Saturday, January 27, 2007

Tour Time....

Yup I am leaving tonite.This time its going to be a long and tough tour.  I have been working hard to keep up with the pressure.  Lets see how the things will fall?Just hope and wish that everything must go fine and well.  Wish for me guys as like always. Really need them so much!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Heart Touching Lines....

I read these lines some time ago. These are not written by me but some how I couldn't stop myself from posting them here. Some things which are mentioned here are just so true and if you have loved someone and has got pain in reward of that, you will be agree with me.  Have a read:
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?
Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The gal that broke my heart, my soul
The gal that haunts me yet?
You tell me that I'm nice
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word
It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces she left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?
Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?
It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough
But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do
I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts
Some where the poet says that heart of his, which was just so soft and kind some time ago, thanks to that person who broke it, now it is no more that soft.  Now it is no more that soft.  Now its just locked and it has become so much tough.  People who break hearts, people who leave their loved ones for their own gains, selfishness, people who back off on the path of love, they never understand the true meanings of love and loving some one.  Its very easy to break a heart.  What is tough is to be with some one!Its very easy to be selfish and do things just for your own good and for your own benefit.  Its so tough to do  something for others.  Its so much tough to do some thing for some one.  But there are some selfish and cold hearted people in this world too who don't understand the pain of others, who just have complaints but not few words of appreciation, who just call that person stupid who has done something for them.  Is that person really stupid who went through all that pain for his loved one or is that person is so much stupid who gave away everything for the sake of love?If you are among those who never bothers that someone is doing some thing you, if you say to him/her that what ever he/she has done, it was just his/her wish, you never asked him to do that for you and it was just him who was stupid enough to do all that much for you, if you are among those who say to their loved ones when they are crying with the pain given by you that you don't have time for their tears and some one's tears doesn't mean anything for you coz you have your own problems and that "some one" is no one else but that person who loved you from the bottom of his heart than just remember this, you never will know how much damage you have done!  You have not just broken the heart of some one but also you have killed that very feeling, you have broken that trust that was there some time ago on  love in the heart of that person.  You must know this that its not so easy to be in love and those who are just selfish and come up with explanations supporting their selfishness only , they cant love some one.  Those who give pain and tears to others, they can't understand what is love and how to love some one.  Those who know just about their own benefits, they are just playing with the feelings of others.  Why do people do like that?When you know you cant give happiness to some one , who has given you the right to give pain to him?When you can't take some one tears from their eyes who authorized you give the same tears to the other person? But its not some thing about which answer can be given because this world is filled with the people like these only who do everything for just their own benefit and than come and try to prove their act right with the reasons supporting them. True love and true and devoted lovers are just now sleeping in the books only.People of today just know how to say that I have to leave you and be selfish for myself as this is the best for me to do. Is it right or is it wrong you want to know? I dont have the answer as I myself is trying to find the answer for the same puzzle. If you know the answer than let me know too, that's all I can say.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Why Newton Committed Suicide....?

Well I am sure you must be wondering what it is all about?How come I am talking all of a sudden about such a genius, Newton?But this is something that I had stumbled upon and it made me smile.  So thought will share it with you. Let me know that you liked it or not?  Have a read:

Why Newton Committed Suicide.....

Once, Newton decided to watch a few James Bond movies that had his head spinning. He was convinced that all his logic and laws in physics were just a huge pile of junk and apologized for everything he had done.

In the movie of James Bond, Newton was confused to such an extent that he went paranoid.

Here are a few scenes

1) James Bond has a Brain Tumor which, according to the doctors can't be cured and his death is imminent. In one of the fights, our great James Bond is shot in the head. To everybody's surprise, the bullet passes through his ears taking away the tumor along with it and he is cured! Long Live James Bond!

2) In another movie, James Bond is confronted with 3 gangsters. James Bond has a gun but unfortunately only one bullet and a knife. Guess, what he does? He throws the knife at the middle gangster? & shoots the bullet towards the knife. The knife cuts the bullet into 2 pieces, which kills both the gangsters on each side of the middle gangster & the knife kills the middle one.

3) James Bond is chased by a gangster. James Bond has a revolver but no bullets in it. Guess, what he does. Nah? not even in your remotest imaginations. He waits for the gangster to shoot. As soon as the gangster shoots, James Bond opens the bullet compartment of his revolver and catches the bullet. Then, he closes the bullet compartment and fires his gun. Bang... the gangster dies...

