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Silent Tears….

Tears are that asset of human beings which are around all the times. If one is happy, they come to increase that happiness. If one is sad, they still come to share that pain, let it flow down from the eyes from the heart. It doesn’t matter that what you are, how rich/poor you are, tears in all the eyes are of the same color and forever will be in this entire world. Tears, something which say hundreds of stories even without using a single word even! Tears, which can melt hearts made of stone as well. Tears, seeing which in the beloved’s eyes, one can kill and even can get killed! Tears, seeing them in that special person’s eyes appears that the whole world has no meaning, has no importance! Tears, some one who never leaves you, doesn’t matter what! But at times, even these most faithful friends choose to sit back and enjoy the pain of the beholder. When tears come through the eyes, at least that pain stored in the heart flows down with them. Though it doesn’t help at all, pieces of a...

Sad Yet True….

At times, with very few words and lines, those things are said for which even books of thousands of pages may not be enough. Doing so is not an easy task to do and very distinct authors only are gifted to do so. Ahemd Faraz is one of those few who can recite an entire story in just two lines! I have already posted couple of poetries penned by him over my blog which you would find using the search option and I would strongly suggest that you must read as much poetry as you can of his! Its always pain, sadness which can’t be confined in words. One doesn’t need much to show his happiness but for pain, sadness, even tears fail to express the intensity. One may want to tell what he is feeling but there seems to be no words matching with that expression. But some times, you just read something which hits the nail right on the head! The following two lines are just like that only, explaining pain in the most beautiful manner I shall say.  Its in Hindi and as usual , I shall do the tran...

A Really LOOOONG Travel….

I was pretty sure when I wrote the immediate last post that something wrong would surely happen. I just could feel it coming but I didn’t think that it would turn up to be really bad! I have done the travel of that same number of hours which one would spend traveling back and forth from Singapore from India. Any guesses? Yes, about 12 hours when I was actually supposed to spend only about 5 and could be here at about 1pm in the afternoon while I actually landed up at 5pm and in my hotel at 6.45pm! I had my flight booked initially for 11.30am. It was fine but some problem was coming for the confirmation of it so my travel desk intimated me that they would give some another flight and guess what timing they gave to me, 9.40am! WTH! To get it, I had to start at about 6.30am and which means, I would have to get up at about 5am! And given the reason that I can’t sleep when I have to get so early and that too to catch a flight, I couldn’t really sleep at all the whole night! I got ready an...

Morning About To Get Ruined….

Its just always that whatever I think/plan, that doesn’t work and what I tell others as well, they seem not to bother about it as well. And that’s exactly what’s happening now as well. I had finished half part of one program yesterday. I was having a program of 1 day which was going to start from 28th and I thought, I shall get some free time to have rest and study. And since I am staying with Sidhu, I asked my travel desk to get my flight booking done a little early so that I can go to Banglore, have some rest there and unpack myself in a nice manner rather than getting there at midnight and still feeling sleepy next day. Well, this was all what I thought and surely enough, it was bound to not to happen and it didn’t as well! I was told today that my 1 day program has been changed to 3 day program. Its going to be a real tough one as well. The travel desk guy has “really” listened to what I said to him and has given me a flight at very early in the morning which means I can’t sleep no...

A Completely Spoiled [B]Day….

There are times when one wishes so much from god, all what is good, all what is best for him, he asks from god. But some people, don’t do it. They only wish very rarely for something and that too normally is not something earth shattering kind of thing, something as costly as asking on a very cold day, a ray of sunlight from him! And they don’t do it only with the god but from the people around them. They don’t ask for a BMW or an I-phone or anything stupid thing like that but just a very simple thing like a smile or a hug, things which may mean nothing to many but for some, that’s all what counts! Is asking for a sunlight or for a moment of smile too much costly to ask for? It seems it is for both god and for people because somehow, both fail to give it most of the times! And that’s exactly what did happen today which fortunately(or unfortunately, I don’t know) is the day when I came on this planet Earth! Yes, its my birthday today and as per the convention, it should had been a “happ...

A Little More Older….

Well, I am going to be another year older. Yes, its going to be my birthday. But nothing did start with right now on happy note. I am away from home and is all alone this  with no one around me. To make things more worst, I shall be working and hard as well! So with an already upset mood and no one around to celebrate the day with, its going to be a tough day rather than a “happy birthday”!

Being Virtual Continues….

Yes I am still being virtual and the “Being Virtual” series' part-1 got over today. Normally when I finish my program, there are always some last moments when I am shaking hands with all the guys, we exchange e-mail ids ( and some times phone number as well) and most importantly, I am able to see that smile on their faces which does tell me that all did go well. Surely, up till that time period, there are lots of technical and non-technical talks that do happen and all that just keeps the spirits of both, mine and of the delegates alive! But this time, it was different since I was just virtually present for them so nothing like that happened. Yes, we did share some last sentences but I did miss that smiles part for sure! About the program also I don’t have much idea that how it did go, again because of the same reason that I had no way to check that how the recipients are taking it! I just hope that all did go well. As much as I am worried about this program’s score, the same I am ...

