Aman's Blog....

I just read this awesome piece of poetry over my friend, Amardeep's poetry blog  and within an instant , it striked me so much deep inside. If you have been in love and lost it, got hurt by it, you would understand the heat hidden in these words. Have a read it, dayaar-e-gair mein kaise tujhe sada dete tu mil bhi jata to tujhe gawa dete (dayaar-e-gair=alien/unknown place, sada=voice, call) tumhi ne ham ko sunaya na apna dukh warna dua woh karte ke ham aasmaan hila dete hamein yeh zom raha ab ke woh pukaarenge unhein yeh zid thi k har baar ham sada dete (zom=illusion) woh tera gam tha k taseer mere lahje ki ke jis ko haal sunaate use rula dete (taseer=effect) tumhein bhulana hi aval to dastaaras mein nahi jo ikhtiyar bhi hota to kya bhula dete (aval=firstly, dastaaras=within reach, ikhtiyar=control) tumhaari yaad ne koi jawab hi na diya mere khiyal ke aansu rahe sada dete samaaton ko main taa-umar kostaa Syed woh kuch na kehte magar honth to hila dete (samaaton=hearing power...

I have been listening songs and in that, sad songs from a long time. Though its always tough to bring that pain in both lyrics and music which one has himself not felt, still there are some songs which do justice to those emotions. I have mentioned few of those kind of songs in the past over here.  Despite that there are so many songs out there, there are very few, I shall even say, countable over finger tips which are truly magical and have a capability to simply hook you with them. Its very rare that the voice of the singer truly do a justice with that pain which only that person can understand who has his heart wounded. I found this song just 3 days back.Infact, I didn’t even find it.  I just stumbled over it and since that time,I believe I must have heard it over hundred times. After so long, I have heard just a song and nothing else. Now a days, even sad songs are prepared by adding disco beats in them so that people can enjoy them while driving.  But those who do ...

Yeah yeah it does sound that I went for years but no, that's not the case. I am back from my program and I am back with smiles over my face which is only because the audience was smiling. I must say, it was second time when I met a very good audience, a perfect blend of right people for the right kind of module. Though there were some who stood apart from everyone else but still, I can't say who was better than the other as all were equally good. I love to get questions and its better when they are tough and I was lucky enough that I got very good ones. One question is still pending to be answered. Though I did give the answer with my little knowledge but I am not convinced and I am sure, neither would be that guy who asked it. I am still searching for the "under-the-hood" answer of it. I have got some leads, hope I shall get the entire puzzle set straight soon. Over all, it was a program worth remembering. Guys were really good and they gave really good comments abo...

TokBox  is an excellent application. I had a profile  over it but I didn't record any video post. TokBox allows one to create public posts which all can see. I have recorded one today and here it is, http://www.tokbox.com/post/jqorraaexmj9 If you think that I am not looking so good, its the camera and if you think that my voice is scary,its the microphone :-) .

We have brought dad back home today. I guess I didn't mention it before but both my dad and younger sister met with a very severe road accident. Some stupid arse gal hit them and ran away. Even though when people contacted her, she just jerked her hands off saying that she hasn't done anything. I am always against letting gals drive any damn thing because they have no idea about at all whatsoever about it and they do know it in and out, how to put the blame of their mistakes on others. If you think its a biased opinion, well I can't do anything in it, sorry. Its there and its going to be there now. There are lots of things which are going to be biased now from me as this world is not letting me stay the way I am. I would just mention that though, we are at home, it doesn't mean everything has gone fine. Dad has undergone two major surgeries and will be on bed for 2 months, surviving only on liquid diet. The same is there for my sister who has got sever internal injurie...

I am writing this from my pda which I bought few days back but couldn't get time to write about it yet. This probably is among the worst times that me and my family have ever undergone. I never felt so sad, upset and helpless as I am feeling now. In the same time, I am so much pist of over few people and out of words for saying thanks to some few who didn't bother that its day or night and have stood along with us at this time. There is a huge difference between just saying things and actually doing some thing for some one and  I have seen both at this point of time. I won't say anything at this point of time as its not the right moment but its mandatory to mention that some have gone so much high in my eyes and some have hurt me beyond words. Still, all I want is that this phase must be over asap and everything gets fine. If that god is out there anywhere, its high time for him to show his presence.