This was too much for our Newton to take! He was completely shaken and decided to go back. But he happened to see another movie for one last time, and thought that at least one movie would follow his theory of physics. The whole movie goes fine and Newton is happy that all in the world hasn't changed. Oops, not so fast!

The 'climax' finally arrives. James Bond gets to know that the villain is on the other side of a very high wall. So high that James Bond can't jump even if he tries like one of those superman techniques that our heroes normally use. James Bond has to desperately kill the villain because it's the climax. (Newton is smiling since it is virtually impossible?) James Bond suddenly pulls two guns from his pockets. He throws one gun in the air and when the gun has reached above the height of the wall, he uses the second gun and shoots at the trigger of the first gun in air. The first gun fires off and the villain is dead.

Newton commits suicide....



Yup I am back.  Can only say this that this travel was really "chilling". I couldn't sleep in the bus at all.  Just now when I came back, the first thing that I wanted to do was to sleep but could not as there is some very important work to do.  So I have to finish that.  Tomorrow I shall be leaving again but thank god, it will be in the day :-).

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Night Travel In Bus....

Yes I am leaving now for Delhi.  Its freezing out there and I have to go in the bus.Dont know what will happen to me?From tomorrow I guess there will be just travel that will be there.  I am not sure how Tom Kyte  does that?Well I guess I have to learn this how by practically  doing it?So as like Nike  says, just do it, I am leaving now.  Hope it will be all fine and the next and main tour after this would go fine too.

Day Update....

Well there was nothing much that happened today. Though I was a little upset but some how some people made me smile. Got calls and wishes from all family and all around the globe but there are some special ones too which stand apart from the rest all. My parents,younger sis and some friends  who made this day for me a really special one. Today started with some upsetting but just due to all of these people, I was able to smile.  Have no words all, have really no words to express what I am feeling?
What did I do? Well I went for the hair-cut.  And after so long I did something which I was always reluctant to do.  Any guesses?No?Alrite I shall tell then. I colored my hair :-).Yes I did that coz I wanted to try something different and this was a good start.  Want to see my new color?Have a look:
Just Another Pose....
Well I hope its looking okay on me.  Its not my style but still, there is no harm in trying right? So I tried and yes I wont lie that I am feeling a little uneasy but I guess that's the same feeling you get when you trying anything for the first time and have to represent yourself in the public.  Lets see how it goes?
We had a small celebration at my home with me, mom, dad and younger sis gunjan.I went to a friends  home afterwards.  They brought a cake for me which I cut and Mt rubbed a big chunk of it on my face. As I am fasting today so I had nothing to eat.  So I had cup of tea with sweet.  There were jokes and some leg-pulling in all that.  But all were smiling.  With smiles on our faces, we got back to our homes.
That's all that happened today folks.  Nothing much or nothing too exciting.  So now as its already 12pm the time when I am writing this.  Lets see how this year turns up for me?

Monday, January 22, 2007

26 Today....

Well yes, its not so much important day and definitely there is no public holiday too today.  But still would like to say that its the day when I came on this planet called Earth :-).Yes its my birthday today and I have seen 26 years of my life now.  Last year on this day, I was not well, both mentally and physically. Well this day, I am a little bit upset again from mental perespective.But hey its my birthday today so will kick this upsetting too.  Reason for being upset?Well some reasons are not meant to be told as words don't do justice in explaining them completely.  Some times, some people give you never ending pains and cries and you have to live bearing them, there is nothing more than that you can do about it. I guess that's all I can say about me being upset Well never mind.  So what I am going to do?Guess?No idea?Well a secret is going to get revealed with you just now, even I don't know yet :-). Lets see how the day goes? We have just started.  Hope it will turn out to be good.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Just For Laugh....