Being Virtual….

I had reached here at about 10pm last night. I was supposed to be in my flight actually because the flight was actually supposed to fly, I shifted myself from that to an earlier one which saved me 4 hours of travel. I was dead tired still when I got at my hotel. Surely the major reason of it was my traveling but the other reason( and which I feel is more stronger even) is my almost no sleep and water coming from the eyes. Don’t ask me the reasons for anything because I am neither in a state nor in a mood to explain anything. And moreover, it has nothing to do with the title of the post as well. So just to sum up, what else one would expect from a silly guy than seeing him doing silly things right? I am handling a Live Virtual Class for the first time. The format is simple, me, the instructor is at a different physical location whereas the delegates are from the entire world or should say, are at different locations of this world. The class happens live but not in a real classroom( a...

Traveling Starts….

I shall be honest, I have no mood to go anywhere this time! I am feeling so much tired from inside that I just can’t even make myself think anything positive. May be its just me or may be its me and the things happening around me which are causing it,I don’t know but what I do know is that I need….never mind,it doesn’t matter what I need so its better I don’t mention it as well! I got to do what I got to do and there is no escape of mine from it. So I am leaving tomorrow for a very tough program and to add to my problems, the format is entirely different that would be used for the program. I have not delivered any program under this format so its going to be real tough challenge for me! Let’s see how everything goes! I shall be having back to back programs after this one and all are going to be really tough. I don’t know how I shall be able to smile when I really want to sit and cry and that’s the hardest part for me because I need to smile , doesn’t matter what! Hope all goes well! Pr...

Book Review, Middleware Management with Oracle Enterprise Manager Grid Control 10g R5….

We are entering into the DBA 2.0 era or I should say we have already entered quite deeply into it! And in this era, there is more and more penetration of graphical interfaced tools. Enterprise Manager (EM) from Oracle has evolved a lot in the last few years. The biggest change in EM came when it became web based from 10g onwards and was divided into two categories, Database Console( DBC) the free version and Grid Console(GC) , the paid and full blown version! Where DBC helps managing a single instance very well, there are limitations in it and the ability to manage one instance per console is the biggest one! GC completes that limitation and offers much more than just managing database! With so many goodies in GC, it becomes a deep topic which needs good mentoring to be done about it. Yes, there is a massive wealth of information in Oracle documentation about the subject, but if there is something which explains things in a more organized manner, I guess, that would make things much ea...

Upset, Sad, Shattered….

I tried to sleep but I can’t. Those few who know me well, they are aware about this that’s its not a new thing to be heard for them. I don’t know whether its right or not to say because someone said to me that its too early to mention it but I feel, this year has not started well. I may be wrong but that’s what the feeling in my heart is at the moment and I am so wishing that this must be incorrect because am running out of energy to face things I am facing already! I visited a  friend of mine today. I called him last night to ask what’s going on his side because I was smelling something fishy cooking and despite wishing so hard that it must not come true, it did come! I won’t post any information about my friend so don’t bother asking me it and I can’t mention at all what has actually happened as well because its so very personal! But I still can say one thing that when he told me over phone what happened and who did it, after hearing that, I couldn’t stop my tears and my anger ...

Mixed Emotions….

Finally, after a long and cold week, I am back at home. If you have read the immediate last post of mine, you would be knowing it that some how , the program went okay. I was thinking that there is another program right away but ( thank god) its not there. So I believe I shall be able to stay at home for few days and won’t have to move around in this REALLY cold weather. I have couple of things lined up for me and I want to finish at least a few in this time period! Its always the best to be at home so yes , am happy! At times , you meet someone who becomes just like a part of your family. Someone who is always there, someone whom you can rely upon with closed eyes. Some one who gets the rights to scold you, get angry over you and still love you even after doing all this. This bloody world is full of selfish, self-centered people and if there is someone like what I mentioned, one is able to find, he is nothing but extremely lucky! And luck doesn’t smile at you more than once! And I c...

A Happy Ending....

Oh my, its been so long since I wrote the last post. Its been almost a complete week since I wrote the last post mentioning that I shall be in an "unwanted travel". This was among the most toughest programs that I have handled so far and there were just so many reasons for it as well. First of all, I was asked to do this program since there are just about 3 people who can handle this program at the moment! So yours truly was asked to take over and finish it. I knew from the starting of the discussions that there would be huge issues that would arise and unfortunately , I was right on the money! To make things worse, there were some personal issues also which did arise. But all said and done, I decided to do this program. The starting itself of the program didn't go well. The whole set up installation had to happen using Linux but initially, it was our good old Windows which was installed and upon asking, delegates clearly mentioned their not-so-happy emotions about it. We...

First “Travel” Post Of 2010….

Wish you all a very happy new year now officially when we are in the new year :-) . And guess from what becomes the first post of mine in 2010? Okay don’t need to guess, its about the travel of mine for a program that’s starting today after about 3 hours. Well, I didn’t want to go for this tour in the first place( and I still don’t want to go either) but I was given so many reasonings and was requested so much that I was left with no other choice but to say yes. Its a real bad weather though for traveling if you ask me. There is so much fog and winter is at its peak. And moreover, the program is also very tough. I am not sure that what is going to happen? Let’s see and hope that all goes fine! Wish me luck guys, am going to need it so much! Now some odd things, not much just two of them only! First, I have changed my laptop backpack as well.Well saying changed is not correct I believe as I never used one before :-) . So its going to be a real tough thing for me to get adjusted to thi...