Few months back, I saw a small dream to make a platform for those who want to do Oracle but due to lack of support, information are not able to do so. The idea was to formulate a ground which can support all of those people who are in anyways related to Oracle technologies. For the past few months, me and Amardeep were working really hard to make this dream a reality. I had decided to make this forum limited to those who belong to the North India side of the country. We were working really hard to do all what's needed for it. But despite, all of the odds, we started it and finally today, we did make it open for the public access. So, as the president of NIOUG(North India Oracle Users Group), I am happy and proud to mention that our web portal is up from today. Please visit us at , http://www.nioug.org . We have tried to be as unique as possible and will continue to do so in future as well. Do let me know, how did you find the entire concept, is it good, bad and all the things lik...

I am back today about 2 hours ago early in the morning. I am not sure what else to say that this is the worst time for my family and me as there is a very severe happening happened with my dad and younger sister. My bad luck was that I couldn't come when it did happen, I just got back and in two hours, I shall be rushing towards hospital. I don't know yet what would happen as things are still in not clear and situation is really bad. In this so much hard time, as much I am worried and tense, like the same I have two another feelings. One, of great relief and happiness to see that there are few people around me who have gone beyond limits and stood besides my family in this so much crucial time. Manjeet, Kavita, Sunil, Mansi , these all have given their full support in each and every thing, making sure that even when I was not there, nothing would had got effected. I never liked saying thanks and listening sorry, both are just very small acts, But I guess at times, one needs t...

Yes ,I am leaving tomorrow. It will be a long and grueling travel and on top of that, I am going to handle some of the toughest modules and people. Let's see what happens? I am really not in a mood to go but I have to. Hope everything goes fine. Wish me luck guys and pray for me.

I have not been able to sit and write from past few days. There were couple of reasons for it. Despite that I have quite a few things to talk about, I don't have time to do it at the moment as I shall be leaving tomorrow. Still, there are few things about which I would surely write about in forthcoming posts. At present, these are some random things which are not necessarily related to each other. Last few days have been very uneasy. I can't say that they were very busy or hectic as I am at home. But yes there are lots of issues on the personal side. I have been moving to the hospital daily. Its not me who is sick but in the family. I have to leave in between and go tomorrow. I just hope that everything goes fine. It was festival season ( and still there will be festivals coming along) so there was a huge amount of hustle and bustle which was there. I went with my sister for some shopping. She wanted to buy some clothes, we also bought few gifts for distribution. It was for ...

Alex from Pythian  mentioned about TokBox  which lets you make a video call at no extra effort. I just made a login there and here I am over TokBox.  It looks promising in the first look. In any case, I have an account here now and I shall be playing around with it. See it for yourself too and hope to "see" you in a call!

My sister and her friends wanted to go for a movie as they were having a holiday yesterday. So I was asked to come along. I don't watch movies much. You can imagine this that this was exactly one year since the last I went for any  movie. It was too with my sister and her friends. So it was indeed she who took me to it , not the other way round :-). Gals wanted to see, Golmaal Returns but to their luck, the entire show was full and there was no ticket uptil night. I proposed to see, Roadside Romeo but I was made quite by saying, its a kid movie. Fashion was rejected without even discussion. So they finally zeroed down to Heroes. About the movie, well I don't know what to say? That "aha" feeling is not there. Okay, it was a nice, refreshing movie. It was having a different angel to look at patriotism. Young lads don't like to join arm forces as the life over there is very tough  and its not such a lucrative job. But than what's there which make people joi...

You don't want to see especially on a festival day like today. In the morning , when I started my phone to send message to someone in Australia, my phone gave me a welcome message, "General: System Error". Searching for it over the net revealed that there is some error in the files of its Symbian operating system. Am I upset? You can bet that I really am. One, I would probably lose all the content I have in it ( and its a lot of it) , my phonebook details as well. Second, I have to get a new phone as I see some thing for twice afterwards, my trust is broken. My phone has already broken my trust , this was the second time and this time, its a serious offense on its part. So instead of me going and having some fun, I would need to rush to the service center and give it for repair. Hopefully it would get repaired. A not-so-nice way to start a day of Diwali! Update: Well I spent almost the entire day trying to sort out what can be done for my phone. I knew since morning th...

I have been getting lots of emails to come over WAYN( Where Are You Now)  . I was just ignoring all of the invitations up till now. Today, finally when I got one more for this site, I decided to finally give it a go. There is nothing much into the site and to be honest, I didn't find it much attractive too. But I am now over WAYN and if you are there too and know me, search me and send a add request and I shall add you. As like always, the profile is added over all of my previous web spaces and you should be able to see it on the right hand side of this page. Happy WAYNing!