I read this joke just now at a site.Well I don't know that how much you will like/dislike it but it made me smile and as I was realy upset, it was nice to read some thing that brought a smile.You smiled or not, let me know for sure please.Have a read:
At a recent computer expo (COMDEX), Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated:
"If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving twenty-five dollar cars that got 1,000 miles to the gallon."
In response to Bill's comments, General Motors issued a press release stating (by Mr. Welch himself):
"If GM had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics:
1) For no reason whatsoever your car would crash twice a day.
2) Every time they painted new lines on the road you would have to buy a new car.
3) Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason, and you would just accept this, restart and drive on.
4) Occasionally, executing a manoeuvre such as a left turn, would cause your car to shut down and refuse to restart, in which case you would have to reinstall the engine.
5) Only one person at a time could use the car, unless you bought "Car95" or "CarNT". But then you would have to buy more seats.
6) Macintosh would make a car that was powered by the sun, reliable, five times as fast, and twice as easy to drive, but would only run on five percent of the roads.
7) The oil, water temperature and alternator warning lights would be replaced by a single "general car default" warning light.
8) New seats would force everyone to have the same size butt.
9) The airbag system would say "Are you sure?" before going off.
10) Occasionally for no reason whatsoever, your car would lock you out and refuse to let you in until you simultaneously lifted the door handle, turned the key, and grab hold of the radio antenna.
11) GM would also require all car buyers to also purchase a deluxe set of Rand McNally road maps (now a GM subsidiary), even though they neither need them nor want them. Attempting to delete this option would immediately cause the car's performance to diminish by 50% or more. Moreover, GM would become a target for investigation by the Justice Department.
12) Every time GM introduced a new model car buyers would have to learn how to drive all over again because none of the controls would operate in the same manner as the old car.
13) You'd press the "start" button to shut off the engine.

Saturday, January 20, 2007


Yup I am back.  It was an okay okay trip and was a bit unusual in some of the things as couple of things happened in it.  Good or bad?Well that's something that is hard to say.  I shall say this that it was all okay only, nothing like good or bad!
So as you know that I had to leave on 15th coz I had my assignment starting from 16th.It was an okay journey as I was going to Delhi only so I took the bus and was there.  But I was not going to stay at Delhi.  I was going to stay at Gurgaon( a city which is quite far from Delhi) so I had to take a cab and go there.  Well it was more distant than I thought initially.  Anyways I was there in about one hour.  It was an okay guest house.  Cant say that it was too good or something like that but it was just okay only.  Anyways the most important factor is for me always is my assignment so I had to worry about it more than anyone else.  So I started the preparation for it.  It was a new and completely different thing that I was going to do so I was a little worried this time.  But I had an assistant with me who was going to come to help me.  This was something which I never liked and never want too.  If you know me than you must know it already that I am not a person who like to take help, so that factor was a little uneasy for me.  Anyways he came for my help so I cant say that it was not good for me.  I really appreciate that Senthil (the other person) , he came for my help and really guided me at all the points where I was seeking either technical or professional advice/help.  One another thing that happened in the class this time that one of my participants name was Bhawesh Patel.Well you must be wondering that what this name is all about and why its so much highlighted?No there is nothing like that its so much highlighted or something but just that very name did ring some bells and that brought some things in mind.  Good or bad things?Well if I am not saying anything explicitly that it was good or bad than you must have taken an idea how I felt right!Well what you are thinking is right that's all I can say.  Anyways I could not do anything about it and moreover there was nothing exactly to be done too as it was just a name of a person whom I was seeing for the first time in that room only so I just decided to focus on my work and tried my best to do that only.  It went okay.Senthil helped a lot and I really appreciate that.  I also had to become a participant myself for one part.  It was an okay class.  Lets see how much I have to work about for  that part now?Hope I shall be able to recall all and wont forget anything/something from it.
There was almost no one in the guest house so I really had a tough time over there after the office.  But actually there was this gal called Rammeya(hope I spelled it rightly) whom I didn't meet.  Only time I met her was one day prior before I had to leave from there.  It was a meet at the dinner table only as we both didn't know that we are there.  She had come to Delhi for 2 months from Banglore.She was a little worried and scared about the place so just told her that not to think about anything.  We had a long talk over number of issues.  She was sounding quite scared  but I really couldn't do anything much than saying that everything will go fine only.  Hope she is going to manage well in these 2 months.
So finally, I finished up everything and set back for home.  It was not so cold at Delhi but over here at home its freezing.  There is a lot that I need to do as there is a pile of work for me to do.  Lets see how much time it will take and moreover I have to finish my blog list and update my sites also.  Hope I shall be able to do all that before my next tour comes up.  Fingers are crossed!

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Leaving Again....

Yup that's right.  I decided earlier that I wont go. But I have changed my mind and I am going tomorrow. Its a tough and completely new thing for which I am going this time. Hope I shall be able to do everything alright.  Pray for me folks.  Really need your wishes!

DDLJ & A Thought....