Grant ‘Very Happy 2010’ To All….

Yes its a wrong syntax if we see it from a technical point of view but it sounds perfect still! Another year is ending and a new year is just on the doorsteps. I wish you all who come here a very happy and prosperous 2010 and the best of the holiday season! Hope this year brings the best of everything for you and becomes one of the most memorable and happening years of your life! Have a great new year evening either tonight or tomorrow night( depending on where you are on this planet) and have lots of fun :-) .   I shall be posting the zodiac forecast of my sun sign Aquarius for 2010 as soon as it becomes available. So if you are also an Aqua, make sure you do check back this space some time later :-) . Hope planets move in the right manner in 2010 :-) . Update: I am still not able to find the 2010 horoscope and I shall be honest, I didn’t even try much hard as well. But I was just reading what in general Aquarians are, always a fun and feel of satisfaction to read that we ar...

Back & Injured….

I got back today from the last program of this year of  mine. I guess, I was just waiting for the program to get finished so that I could fly back to home asap! It was a little long to wait  I believe this time since I am out of home and on the roads from last many weeks. But, its finished and thank god, it went really well as well! That was biggest worry that it should not happen that the last program of the year would get screwed up! Thanks to god and the co-operation of all the delegates, it went really well. All the delegates were really nice and intelligent and said so many kind words before we finished the program! Thanks a lot guys! Now, all the programs are over, I guess at least for 2-3 days, I can have some rest which is must now since I, due to my very own stupidity, have injured myself as well. How come ? Well, keep on reading! Since childhood, I have a talent of doing something which others can't even think of and when it happens, at times, even I wonder myself ...

Sleepless Night, Yet Again....

I didn't get time to write before I was leaving this time. It wasn't long enough too that I was at home. I left the next day only after writing this . And there is no time that I could get in these days to write anything. Today also wasn't any exception as I am just so much tired and feeling so weak. By the time I am back in the hotel, I am in the position that I can fall anywhere. May be its too much travel that I am doing since last 2 months and/or the impact of constant travels are becoming visible. Not sure what is there? So what's the exception that I am writing at almost midnight today, you may ask! well, no other reason but that I can't sleep. After spending almost 3 hours on the back, turning upside down, there is no sleep in my eyes. There are so many thoughts in the mind, so many things going on that even though I am feeling so damn tired, I am still not able to get sleep for few moments even! So what to do when you are not able to sleep? Read poetry and l...

Back….

I got back just now. Though it was a tiring week still, the outcome came out very  nice! The delegates were very happy and spoke so many kind words about me that I don't even think I am even worthy even! Here is one comment that I recieved from one delegate which he posted on my oracle blog . I am posting the exact wording here as I believe, this is among the nicest sayings that I have heard," I can’t resist myself without saying that it was a very enriching experience for me,during these last Five days of our Training session on Oracle 11g New features. Thanks once again Praaji! U r just awesome..!! All I can say is thanks so much to all of you. I know nothing but despite that, it was very kind of all of you to say such nice words for me! I just can say thanks but believe me, I mean it when I am saying it! I need some break but there is none at the moment. I need to travel again tomorrow for another program. Hopefully, this should be the last program of this year. The...

Sleepless Night….

At times, when you need something so desperately and you don't get it, only that can understand what it feels like who have experienced it. After a long, extremely tiring day, with a bad health, how much sleep can help, its something which can't be explained. But unfortunately, sleep and peace are among those few things which nothing and no one can get for you even if you are the wealthiest person of this planet! I certainly am not the wealthiest person so I am not saying it for myself but isn't it same for those people who really have that much of wealth? Just like that being in crowd doesn't mean that one is not alone and sitting all by yourself doesn't mean that you are alone! No, its not a tongue in cheek. Its really true, just depends how much one did understand this statement. I am not having a good time. Though the delegates are very nice, intelligent and cooperative, still the complexity of the module, tiredness that I have accumulated from constant , seve...

Birthday, Travel.…

I can't seem to think any other title for a post which is for two different topics! Anyways, first about the birthday! Its my sister Gunjan's birthday today! Happy birthday dearest Gudia! Its just a shame that I need to travel on this day. I really want to be here with her, spending the entire with her but I need to go for this tour! Despite that I won't be able to spend time with her, I am still somewhat happy as I could be here on her birthday at midnight to wish her. Last time also,I was absent and I didn't want to repeat the same thing this year! We did cut cake at 12:00am last night! She wanted to get some stuff for her and was waiting for me to get it for her! So yesterday, I took her along and got what she wanted! Though I am not completely dissatisfied but I am still not happy at all! But I am helpless and I need to go at any cost! God bless you Gudia! Happy birthday dearest Gudia! Well, needless to say that I am traveling also today. Its really going to be a ...