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….But you can’t skip too if you really have no choice in your hands. That’s kind of same what happened with me as well. I am back from day 1 of 2 travel almost an hour go and I am feeling really burnt. Why? First, I am not feeling well and as I said just now, don’t travel when you are sick, especially not for work, again for which I traveled today. Second, not in a good mood. Actually, in a really bad and upset mood and in my field of work, its not a good combination when you are in an upset mood and is out for work. Its a torture, plain torture! Mix bad mood with fever and you have got everything you need to mess things up, being cranky and feeling like that earth must part and you disappear inside it without leaving a trace even! I have got another day of working left before I shall get a break for a day and then the BIG time travel will start. I am not sure that I would be able to sort out my health and mood by that time. Let’s see what happens.

I passed last almost 3 hours sitting on a bench in a park which is nearby to my home. I go there when I am in a specific mood. That bench, on which I sit, is like a faithful friend who never says anything, never asks me to leave, never questions me anything but just lets me sit there as long as I wish. Usually there are lots of people in the park but fortunately for me, today there were almost none. There were few kids who were playing for some time but then they left too because it was really cold in the evening today. I should had not sat there too because of not being so well (its not a good idea to sit in cold when you have fever)  but there was no other place for me to go except that one and as I said, that bench never asks me to leave or even asks me why I have come there so that’s the best place for me to be with myself. What I was doing there? Well, I was appearing to be sitting quite outwardly  but I was thinking a lot of things inside. Did I manage to get somewhere in that th

If you are a regular here, you must be aware about this that I have started putting some of my favorite songs and their translations in English here so that people, who don’t understand Hindi, Punjabi or may be they do but not at a very deeper level, can still listen and enjoy these songs as well. I don’t know that whether others like these songs too but hey, its my blog so the content would be that only which I would like and want to put, right? :) . Anyways, so I have put several songs over here already and you can find them by a little bit of browsing. Today also, I am going to put one song and its translation here but the funny part is that I myself had not listened to it before ever. Its today evening itself when I heard this song for the first time. Though I have been mentioned about this song already before but I never did pay much attention to listen to it. Today, by chance when I heard the starting of this song, I couldn’t stop me from listening to it till the end and then aga

This is really going to be a short one because I am in a terrible condition at the moment physically (and also mentally) . I haven’t slept much since past couple of days and I am sure, with the present state of mine, its not going to happen anytime soon for next couple of days as well. Anyways, I was listening to To Phir Aao in a loop (have listened some 60 times already I believe since morning) and was checking OTN forums side by side. One thread caught my attention since the request given by the poster is really weird. Its like asking that how can I fit engine of a car of 1980 make in the most latest car available in 2010. I did ask him that what’s the reason he is willing to do so. He replied that his company’s most important program is not yet ready to get to the latest release of oracle database and also, 8i is a more reliable and easy to use version than the latest releases. Okay, I must admit, I didn’t have a smile from last couple of days on my face but this one, this thre

Sleep and thoughts, these are like two step-sisters who really don’t like each other. Only one can stay in the room of eyes at one time. The moment both get together, you can be assured that they won’t like each other and will fight. Most of the times, its the sleep who has to run away. Thoughts never get over-powered by sleep because unlike sleep, they have no dependency on anything like eyes must be closed for example. Thoughts, along with their buddy, mind, are always around, irrespective the eyes are open or closed. There is not such a big thing to not to have sleep in the eyes but the bigger question is, what to do when you are not sleepy and can’t do what you want to do at that time too? And to make things more crispy, thoughts just keep on doing aerobics in the courtyard of your mind when you are thinking all this! I have gone mad? No, there is no such thing. I am just lost in thoughts and can’t do what I want to right now so I am just trying to make my own self smile a little b

Last week was a almost like roller-coaster ride. There were many things happening , some were making me happy, some were making me upset. You can imagine from this that the day I landed in my hotel, it had its broadband stopped and the irony was, they were having two connections and both stopped on the same day. I was told that all would be fine in a day only but it took them 3 days to finally sort it and then too, it did work only for 1 day properly. On 4th day, it was again not working and when on the final day of my stay, it did work too, I didn’t need it much anyways since there was a specific reason that I wanted internet so much in this week. I don’t lose my calm soon but I hate it when someone tries to give me a complete nonsense like my hotel guys were doing when I was asking them about the internet thing. If the same had happened in my home, I would had made sure that within 24 hours, it is resolved and that’s exactly the time which the company promises to fix issues, whose in

Most of the times when I shall go for the travel, its for work. Well, its not most of the times but all the time actually but still, you got it. I still have to go for that travel where I wouldn’t have to worry about work, session, rating and all such kind of things and most importantly, a travel doing which I shall be actually happy. Anyways, I shall stop about talking about “my” things and mention a wedding which I attended yesterday of my friend Pavan. I met Pavan couple of years back in Hyderabad. He joined in front of me and since the time he has joined, we have worked together on various programs and have successfully delivered them as well. To tell about Pavan, he is mostly a quite guy( not much but still he is) but very hard-working, calm, very principled , thinks so deeply about things and above all, a gem of a friend. We don’t get a chance to meet up since we live some thousands of miles away and only time I meet him is when I am out here for work. Still, whenever I am here