If you haven't watched Dil Wale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge(DDLJ) than I must say that go and watch it as soon as possible.  Though its a very old(12 years) movie but still even now if you will watch it, you will find that its just as fresh as any other movie which is made in the recent times.  And if you have already did watch it than too you can watch it as many times you want, there is an assurity that you wont ever be bored from it.  Just now it came on the television.  For those who has not seen it up til now, I shall tell a little about the story of the movie.  Its a love story( as the name clearly suggests) of a couple who met all of a sudden on a 1 month holiday trip in London.  Complete strangers in the first meet but in that one month, both come to know about each other.  Now you must be thinking what's so new about it?They came to know each other and fallen in love right?Hmm no wrong!Gal(Kajol) is already engaged by her parents in India to a boy in an arranged marriage.  She tell this to the hero(Shahrukh Khan) so he never tells her his feelings and also the gal never says anything.  Trip gets over and gal returns to her home and from there to India to get married with the boy of her parents choice and guy returns to his home, with a pain that he has lost her for forever and most painful part is that he never got any chance even to tell his feelings.  But he gets motivated by his father and he travels all the way from London to India to get his gal.  Yes the gal's marriage is already fixed, arrangements are going on and he still comes to get his gal, his love who is also willing and ready for the same that is to go with him, her real love!How many turns and twists come in all this, how truly love is portrayed in this movie, you can only experience if you watch it.  Its a Hindi movie so if you are not from India or don't understand Hindi than get a copy with subtitles in your local language and try to watch it.  You wont be sorry that's a promise coz no matter who you are, where are you from, which language you speak, love is same for all the persons on this earth, it has the same fragrance in everyone's heart!Right?
On an another note, while watching this movie, there were some things that did strike me deep within.  No matter how much it was difficult for both guy and gal in the movie, but they both wanted to be with each other, they wanted to live their life together, they stood at all the points with each other!Gal's parents were so much against in her getting married to someone else but she stood and requested her parents so much and made it happen at last!She supported her guy who came all the way from overseas just for her, suffered for her, she valued each and every step of his.  She didn't say to him that she never called him over there so it doesn't matter to her that whether he has come there for her or not or even he has come over there too!She never taunted him that now when he is there, he will just destroy all the celebrations of her wedding with his presence.  She never said for once to him that she doesn't care how much problems he has faced or is going to face, she has nothing to do with anything of that.  She bore all the problems with him.  She stood with him at all the points.  If the guy got a slap on his face, that gal also put her face in front to get the same!This is what is real love is all about.  You don't leave those who love you in between.  You don't tell them and make them feel that whatever they did, it was just a fault of theirs, just a mistake.  When you love some one , you value him/her, his/her love, his/her endeavors that he/she has done or/and is doing for you.  You never make him/her feel that he/she is all alone who wants relation to complete.  One must never forget that if some one wants something to happen, no matter how much difficult or tough it may be, its your will and your stand which can make it possible!But only thing which is important here is that whether actually you want that thing or not?Coz if you never wanted anything like that or have no wish for that thing to happen than you will just give excuses and explanation that why you can't do it and will ignore all the points which can prove you wrong.You will simply never pay an ear to anything which can prove that you are wrong in thinking and doing all that.If you really want some thing to happen than you must have guts and courage to stand for it and make efforts to you best power for it. By just thinking or dreaming, you cant get anything.  It takes a lot for some thing to happen and one has to put his/her heart and soul into it.  But only those do this for their loved ones who really know the value and meaning of love and understand the importance of their loved ones.  For those who treat love like a play thing and treat their loved ones like a wardrobe, for them that person's tears, feelings, sacrifices has no meanings.  They just know about themselves , their own loss and benefits.  Only they can say to some one who has lived and ready to die for them that he/she is a fool.  Only they can make that person believe that when he/she came all the way for them climbing mountains or crossing seas, he/she did a mistake by doing all that.  I have said so many times before too that it takes so much to be in love.  Its not just kisses and hugs, its not just meetings and greetings, its not just gifts and phone calls.  Its living for someone else.  Its seeing that some one special where ever you see.  Its crying for the pains of that some one special and dieing on the behalf of him/her death.  Love is not to kill your loved ones with hurt and pain, its giving them smiles and happiness on any cost.  Its not leaving them all alone in between on the way, its holding their hands in all the times, no matter how much good or bad they may be.  Its not telling them that you have nothing to do with them, its saying and believing in that you are nothing without them! But I guess may be times have changed now a days and so is the meaning of love for people. Now it is more important that whether you actually get some benefits or not in loving some one. People dont care about others now. They care and think about themselves first. Is it right? If you love by mind than may be it is right for you, but love is not from mind, its from heart and with that it can and never will be called right!

