a long and tiring session but work is work and there are no choices in it! It wasn’t confirmed that I am going or not. I was in my session today when I got the email of confirmation and details of other logistic stuff. Where I am going? Well, to one of those two destinations for which first, I fought that I must be sent there, then stepped back (got taunts, insults, became an epicenter of jokes) myself and then sent again there! This is the place where I have been so many times already. In fact, this is the place which was my travel destination when I stepped out from my home for ...

I have just come back home. Though it was a HUGE rainfall but somehow, I managed to get home without getting wet(got my share of being wet yesterday only). I shall be leaving for an overseas trip tomorrow only which means there is no time for sit back and enjoy but about that will be in a subsequent post. This one is about the program that I just finished today. If you are a regular here, you must have read the last post in which I had mentioned that how tough it is going for me in the current program to handle things. And nothing which I was struggling to control was related to my skills! I don’t manage (I don’t have to) logistics but because they play a huge role especially when you are not standing face-to-face in front of the delegates! Think about it that when the only mode of connectivity is internet(it was an online session) and that itself stops working, what would be the mental status of the delegates and when you can’t do anything about it, how would you feel about it? That...

It was a very rainy day today and after a long time, I got completely drenched in rain while going to work. It would be a lot of fun to see it happening had it been a normal day but I was working and that took away the entire fun. On top of it, the work is also getting effected by the reasons that are not in my control and there is nothing else which makes me more upset than feeling helpless. I am handling a web-conferencing session. The module, like all the other modules which I have taken so far, is very tough but being virtual for the delegates and they being invisible to me(they can see me, I can’t see them), the word “tough” has touched just another level! And to make matters more worse, there has been TONS of issues coming up since the first day of the session! I can control my own delivery, the way I do explain things, I understand and make understand others the topic but if there is network drop happening all of a sudden making my voice disappear for the delegates, for this, ...

Ahmad Faraz needs no introduction. He is among the most respected poets that this world has ever got! I have already posted few of poetic masterpieces over here and today, I read another short but an excellent poetry penned by him and thought to share. Though these are just two lines but the depth of the thought mentioned in them is just mind-blowing. Have a read, Chala tha zikar jamane ki bewafai ka, So aa gaya tumhara khyal waise hi!   And it’s translation in English is, A talk got started about the world being treacherous, Thoughts of you struck in the mind just like that!   How deep the thought it is, I leave it over you to figure out! Hats off to Faraz, once again!

I came back home yesterday after a tiring travel. I did travel the same distance that I cover up all the time but may be, not being well actually did make the journey more longer. But still, I made it to home and I believe, I shall be at home for another 5 days, I am just happy! Health is still the same(probably a little more messed up now because I didn’t take rest yesterday) but that’s okay given the fact that I did have a little fun yesterday. In my last travel, when I was at Banglore, laundry people tore apart one of my favorite shirt. Though the hotel management did got me the shirt’s cost refunded and also returned me the torn apart shirt too(not sure what I am going to do with it though) , I still needed to buy one now. So I got one from M & S . One of my colleagues(who is also my teacher) always complains that I mostly have Blue colored shirts only and I believe this also is the same :-) . Well, I think its still nice and moreover, its not the usual check or stripe ...

Its the 10th day of the continuous working for me and I am just so glad that I shall be having some free time to get relaxed from tomorrow. I really need some time at home to get my self a little more calm and free from anger, being upset, feelings that I have from the last few days. Besides that, I am not feeling well at all and that’s what also needs to be taken care of as I am having a session at overseas coming up in just a few days and that would be the worst thing if I shall get to travel being sick and remain in the same way while being away from home. The last session, which did happen at Gurgaon, probably was one of the best ones for me. I really really love to be at Delhi and the other places and its just unfortunate that I don’t get much chances to be there. But whatever chance I get, I try not to miss it and always, its an amazing experience for me. The ambience of the place, food, delegates of my session, all just make the whole experience so nice and worthwhile! That’s ...

Its Saturday evening but there is no weekend for me and in fact, there is not going to be any rest for me either coming up as I shall be working even tomorrow and straight from here, I shall be leaving towards my next destination. I expected to have some rest in the 3rd week but now, it doesn’t seem to be happening. And after that, I am asked to go to a place where I have vowed NEVER to step in and that too for a long time. I guess, if this all can’t be considered enough to burn someone out, nothing else can be! I really need to take some rest and catch my breathe, hope it happens soon!

I haven’t written anything since I have come back and now, when I thought that I shall put together this small post, its time for me to leave again tomorrow. Yes, my short holiday at home is over tomorrow and I shall be back on the road. Tiring but work is work and with work only, everything is there so its okay, I can’t complain. The packing is almost done and besides it, I have finished couple of other small but important tasks as well. Fortunately, I shall be at a location where I don’t get to go often but it is one of my favorite ones. Hope the program also would be going fine. Though I have given the expression that its going to be yet another travel related post of mine but its not. Actually, its about a conversation that I had with someone when was coming back to home this time from Chandigarh in the bus. A conversation which made me feel happy, proud and yet, sad and hurt! I have a habit(not sure good or bad) to talk to anyone and not really boasting off but if the person is ...

This last week’s session was probably among the most toughest ones that I have ever taken and believe me when I say this, at some moments, I had sweat on my forehead sitting in a centrally air-conditioned facility! The delegates were really really good, super smart and also, very knowledgeable about the module. And I must add, very friendly and co-operative as well! I am sure at some moments, I really had to pull it through but they still were with me and I believe, that’s only possible because they were supportive. Though it was very grueling session for me( I am having severe headache since last 3 days and I am taking tablets like candies with no effect) but today evening, when we finished, besides the usual sign of a smile on their face, one of the delegates mentioned that it was a nice session and few asked my email address and I just got convinced that a very tough week came to a happy ending. Though it was tough but I must say, it was a big time learning experience for me and tha...

I had been on bed from the last two hours doing something or the other then stopping and trying to sleep but nothing seems to be working out. It was a long, tiring day, enough to make me feel dead when I got back and may be this wasn’t enough because now, to complete the torture, headache has come too! I have taken a tablet for the medicine for the headache a while ago but it doesn’t seem to be doing anything. Its 1:20am when I am writing this and sitting like this is something which I just hate so much because this lonely brings tons of thoughts to my mind which just make me so much upset thinking over some things said and done by some people! And when it happens, it just turns an otherwise calm and quite Aman to a red hot burning Aman! So what you do when you are not able to sleep, have a bloody upset mind and a damn headache? Well, nothing but random stuff like listening to stupid songs, read some random stuff on various (tech) websites and also, read some poetry! So here is one w...