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I was going to write about my traveling which would start from tomorrow and couple of other things which did happen today but then, I got a call from a friend who asked me that whether I have heard the above mentioned song? Well, I didn’t apparently. He made me hear the song over his phone and told me a story behind this song. I liked the song so much that I immediately asked him to email me the song which he did and the next step for me was to find that how really well it’s out in the web world. To my amazement, it’s really is a popular song! About the story behind it, I have been reading different versions of it, even this that it’s fake but nevertheless, I would still mention it here. If it turns out to be a rumor, I shall put a note and will edit it in the future. But I do believe that what’s mentioned in the story, it might have happened in real as well. With all due respect to all the girls of this world, I still do believe that what is mentioned in the story, it really might hav

At times, it takes thousands of sentences to depict the pain and at times, just few words say it all, tell about it all that how the wounds given by the beloved ones hurt, kill you long before you would actually kiss death! I read few of such lines just now and they all hit the nail right on the head and did complete justice to depict such pain. They are in Hindi, I shall translate in English as well. So here is the first one, Usi ka shehar, wo hi muddai, wo hi munsaf, Humein yaqeen tha humaara kasoor niklega And here is it’s translation in English, Her city, she only being litigant, she only being judge, I was sure, I would be proved guilty! Here comes the second one, Mujhe bhi yaad rakhna jab likho tareekh-e-wafa Sagar, K maine bhi lutaya hai mohabbat mein sukoon apna!   And here is it’s translation, Do keep me in mind too when would write the tales of love, That I too have lost my peace, happiness in love!   Third one, Humaare bagair bhi aabad hain

One of my very close friends came to see me just a while ago. He came because he came to know that I am not feeling so well. Why? Well, I can’t blame for it on anyone or on anything else because I myself made that happen, something same which I did couple of years back as well and tried my best to be successful in it but I couldn’t. And this time too, I couldn’t get it done unfortunately but I have promised myself to get it done no matter what, whatever way possible! Anyways so he came to see me and he didn’t ask me a single thing. All he said, “Don’t bother explaining, I can very well guess. Just know this that you are so much good, there are few who would miss you so much if you would go away. That’s all you need to remember.”  I just couldn’t say anything except being in tears. I so wished that he could come a little earlier, on the day may be when I came back to India. He was there with me last time too when I was sick and this time too, he didn’t miss the chance to come and see me

It’s very easy to hurt someone, let him be into tears and still pay no attention. It’s very easy to say to someone that “you don’t understand” without even thinking for a moment that it may be possible that the other person may be knowing much much more than you can possibly imagine as well. It’s very easy to give a promise but it’s so hard to keep that promise. It’s so easy not to take even a step ahead and sit peacefully, it’s so easy to not to do anything. But  even if it’s the smallest and easiest thing to do too,  it’s  tough, really tough to do whatever it takes to keep the promise given and yet when you hear when you do something with so excitement, despite of all the troubles that you have faced for someone who means so much for you, that you did so because “you always do just what you want to do”, not knowing that even though one may think that task was nothing and it was so easy to do it, not knowing that how how many troubles the other person might have faced in order to k

At times, you read some thing which just explains what you even can’t express in words. Somewhat same happened with me as well today. I have just got back home. Where I was? I was sitting somewhere alone thinking so many things with eyes wet. While sitting there, I got a text from a friend of mine and that’s just summed up not just today but the last almost one week of mine. I decided that when I shall be back, I shall put it here with it’s translation in English. Here is the original version in Hindi, Aaj udaas hoon to kisi ne aawaz bhi na di Faraaz, Ye matti ke putley kyon kisi se wafa nahin karte!   And it’s translation in English, Today when I am so sad, no one even called me for a moment too, Not sure why these statues don’t love anyone! I am not in a state of mind to say anything. I took leave for something and I shall be back on roads tomorrow traveling but this time,I shall be ensuring that I am not coming back home soon. The program that I am going to undertake

It’s the Chinese new year and I wish you all a very happy year of Rabbit . If you are not sure which animal sign you are ( I am Monkey just in case you are wondering) , you can check it here . My new year has started with a painful left foot which I got when I was taking a walk in the night. It happened all of a sudden and after a real painful night spent, what I see in the morning is that the foot has got swelling. I shall put some ointment over it today and would wait for it to get better otherwise, I would be forced to say a happy new year to some doctor. I hope it doesn’t happen. Anyways, I wish that this year brings you all a lot of happiness and success in whatever you do and if in case, you are willing to know what’s the year has in store for you, you can check (out of many) this link ( this is for me, you need to select yours though).