Selfish Souls Cant Love....

When some one hurts you and that some one is the closest one of you, the pain, that hurt becomes much more intense.  But still you can forget that pain, that hurt coz the person is the closet one and if he/she is that much close that means in any case, he/she would have the same importance for you, would mean to you the same no matter what he/she does would say/do to you.  But when you never say anything, never say any bad words to that person but still are blamed for being always bad, when you have to hear so much , so many things which tear away your heart, you entire self into pieces than that pain is some thing which words cant express.  If pain is given by some stranger, some thing from outside is hurting you, you can do anything to that person/thing but what you can do for that pain which is caused by your own self, which is not from outside but somewhere, some thing, deep inside of you is hurt the most and is broken, which medication you would use to heal it?No medicines, no cure is there for that pain which is caused to you by those from whom you never expected it would come.  And even after that you can live but when even after bearing all the pain, crying till your eyes become dry, you are held responsible for everything, all the things that you said, all the things that you ever did for that person's smiles and happiness, they are forgotten like they never happened, than it hurts so much!You never did anything among those things to prove how much good or best you are among the rest but you did all to make your special ones happy and smile.  But when you are held responsible for everything, even after your heart is broken into pieces, is crushed by some one by his/her feet and when all that happens, tears come out from your eyes, you are told that your tears doesn't mean anything and the same goes for you, it just feels like that a slap is being hit on the face of entire self and on those feelings of yours.  Its very difficult to get hurt and still smile.  Its very tough to get your self crushed every day, every moment but still when asked, reply with a smile and say ".nothing".It hurts so much to see your faith getting bruised and your dreams shattering.  It hurts so much to be left alone on a road which you chose on the trust of someone that he/she will come along with you and wont leave your hand in between.  It hurts so much to hear that you never did anything, never was good enough.  It hurts so much to see that even after you tried to give whatever you could, tried to love from the deepest of your heart but it wasn't enough for that other person.  It hurts to see the one you loved, walk away leaving you all alone in tears.  It hurts the most is when  you believed that they loved you but they really never did!It hurts so very very much!But people who do this they don't understand this.  They don't think that they have done something wrong.  All what they have, is their reasonings, their explanations for doing that.  All what they do is just to prove that they didn't do anything wrong anywhere.  Its just you who is wrong, they just say this to you.  Its not so easy to be on the path of love.  Its so wrong to just think that it will be a fairy tale to be in love.  It takes so much to be in love, it takes so many guts to do even one small thing for love.  Its so easy to give explanations, excuses, reasons for "not doing something" but what takes real courage, guts is " to actually to do something".Love is an ocean of fire and one has to swim through it to cross it, don't forget that.  Its very easy to leave some one, what's really tough is to be with some one.  Its very easy to give tears to some one, anyone can do that( and mostly all do this only).  But its so much tough to take tears of some one in your eyes and give smiles in return.  Its so much easy to do something for your own, some thing for yourself but its very tough to do something for someone else.  When one person is doing everything without asking anything for him/herself, somewhere he/she wants too that something should be done for him/her too.  If someone is giving you so much love, doing everything in the best possible way he/she can for you, if he/she expects just a little love for him/herself too, is it too much to ask for?Is it so much big crime to be longing to be loved?If this is a crime than crushing someone's heart, giving him so much of pain, hurt and still saying that he/she is wrong in everything, is this right?Those who break hearts and move on, those who give tears and seek happiness for just themselves, they cant understand how it feels when you look back and you see nothing but a dark road on which you are left all alone and wounded by none other than anybody but your own love.  No explanation is enough to heal that pain, no reason is good enough to justify it.  One really want to know the pain, really want to taste the tears than just for one minute think that if the same would had happened to you, how would you had felt?How would it feel to be getting killed by  your own love?If you have ever done something like this to anyone, just for one minute look inside in your heart and ask this from yourself, do you really know how to love?Do you really deserved to be loved?Stop lying to yourself and also stop saying this to that poor soul also who is trusting you coz you will break his/her heart thinking that time will heal the wounds but even though time would heal the wounds still marks given your torture, imprints of your betrayal would always be there on that persons soul and for which no one else but you will be responsible.  If you cant give smiles to someone, you have no right to give the other person tears also.