Another sneak peak from the list of my favorite songs! Just like the previous two which I have put up here, I listen to this song almost daily and many times. Its from movie Awarapan and the song’s title is To Phir Aao . Its a song which is screened to portray the pain of a guy whose beloved  dies in front of him and that too, with a bullet which was meant for the guy actually. He watches his gal die in his arms and after that, just becomes a cold, stone-hearted person. This song goes along in the entire movie depicting the pain of this guy who longs for his beloved gal and asks her to come back to him by any means! It goes without saying that its an awesome musical piece and I really do like it so very much! This song has couple of versions and I shall try to put its complete version here. It would be in two parts. The first part has less music and actually is from the time when both guy and gal are together. The other half comes up some time later in the movie when the gal is alre

As I said in my last post, I shall try to put some of those song’s translations here which I love to hear so much! There are so many of good songs but there are a few which are very close to my heart and I listen them continuously, some hundreds of times at one go. Yes, I am a little crazy but that’s what I am and there is nothing what can be done about it now when I have already lived almost half of my life. Anyways, the song which I am going to put today here is from an Indian movie but is not an original song composed for it by the music composer. Its sung originally by a Pakistani singer Tassawar Khanum and I must admit, she has sung it really well. So well, that its picked up and inserted in the movie Zeher word by word . I am not in a mood to do any discussions about the entire topic of piracy, copying the music and/or stealing it as I am in a completely different mindset at the moment. Leaving all these things aside, I am just going to pick the movie’s song, in the male voice

I always say, music is a great power. It can bring smiles on someone’s face within minutes and at the same times, it can bring ocean of tears in someone’s eyes as well. When this kind of music is combined with heart-touching lyrics, it becomes an immortal, really strong, heart-touching musical piece. There are many such songs which you can hear for hours and years without getting bored or tired. And every time you listen to them, they strike as powerfully as they do when you hear them for the first time! I have a huge listing of such songs with me which can rip the heart apart and can shake even the most hard hearted souls too. I am listening to one out that listing today and thought would translate it as well. Its from the movie Na Tum Jaano Na Hum which came years ago and somehow, I never could see it in one go. Though the movie didn’t do great on the box-office and even its musical score wasn’t really that good but it did have two, yes not one but two such songs which fit into that

I am supposed to be on the bed at this moment when I am sitting and writing this post since I haven’t slept not even for a second in the past night. Why? Well, I won’t mention the reason of “why”  but I just to add to it, I haven’t slept much almost the entire last week. As I said, I won’t mention “why” here but the reason that I started the post from this as the opening line is that as a direct result of past sleepless night, I should have been on the bed at not here, writing this post. And to tell the truth, I was actually on the bed only before few thoughts hit my mind all of a sudden and don’t know where sleep went after that! So my eyes are wide awake, am feeling uneasy and having worries in heart. I haven’t written much in the last week. Just to summarize a long story short, I didn’t feel like sitting and writing anything. Okay, leaving it apart, let’s just talk about the last week. I was out for a program in this week and I just managed to finish it. It went for an entire week

No, that has nothing to do with anything technical. It just stands for terrible throat pain which I am having since last couple of days. Its really hurting very badly and I am just too tired of having medicines and I guess the doctor, whom I am visiting is also just experimenting with me. None of his medicines for this have worked so far. I am sure throat slit must hurt so much but what if someone is not slitting your throat once and for all but poking fork sitting inside it every moment since that’s exactly I am feeling at the moment! And the usual things like fever and coughing is obviously there to make me feel really uncomfortable, not to mention even the upset mood! Let’s see what else the day has in store for me? 

…I have got some free time! I have finished a program just yesterday and I guess, I am free for next week. I guess I needed some rest since I have been out and traveling from last one month and have been handling some of the toughest clients and programs in this interval. There is an obvious physical tiredness which comes but more than that, there is mental tiredness which comes up. Fortunately, I have been handling different modules in all these weeks, except for the 2nd and 3rd week where I had the same module. But even that was a good thing since that particular module is the one which I want to handle as much as I can. There are several modules which I have decided for me and that particular module is one of the list. I shall be short since I am not feeling well and not having much strength to think, sit and write. Sorry but I really can’t help it! The program which I did in last to last week, was among the best ever programs of mine. There are several reasons for it too. One, th

