Silent Cries....

Some times when you get hurt physically, the wounds hurt you for a very long time. Their pain never lets you sit calmly and with every moment, you feel a very strong pain at that place. Some time, these wounds heal fastly but there are time when it takes a long time for them to heal. With that, the pain does go away but some time when you sit and just think (and some times even when you don't do it yourself), those moments of pain, that time of injury shivers you and you feel the same pain, even if its years since the last time when it happened to you. Though the wound has been healed but still you feel the pain just like it was yesterday when it started.

Wounds on the body are still able to heal mostly. But there are some wounds which are never seen and there are some pains which have no sound. These wounds are not caused by any physical accidents but they are given by those people whom one takes as his life. These wounds don't come over the body and bleed like the normal ones but they come when some one's soul gets bruised and heart is shattered. They may not bleed from outside but they for sure, hurt the same and some times much much more than them too.  As it is said that when glass breaks, its sound goes till miles but when a heart breaks than no one hears. That's why the pain of these wounds and sound of those cries which come with them are never heard by anyone else but by that person only who has got them. People do hurt others and often never bother about it but one is able to bear that coz all don't matter much. But when some one who is closest to you does the same to you,it hurts way much more than it otherwise would had. It really hurts more than words even can try to describe. And the worst is that no one ever seems to be bothered about these pains too coz they are inside you. They say time heals every wound, but may be they don't remember that time does heal a wound but the sign of that wound never goes! And that's why even when you smile all day along and cheer up those all who are around you, when you are with yourself , your heart  cries and those cries are silent. Some time back, tears used to come with them but now they too don't seem to be bothered. May be they think that when that person whom you loved this much is not bothered than why we should be at the first place? When he can say that he has nothing to do with you anymore than why we should be so concerned about you? You want to close your eyes and you do that too but just when you close them, everything comes in front of you. Every word heard which felt like melt glass in your ears, every moment just comes right in front of you forcing you to open those eyes which seem to be filled with tears to you but tears don't come. The pain of these tears never goes away and one life time becomes much smaller for them to heal.

These are the lines which are not written by me but they are representing that lover who is left alone by his love. These lines are describing his state and how he manages to pass his life with a broken heart. These are in Punjabi and I shall explain their meaning in English after this. Have a read:

Dukh vichore de dil nu tadfaun jadon,

Gam ohde jad dil mere nu faahe paun jadon!

Hanjuan de marham jakhman te la laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

Peeran di jo jindagi te sardari hai,

Mainu khushian nalo wadh pyari hai!

Dard mile tan ghut ke gal la laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

Dil de boohe yaad purani aa dhuk dee,

Seeney vichon chees jadon uthdi!

Usnu andar kite sama laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

Chitt kare jad rovan bhubban mar ke main,

Tur jaawan jind ohde sir ton waar ke main!

Kujh majburain de agge sir jhuka laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

And their meaing in English is as follows,

When pains of separation, hurt me so much,

When wounds given by her try to kill my soul!

I heal them with the herb of my tears,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand now!

These pains which are now with me,

They mean to me more than anything else now!

I just hug when I see pain some where now,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand now!

On the doorsteps of this heart, when those memories knock,

When the heart aches with this pain,

I just bury that pain some where deep inside now,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand now!

When heart want to cry so much,

When it says to leave this world and go so far away,

Some responsibilities of mine hold me. 

And then,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand!

I wont say much as I don't have words with me at the moment. Lines said above have said all what is possible in the shape of words. I shall conclude by saying this only that some time,to understand some thing, one needs to feel it himself. Those who do, only they can understand how does it feel when you and your tears hold no value for that person who and whose one smile was your life. How does it feel to be left alone can be felt by only that who has actualy got that curse. Those who are lucky and never faced it, they wont be able to understand it and the same goes for those  who are among those who have given these silent cries and life long hurting wounds to their loved ones. Its very easy to hurt some one but its not so easy to bear that pain. And if you are among those who hurt their loved ones and don't seem to be bothered, try for once being on the other side, only than you will come to know how difficult it can be to live with dieing every day.