These are the lines which are from a lover.  These are expressing his pain what he is going through after being betrayed by his love.  I shall explain the meaning of them just in a while in English also.  Firstly I am presenting them in Hindi.  Have a read:
Humne us se pyar hud se jyada kiya,
Jaan de kar bhi yaari nibha di!
Kahin lag na jaye thand use,
Humne apni hi chita us ke liye jala di!
Lagti rahe use aanch madham madham
Humne rooh tak khak bana di!
Afsos na hua ik pal ko bhi,
Khushi se apni jaan luta di!
Socha humari kurbani ne,
Sachi mohbbat humari use dikha di!
Par shayad kafi na tha jalna humara,
Keemat na thi jaan ki bhi koi humari!
Kyonki unhone har pal ki sirf ye shikayat,
Kaise itni jaldi yeg aag chita ki bujha di!
Isi uljhan mein lutengi ab ye bachi saansen,
Ja  tha paas sab diya, Jo kar sakte the wo sab kiya,
Fir kyon mile sirf gum, fir kyon mila wafa ka yeh sila!
And the meaning of these lines in English is:
I loved her more than even my life,
I got killed but I still fulfilled my promises of love!
She wont get cold, I lit my self on fire,
She must get warmth, I set my soul too on fire!
I never had any regret to do so, I gave my life even happily!
I thought with my sacrifice, she has understood my love!
But may be it was not enough for her,
My life, my had no meanings for her!
Coz even after she got all that,
She just had nothing but complaints!
I shall pass my life now thinking this only,
What was my fault, Why I got just hurt for my love?
I shall conclude by saying this only that do not say to some one that you love him/her if you don't and if you say than do have some courage and guts within you to fulfill your words. Love is not for cowards, selfish people.  Always remember, its not just that other person who has to do everything to make relation complete, you have the same responsibility on your shoulders too.  This reason that you never promised to do something for your love ever and now if you are not doing  its appropriate, is just your hollow attempt to hide in the shell of your own lies now,.Some things do not require proofs to be given and in the same way some things do not require promises to be exchanged.Dont break some one's heart for just your own selfishness.  Before expecting to be loved, learn to love others.  Its very easy to say someone that he/she has not done anything for you.  Before saying it, ask the same to your self.  When someone comes to you passing thousands of miles, swimming across seas, climbing mountains, shed tears when you are in pain, burn his entire self to make you happy and still gets just insults, ask him how much difficult it is to do so!When he hears from you that it has no meaning for you, all he has in his heart is just regret and hurt that the other person has no value for what he has done!Before saying this, ask your self what you have done for that person?Ask your self what one thing you have done and even if you did something by fluke too, if for the same you are told that it has no meaning than  how would you feel?It just hurts so much!Its very easy to leave someone in between just coz for your own selfishness but its very tough to be with someone in any conditions or times.  Its very easy to just blame others.  And one must not forget this that at the time when you are blaming others, you are just trying to hide your own faults, your own betrayals under that blame.  Learn to sacrifice something for others than ask the same from someone else.Dont just ask everything for your self.  Love is not asking, its just  giving.  But even if you are nothing more than a selfish taker, don't be a taker always coz that giver , some day he/she would stop and that day, you would have nothing with you but to repent which too wont help you in anyways coz just like when you break glass, you cant join it, after breaking heart,you cant make up that damage with any means!Don't hurt some one so much that whenever he/she remembers you, all it comes to his mind is just the pain and hurt given by you.  Love is not hurting those whom you love no matter what happens.  Love is not making the person bad or worse or to make him burn in the fire of your betrayal.  Its bringing the best out of that person whom you love.  If you cant bring the best out the person, all you do is just worry about your prestige, benefits, you be selfish for just your own head, you think about no one but  just you, you are afraid, please don't spoil the life of some one for your fun.  You don't deserve to be loved and you don't have rights to hurt some one just for your fun!Remember give smiles than only you are eligible to seek them from others.  If you only know to give pain, hurt, anger to others, you are not worthy enough to expect smiles and happiness for you too.  All that will come to you is the same pain, grief and hurt that you have given to others.  Those tears only will come to your eyes whom you have left in other's eyes.What you sow, so shall you reap, remember that!