Qateel Shifai is not an unfamiliar name for those who have an eye and taste for good poetry. He is considered as one of the best poets who has crafted some of the finest poetic masterpieces. It’s so tough to say that which one is more better than the other because they are all so good still, I have couple of my favorites and I decided to put one here with it’s translation done in English. It’s originally in a mix of Hindi and Urdu though. So without further a due, here is the original version, Ik ik patthar jod ke maine jo deevar banaai hai, Jhaanku us ke peechhe to rusvaai hi rusvaai hai. Yun lagta hai sote jaagate auron ka mohataj hoon main, Aankhein meri apni hain par unmein neend parai hai. Dekh rahe hain sab hairat se neele neele paani ko, Poochhe kaun samandar se tujh mein kitani geharai hai. Sab kehte hain ik jannat  utari hai meri dharti par, Main dil mein sochun shayad kamzor meri binaai hai. Bahar sehan mein pedon par kuch jalate bujha

I am sitting here in this room alone at the moment, thinking about tons of things, lost in many many of the thoughts. Why? Well, that’s not something that I can tell, may be it’s just my own fault so I can’t say anything or may be….never mind, it’s not important, neither me and neither the thoughts of mine.I am really worried as well since someone is not feeling well and I can’t do anything about it.  So let’s see, what you do sitting idle and alone? No, I don’t watch tv much (and not really came here to watch it anyways) . No, not going out or eating too, not in a mood to go anywhere (though the cab driver of mine was telling me some places to check) and haven’t eaten anything actually since yesterday except a stupid cutlet. So what else? Well,  I checked OTN forums , my emails(nothing much is there) and then listened to songs repeatedly on my iPod.  So when I was done doing all that, I decided to check whether there is any new song out or not and guess what, there is! Its from Nachha

I am not sure what to say? I have travelled to some place so far so that can bring a little happiness but I guess, it didn’t happen and I just caused the trouble, that’s all. I am sitting in this room thinking about some things and wondering. Tears are flowing through the eyes but at this moment, even they are not helping. Want to say so much but I guess may be running short of words or may be, just don’t want to say anything. Update: I just came to know that I did put that someone in trouble. It seems that I am just wrong in everything, whatever I do, I am just wrong in it. I don’t know what to think right now, just want someone to be fine, just this that’s all!

No, that’s not BlackBerry I meant, it means Back Bitching . Yeah, I know that the words are not really polite but I am also not in a mood to be nice today either. I am nice( almost all the time) but when I am in bad mood, well I can just say that I am not so nice at that time. That’s exactly how I am feeling right now. I don’t know what business speaking bad about people or talking things taken out of the context about someone does any good for anyone since I don’t do it myself but I have seen it today happened with me. I may not know how it’s done but I surely am feeling the outcome of it! I have got a call today from a colleague telling me that one another colleague is upset over me. When I asked why, he said that someone ( he didn’t tell who, he didn’t know actually) told to that “other colleague” of mine some bad things that eventually I have spoken. WTH! I did hear the matter and called that upset colleague and clarified that it was most probably a statement or two taken complet

I have just got an email which had a small but amazing poetry. So good that I couldn’t stop myself from putting it here. I am not aware about the name of the poet to give the due credit at the moment. If anyone knows, please let me know via comment and I shall give the credit to the poet(s) as (s)he truly deserve it. The poetry is in Punjabi and no prize for guessing that I shall be translating it to English. So without further delay, here it is, Ajj oh mainu russe nu manaun aayi, Saare gile-shiqve mitaun aayi! Main chup-chap sunda reha, Ajj jad oh dil da haal sunaun aayi! Ro ro k usne mangi muafi, Ajj oh apne ton bewafa da daag jad mitaun aayi. Main khudgarz peya hi reha, Uth ke us de hanjhu v naa poonjh sakeya, Jo meri qabar te ajj deewa jagaun aayi! And here is it’s translation in English, Today she came to please me, To settle all the disputes and quarrles. I kept on listening to her quitely,

The reason for that (short) title is that I have got couple of emails asking that where I am, am I alive or not , I have just ‘disappeared” :) . Well, I am alive, haven’t yet shifted to Mars and (unfortunately) haven’t got disappeared yet. I am at home from a week and shall be traveling tomorrow. Though I was at home, I still couldn’t write anything because of couple of things happening around. Not much out of those are sorted but still, I just thought would write a short travelogue before I shall start my travel of tomorrow. I am at home since a week but most of the time, I was busy taking care of someone very special within the family. She is not well at all and in the last 4-5 days, she was really really not well at all. Since yesterday, she is a little better but still far from being called fine. Almost the entire time me and whole family spent taking care of her. As I am leaving tomorrow, the biggest tension on my mind is that she would remain fine and the medication that we hav

Another year has come bringing new wishes, arising new hopes! I wish you all who come here by any ways, a very happy 2011 and I pray that all of you achieve lots of success, happiness and joys in everything you would do in this year, also with a great health! I hope you had a great new year eve’s celebrations at your place and had a lot of fun with your nears, dears, family and friends! Have a great year ahead and a happy weekend as well from me i.e. AristaDBA aka Aman Sharma :) .