Good morning(evening)! Its Monday morning here in my time zone and its the day to start of work. Well, I am really not in a mood to do that actually and for it, its not me who should be blamed. The weather is so nice outside and a bit chilly too. I have landed here yesterday and since then, its been raining almost all the time thus making the weather both romantic and sad. Its just the way you look at it which would make the difference actually. Even now, its raining, not really very heavily but enough to make person wet in a minute or so. I just called up my cab driver to check that when he is coming and he has told me 8:10am so I still had few minutes to listen to some songs and check emails. I am playing a song from the movie Anjaana Anjaani which released just a few days back. I haven’t seen the movie but I am sure that its not worth to do that too. So nuff about movie, let’s talk about the song that I am playing. Its Tujhe Bhula Diya( I have forgotten you) . Its an amazingly goo

I started writing this post the other day when I was still at the client’s meeting place after finishing a really really tough program which. But I couldn’t finish it at that time since I was asked whether we should leave by a delegate who happened to go along with me since his residence was very close to where I was staying. As the delegates were doing some work and for that, I wasn’t required, I thought that I should spend time writing about this tour of mine which proved to be one of the most stressful tours of all times. The last two weeks were among the most difficult two weeks of mine. If you haven’t read the immediate last post of mine, please read that to know the reason of this statement of mine. Though its over now, I can still feel the heat of the program very clearly just like I did when it was just about to start. As I said in the last post, there were some really tricky things which got messed up when the final deal was closed. And poor soul me was not at all aware abou

<<RANT STARTED>> I don’t really like to be the 2nd best or the 2nd rank or an under-performing act of mine(and of anyone else too). I am happy only when I know that I have given my best and have performed really good! If that doesn’t happen, for whatever reasons it may be, it makes me really unhappy, dissatisfied, pist-off and all the things which can be related to an upset mood. And this is the exact state of mind I am in at the moment of this writing. I really hate it when there is no clear conversation done by the sales with the client and because of it, the end person, the person who has to face the client, which is ME , faces all the trouble. Why not spend just few extra minutes, clear out all the doubts , tell everything black-white and make sure that there is no confusions in the end? Why to choose a confusing terminology just to end up being confused , client being confused and putting that person who is going to face the client in a real awkward position? That’

I am writing this after finishing the packing of the bag. It has been a really upsetting day since the starting of it and I am still in a very bad and upset mood! I just finished tea and I even forgot to put sugar in it and didn’t realize it at all because was thinking about tons of things. With a really killing headache, painful thumb, twisted ankle(today only) , burning eyes , I guess its fairly okay to declare today as a real damned day! Oh yes, I didn’t have lunch, breakfast this morning as well and also didn’t have dinner last night too but that’s okay, not feeling like eating at all and won’t die too if won’t eat! In the morning itself,while getting down to the reception after receiving call that my pick up has come, I rushed over the stairs. It may sound stupid but I had a feeling that something is going to happen and it did when I lost balance over the damn stairs and ended with a twisted ankle. I guess I can blame eyes for that since they were burning already so I may have n

Yes, my (unexpected) break is over and I am leaving tomorrow. I believe, this time I shall be gone for some longer duration since there are couple of programs lined up for me. To make things more spicy, all of them are hectic but I am looking forward to take over one specific program which is very hectic but for me but will be a giant step ahead in my technical skill set. There are some programs that I have set up for me which I need to finish and start delivering ASAP and I am working hard to do so too. I hope that I would be able to stick to my plan. I am having a really bad headache at the moment so won’t be going more longer. Besides headache, thoughts have taken control of my mind and its thinking too much and too deeper at this moment so its better that I go and get lost in my own dreamland(or whatever it can be called). But before leaving, I would share this awesome piece of poetry from Mohsin Naqvi which are striking in my mind like a hammer at the moment, Kuch dinon ke liye

Its happens so many times that people don’t realize that even when some one doesn’t say anything, he may still have some things just over his lips and within his heart. He may not show but may be feeling bad, hurt, upset. I guess, we normally don’t bother unless someone tells us so and at times, even after someone tells us so! I have just got this text message which does explains it perfectly that there is always a little that is unseen or unsaid, present in few of the most commonly said sentences. To call it little would depend on how much that person is important is for you and how well you understand him/her? But the message nails it right on the spot! Have a read, There is a little truth behind “ just kidding”! There is a little emotion behind “ I don’t care”! There is a little pain behind “ Its okay”!   Yes, it may be just a little but its there!

Well, that’s a perfect title for the post since its actually late night and I didn’t plan to write it at this moment but tomorrow. But since I am not feeling sleepy, I thought, its better to write it down now only and use tomorrow’s time for something else. Songs are playing in the ears through the headphones and its really quite(shouldn’t be surprised about it though)! What the heck I am doing here, you may ask? Well, nothing actually hehehe. Anyways, since I am here now so let me tell you about the last week’s travel. It was a really hectic week if you ask me! If you have read the last post, I have mentioned it there as well that the entire week was really really tough. Though it was superb in the regards of the audience, contents and discussions which did happen in the entire but still, I am not sure why, after this module, I feel like dead! The module contains tons of things to do, discuss and even possible, demonstrate as well. In this program, I didn’t have any machines left fo