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Welcome Kavita....

One of my very good and closest friends, Kavita, has just started  her new blog on Word Press. With her post itself on the blog, she has proved that how very well she can do magic with words.  Welcome to the blogging world Kavita.I wish you all the best and good luck and hope that you would never let us wait for the new posts on your blog :-).

Happy Lohri....

Yes its Lohri todayWish you all a very happy and prosperous Lohri.Its one of the biggest festivals of North India and/or you can say pf Punjab!Yes Punjab, home of one of the best, most kind and loving human beings, yup Punjabis!If you don't know about Lohri, click here to know about it. From the site itself,"Lohri, is celebrated every year on 13th of January. It is a festival to worship fire. Lohri Festival is celebrated with great pomp in North India. At this time Earth starts moving towards the sun marking the auspicious period of Uttarayan. First Lohri is very important for the newly wed and the new born babies as it marks fertility. At night, people gather around the bonfire and throw til, puffed rice & popcorns into the flames of the bonfire. Prayers are offered to the bonfire seeking abundance & prosperity. People make merry by dancing & singing traditional folk songs." So have a great time today, enjoy yourself so much, have lots of sweets, dance and celebrate this Lohri with greatest fun and happiness.

Friday, January 12, 2007

I Am Back....

Well I am back.  I guess my blog from past some time has become just the impression of my travel records that's all.  But I really cant help it as when I travel, I don't have a resource to update my blog from there.  So it appears like this from here.  Well I cant promise but yes for sure, I shall do this that with the time, I shall try to keep it more and more active even when I am on wheels.  So coming back to home and also to my blog.  Yes I came back and the trip was a successful one, the most important thing that I want every time to happen.
Well as I was scheduled, I was supposed to be at first destination of my trip on 5th, so I started on 4th of this month.  My flight was in the evening at 5pm so I started a little early from my home by catching bus from my place to Delhi at 8am.Well I got the bus after a little wait on the bus stand but still I managed to get a seat.  It is really cold here at my place at this time so sitting in a bus was a real tough challenege.Anyways I got in it and I was just too much sleepy.  I am not sure why I was but I really was not able to open my eyes.  So if you are this much sleepy, obviously you cant help it but will sleep right!Well yours truly did the same :-).Yes I slept and I don't know when I covered the distance.  I realized one thing that when you don't actually wait for something, it happens more easily.  Anyway I got at Delhi without any big problem.  So I had to catch an auto or a cab to get to airport.  I normally take an auto as taxi is too much costly.  So I picked up one auto.  Well I was there at the airport on time and too my surprise, there was a complete chaos over there.  I felt that if I am really on an airport or at some other place?Or may be everyone wanted to go from their homes and came to airport only that day?Well somehow I got my baggage screened and was standing in the queue for check-in.  Somehow, my mood was so much upset at that time.  Anyways I got my boarding pass, asked whether flight is on time or not, it is on time and I came out.  Well I was sitting there and coz I didn't have anything since morning, I was starving.  So I thought that I shall go and get something to eat.  But I was also a little doubtful as flight was supposed to leave and I may not be able to finish up my meals till that time.  So I just was in a fix whether to have something or not?Well I decided finally that I shall have as and when it was announced that flight is going to be delayed now by 30 minutes.Alrite so I went and bought 1 burger and 1 fruit cake.  Just when I sat and opened the packet of my burger, I heard, flight is ready for boarding!WHAT!Great!Well I couldn't throw what I just bought so packed everything and left for baording.Flight was from Sahara airline.  Was an okay flight.  Food was really bad this time.  Anyway somehow I was there at Chennai, my first destination in this trip.
For me already one room was booked in the guest house.  So I picked up the cab and with whatever instructions I had to find the guest room, I left the airport.Well without too much difficulty(please note that without too much means here is that still I had a trouble in finding it) and just 4 calls to the care taker, I was there at the guesthouse.To my surprise, my friend Fazal from Hyderabad was also staying there in the same guesthouse.Great!He is such a nice guy and when he is around, you always feel so relaxed.  That's what the magic Fazal carries.  Anyways, I met him and we had our dinner together.  I needed to prepare for my lecture and he also had to do the same.  So we both said nites to each other and left for our rooms.  I was having a little fever(and still having) but had no time for rest so just grabbed the book and started making myself ready for the next big morning when the training was going to start.