Well, anyone is welcome in my home. If you do know me really than you must be familiar with this fact that in my home, everyone is welcome. So indeed you are too. But at the moment, this welcome is to see my home's image as visible by satellite. So if ever you would like to come and meet me and would be looking for my home, you may use this as a reference :-). Here is the link to the image, http://wikimapia.org/10371245/Here-I-Am You can see a rectangle saying the same, "Here I am". It wasn't easy to locate though. I did try before when I saw the same over my friend's blog but I couldn't do locate mine. Even now, I was looking in another location not the one which is selected at the moment? Is this is correct? Well see its kinda far and I normally don't look at home from sky. I normally do it standing outside of it over the same level where it is located. So chances are that it may be a slight wrong but as per my best powers, I am sure its correct and t...

I wish you all a very happy and prosperous Diwali . May you enjoy this with lots of joys, crackers, sweets with your nears and dears. Its the biggest festival in India and for all the Indians around the globe and I wish, this would bring the biggest joys for you and for your family. Be safe and enjoy the most of it. I shall just mention one more thing which is in mind. Last year, me and my family were not sure that were we going to have a Diwali or not? This year too, the same scary feeling creeped in due to some serious personal issues. I am just praying to God that nothing bad should happen and he would make us celebrate this year with joys for many years yet to come. I wish he is listening to me and my prayers. Happy Diwali all of you!

You must be thinking that what the heck is wrong with this guy that he has started coming up with such kind of low sounding posts only? Well, the truth is that some thing is not right and I am unable to spot on that what's it?One reason is that there are just so many so many things that's why I can't mention just one out of them. Despite that all are making me feel the same, probably there is one thing which I know for sure, stands out among the rest and that is....No I won't mention it because some things are better when not said. Those who truly can understand, they would have got it up til now and those who couldn't , they probably won't get it even when words would give a try. So what I am doing at midnight when I should be on the bed? Well I changed the post's title from where it is to what it is? Initially it was where only, just to mention that I am not sure where is the sleep? Probably, its too busy to come to me ;-). Never mind bec...

I just got back two hours ago. Though I was supposed to get back some time in the midnight only but when you fly with bunch of incompetent people who don't really care what is the status of the plane, don't really bother to do the checking and maintenance "before" the flight's flying time than you are bound to get late  and that's the same happened with me as well. Am I sounding pist off? You can bet I am! The best thing which did happen was that the program went well. Rather I should say, guys gave me a very good sign off. It was a collective good bye with some very good words. I don't really deserve all those good words which they said about me as I know so less and all of them were so much better than me but still, I am just so much thankful to them for their kind words. One guy even used the word "best" for me, really not suitable for me but still, from the bottom of my heart, thanks a bunch! They were all very nice and they were all happy ...

Its getting tough to stay here.  I am not sure why its like that? Normally I enjoy my stay where ever I go but its not happening this time. I am feeling like running away. No, its not the module or the guys. They are the best, really nice, especially a guy Venkat. A very senior guy but so much humble and so much nice! Its a pleasure to know such kind of people really. So its not anything from here but still  I am feeling just to run away. I don't know the reason behind it. Its kinda getting hard to focus. There are certain things not good on the personal side. Don't know what's happening and why! Just want everything to get sorted out as soon as possible. I wanted to buy some stuff for me but I won't be going for it anymore. Hopefully would be able to make the program go fine tomorrow. Let's see!

It was a tiring day. Since the morning only, I was feeling so much tired. I don't know what's the reason of it but I just wanted to sleep. One reason of that may be is that I am not sleeping properly ;-) . But still, that's not some thing which is new for me so I am not sure what is it which is making me feel like this. Well anyways, guys are great. I can't recall when in the past, for this module which at present I am handling, I have discussed this much of details! And moreover, I am finding guys into the program as well, asking their doubts. So it means ,at least for the moment things are okay(sigh). My phone has been behaving oddly. All of a sudden, its microphone is not working. So it means that I am able to hear but they can't. Good! And good thing is that it happened all of a sudden, my hand phone didn't drop anywhere, no water, no humidity nothing. I guess like most of the people around me, its also not willing to stay with me anymore. I bought it when...