Yet Another Sad Song, Afwah....

I guess you must be thinking that I always listen to sad songs only. Well that's not entirely true. Mind it, I didn't say that its "false" but its not completely true too. I listen only what is more closer to my heart, which is more closer to what really happens and the music,lyrics represent some deep and true feelings. If a song has to be in my play list it has to meet all of these conditions. That's why most of the times you find these kind of songs who represent real feelings and not just some lines which are put together to create a number whose only purpose is to be sold in the market and make money for singer and producer.
I mostly listen Punjabi songs( you must have noticed this also). Amrinder Gill is one of those singers of Punjab who has set his marks with his soulful voice. Be it a dance number, romantic song, all of these come naturally to Amrinder. I met him over Bombay airport where we were waiting for our flights back to Delhi. It was great to talk to him and I found him really humble and nice. And being a Punjabi, he was just like any other Punjabi guy, a little naughty,a little carefree and respectful to all who speak with respect to them.
He has brought out his new album, Ishq meaning Love this year. He talked about this album with me a little when we met. This album is having the same kind of quality that all of his past albums are having. Though all the songs are nice but for me one song stood apart which is Afwah(rumor). I was told about this song few days back from my friend Nancy when I went for haircut. I heard just two starting lines of it and absolutely loved it. I got back and I am listening it since then. You can listen to this song over YouTube here. This song is from that lover who  is told that his beloved doesn't love him. But he is not ready to believe on it.  His trust over his love doesn't let him believe on anything what is told to him about his beloved. So he is just saying to entire world that all of this what is being said to him is nothing but lie. But he is also mentioning that if what is told to him is true than he just don't want to live anymore coz its better to die once only than to die every passing day living with this feeling that that person whom he loved more than himself, more than anything else in this world, that person only never loved love him. So that's why he says either this all must be a rumor only or God should take him from this world if its true. That's why the name of the song is Afwah which means rumor. You can listen this song on PZ10.com here  and you can watch the video of this on YouTube here. I am posting the song right here too for your ease. Here it is,


This song is in Punjabi. I shall explain the meaning in English in a while. Here are the lyrics in Punjabi first:
Sabh kehnde ne oh badal gaye, oh bewafa ne!
Sun teer kalajeyon nikal gaye ke oh bewafa ne!
Eh tan ho nai sakda ohnu meri na parwah hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba(repeat)

Chann de kolo channani te diwe kolon lo!
Ho sakda wakhri ho jaye fullan to khushbo!
Eh tan ho nai sakda ohda wakh mere ton rah hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba(repeat)

Dharti de nal ambar russ jaye, rukhan de naal chhan!
Panchhi bul jawange uddna, raahi bhullan garan!
Dharti de nal ambar russ jaye, rukhan de naal chhan!
Panchhi bul jawange uddna, raahi bhullan garan!
Oh bhull jaye main jiunda reh jaan,Kithe maaf gunah hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba(repeat)

Sohne yaar di akhan de palkan te je athru jawe aa!
Raj kakre ro ro akhian bhar dewan daria!
Ishqe de vich dandian di ki is ton wadh saza hove!
Jan rabba sadi jaan nikal jaye ya fer eh afwah hove!
Jan rabba(repeat)
And the meaning in English is as follows:
All are saying that she is changed, she doesn't love me anymore!
Hearing this, my heart is like that its wounded by thousand arrows!
This is not possible that she has no feelings for me anymore!
God if this is true,I shouldn't be alive anymore,
Or this must be just a rumour!

Moonlight from moon, light from candle,
Its possible that fragnance may leave flowers!
But this is not possible that she has chosen another way!
God if this is true,I shouldn't be alive anymore,
Or this must be just a rumour!
God if this is true(repeat)

Sky can be angry from earth,
Shadow can be angry from trees!
Birds can forget how to fly,
And traveller can forget destination!
But if she has forgotten me and I am still staying alive!
From where I shall get mercy for this crime of mine!
God if this is true,I shouldn't be alive anymore,
Or this must be just a rumour!
God if this is true(repeat)

If a tear comes in the eyes of my beautiful love,
"Raj Kakre" eyes cry to the extent to fill oceans even!
What other worst punishment can be for the person,
Who has committed the crime of falling in love!
God if this is true,I shouldn't be alive anymore,
Or this must be just a rumor!
God if this is true(repeat)

I have no further words with me to tell you about what I am feeling for this song and its lyrics any further. I shall conclude by saying this only that the pain of seeing pieces of broken promises, pains of those laughing eyes who chase you where ever you go, those tears which all of a sudden come to eyes when they see some one saying that love is the most beautiful thing happened to him/her and he/she is so proud of his/her love, all this can't be explained in just words. If you want to understand the depth of that pain, if you want to know what it feels when you are sitting alone willing some one to just come, hug you and say , hey its okay, it was just a bad dream, I am right here beside you, I never went anywhere and I wont ever go either. You wait till eyes get tired even but you never see anything like that. You wait to hear those words but that moment never comes. With every message, anything that is from this world that can come to you, you just wish that this would be it, this would be that message which would say all this to you but you end up just waiting and that message never comes. And then you realize its not just a bad dream which is going to get over soon. Its a hard reality which is going to live with you till your last breath. You fight with all those who come and say to you hey listen to us, watch out, you are going to end up in tears on this way. You fight with all of them saying they are all liars and nothing like that won't happen ever. Its just not possible because your love is not like that. He/she loves you so much. But you know when you sit alone, you know in your heart , you pray to god that those all never must be right and this would never happen. And when it actually happens. when you are proved wrong despite all of your beliefs, claims and trust and the world is proven right, that moment is just so hard to face. Those eyes tear you apart and those smiles on everyone's face makes you realize that you have lost it. Despite all of what you had said, claimed, you have lost it because for whom you were standing and making everyone your enemy, that person only has left your hand. You know its a truth and its never going to be changed but still you pray to god as like the song says that this must be just a rumor only. Its just not should be a truth and if it is you shouldn't be alive to die that death every day, every breath of yours. Yes love is an ocean of fire but some times, that fire burns  everything of yours. You always try your best to give just happiness to that some one special and take away all his/her tears but some times, that someone special only leaves you drowned in tears. That's what love is "in real" my friend. Its not just road filled with roses. Hope you would like the song.