At times, some wordings , even when they come in front of you all of a sudden, are so good and awesome that they leave a print on your mind and heart for forever. Yes, it does require that you do have what it would take to understand the deepness of those words though. I came across such one short poetic marvel few days back which I liked so much and thought would share it here. So since today, I have got some time free with me and also, thanks to headache(and a little fever which is slowly creeping its way) due to which I am not able to do anything technical at least today, I thought to finally put that poetry here. I actually should have been sleeping since I haven’t slept almost not at all in the entire last night, but I am not able to so what more can be better than sharing something which I really liked so much! So here is the Punjabi version of the poetry first, Kalleyan ishq kamauna aukha, Kise nu yaar banauna aukha! Pyar pyar te har koi bole, Kar k pyar nibhau

I have just got back home today morning. I wasn’t supposed to come back actually since there was another session scheduled for me but somehow, it got cancelled. If you have read random thoughts , you would be knowing about the reasons that why it got cancelled. In a way, it happened for good only because I am completely burnt out and was having no strength to pull it through at all. So after a little bit of initial confusion that whether I am traveling back or not, it was finalized yesterday that I am indeed traveling back and I did! it had been cold two weeks at Hyderabad and it seems that I brought the same cold, chilly weather with me back to home as well. The temperature in Hyderabad is always pleasant, at least in the night it’s like this. Since I have seen, experienced much colder weathers than what the residents of Andhra live into, I can bear much more “cold” than what is there. But still, this time, even for me, it was indeed cold there. The temperature was almost the same w

I have just finished the session. Though overall, it did went okay and as I mentioned in the last post, the delegates( overall) were good and friendly. This was among those sessions which are really hard to do and takes a lot from your mental side because there are tons of things in it which are really hard to express and show in a confined outlined content, not to mention that there are some practical hands-on as well which delegates must finish and is an integral part of the curriculum. So overall, looking at all the factors, it can be easily categorized as a very tough module to deliver and to be honest, to attend and understand. That’s not the only trouble with the course that it’s tough, there is one more and a bigger, more serious one! If a course is really really tough too, it can be made easy by going into very deep of the things provided the people who are sitting in front of you are actually able to understand what’s coming out of your mouth and words spoken by you are not

I was actually going to put the title as “two gone, one left” but then I changed it to the current one. No, the original one didn’t mean anything “adventurous” but it was just to mention that out of 3 days of my current session, two are over today and there is only one left. It has been a tough tour for me actually. Not to mention that the modules are really tough, the constant headache, fever, wandering mind, all of these made things really really harder than they actually could be. There are some other things on at the home front too which are also not pleasant and thus adding to the already-not-good mindset of mine. I should be sleeping by now but there is no sleep in the eyes and that’s the reason of me sitting and compiling some random thoughts. I guess I have mentioned it already that the module is really tough and not the current only but all the past three that I have finished so far. Some do ask me that why do I think that they are tough? In fact, even just today, I had a co

Its almost 2am and I am not able to find sleep anywhere near to my eyes. One reason can be is this headache which is just not ready to go away. One of my colleague, in the office mentioned that it can be serious and can be a migraine as well. I can’t say that I can deny any of the two things. Its not that I didn’t take any medicine or tablet for it, I did and in fact, I did have just a few hours ago in a hope that it will heal the headache but it doesn’t seem to be working. The other reason that probably is not letting me sleep is the presence of so many thoughts in mind about so many things. I wish, like computers, there could be a reboot or a “kill –9” ( command to terminate forcefully a struck (even running) program) to my mind :). But it can’t happen but still, I am trying( in vain) to get somewhat near to it. Let’s see, how far I would be able to go.

Well, as I said already, I wasn’t very hopeful about it being any different from day 1 and I came out to be correct. There is nothing which I would mention about the day as good. The day started (actually carried forward from yesterday) with a headache which is still giving me company (despite of my wish) . On top of it, there is a lot of things that are going on in the mind making me so much upset and tense. So all I did was that I was in my room, ordered lunch from outside and took a small nap after having it and after that, was just in the room lost in the thoughts. I just had two Disprins for headache and would be going to bed now in a hope that sleep may come, even for some time, it would be fine since I have a session starting tomorrow and it’s needless to mention that it’s a tough one. Hope sleep shows some kindness over me.

I am sure that you must be waiting for the Day-2 update but that probably has to wait because there is nothing I have done so far which can be counted as an update. After a real late wake-up, all I have done is that I have had my breakfast and also two Disprins to ease out a little the headache which is hammering my head like someone is playing drums with full power. To make things real spicy, there are some tons of thoughts which are there in my mind. I have made a small plan to visit some mall in the afternoon, let’s see how much I would be able to stick to it? Anyways, so if this post is not about the update of weekend’s Day-2, what it’s all about? Well, its about poetry which I have read and really liked. Words, either in written or spoken form, can do wonders in expressing emotions. Yes at times, even words are not enough to express some things and fail miserably even getting closer to show some emotions. But that’s not what I am going to write about here. I read three very nice