Well I left for my office at about 8.30 after meeting Fazal.I didn't have anything in the breakfast except tea.  As it was for the first time I was going to that office so I decided to left early as I had to check the infrastructure and set up and all.  Well it did really help as there were couple of things that gave me an initial set back when I was there.  Well I got there at the office at about 9am.There was this co-ordinator called Ganesh over there.  He was a great help and was really friendly too.  But I didn't have my presentation slides with me and moreover the set up was new for me.  I was not able to start the database till first tea break that also created so much tension for me.  I also met Mathhan over there whom I met at Hyderabad long time back.  Well even after the quirks and initial bumps, still everything got started well.  I had my first day lunch with Ganesh only.Partispants were also very nice and friendly.  Well on the whole day 1 went off well and I got back at the guest house with a smile.  When I was there, Pardeep told me that about some old cars that were parked in the basement of my guesthouse.They were owned by the owner of the same guesthouse.He insisted that I must go and see them.  So even though it was quite late, I picked up Fazal and we went to see them.  It was really a surprise and great feeling to see those so much old but still in so much good condition cars there.  Well it was very late in the night so me and Fazal said good nigh to each other.  He was leaving next day only while I was leaving day after tomorrow so I was not going to see him the next day when I was going to come back from office.  Anyways we met at the breakfast table.  Oh I forgot, I also met one more guy Parkash from Bombay.  He was there in the guest house and also was there at the same office with me.  Nice and friendly guy I can say about him.  Anyways day 2 was okay too.  As it was officially an off in the office so no body else was there at the office except  me and security staff.  Well I managed to finish up the class well and all participants were looking very happy.  Some suggested me about the places that I could visit but as it was already very late when we finished the class so I kept for next time.  Which matters the most and is most important thing for me was that all were happy!Mission accomplished :-)!
Well I had to catch my flight at 7.30am in the next morning so I started getting ready at about 4am.Those who know me, they know this that getting late is not in me and I expect the same from others also.  You gave me a time and you are late, well you invited that raised eyebrow on my face ;-), beware!Anyways I was there at the airport at right 6am.To my amazement, I was shocked to see the chaos and mess there at Chennai domestic airport.  It was like a big fair was going on.  Anyways after waiting for 15 minutes in a wrong queue, I finally found the right lane for me.  Yes yes you can smile but it was not my fault.  What else you would expect when there were 5 lanes from same airline and everybody was mixed in those lanes?Ok I could ask ( and that's how I got right lane) but I did that a little late ;-).Anyways I was flying with Air Deccan.I am not sure why but I still cant figure out that why this airline doesn't give seat numbers to passengers?I mean how much time it would take to print two extra digits on that boarding pass?May be its not a right thing to do as they say its for your own flexibility.  Anyways flight was scheduled to fly at 7.30 but it flew at 8.20 coz of bad weather at Banglore.Yup Banglore, my second and last destination in this trip.
So I was there at Banglore at about 10.45am.Took the cab and left for my guest house.  It was in a big residential apartment at "Mantri Elite".As soon as I entered there, I mean when I met the care taker and he took me to my room, I met Parveen.One of the engineers working in the same company for which I was there to conduct training.  Nice and very friendly chap!Had a lot of talk with him on mostly everything :-).Anyways had no time to sit and relax as I had preparation to do.  So just started that long and tiring task, yes you got it, study!
So the next morning after not having breakfast and not even tea, I left for my client place where I was supposed to conduct the program.  Sincere advice if any time you are planning to visit Banglore.Traffic is a mess and if you dnt know the place and are trying or thinking to get to your desired place in office hours, start at least two hours prior to the scheduled time otherwise you would be at your place when everybody would already have left!Well as I told you, I have a (good or bad whatever you put for it) habit of not getting late so I started pretty early and I was there right 45 minutes before the schedule time.  Everything was set except about just one or two things.  Well that I can live with so just started the program without much difficulty.  Though it contained some things which I was doing myself for the first time but still on the whole everything went well and I was able to bring a smile on everyone's face at the end of program.Participants were very naughty but intelligent!On the whole it went well and that's what is most important for me.
Well i must admit one thing that I was(and still somewhere now even) really upset  in these days when I was there.  Why I wont say over here but yes some times it really felt that if I could just in a minute leave everything and disappear, I would give everything of mine to make that happen!
Anyways I left for home and after the program, I was there at the airport of Banglore.Again there was a complete mess and full chaos over there too.  Anyways I was there at the airport and some how I managed to finish my check in and all.  In the check in lane, I met Dheeraj, a fellow Punjabi guy who was coming back from Banglore in the same flight with me.  Well if you know me(if you don't than this is something about me) than you know this that it takes me a minute to get a conversation started with almost anyone as long as I want this to happen.  So the same happened here also.  Me and Dheeraj went along really well.  We had our seats together in the flight also so we were together there also.  On the flight and in the waiting lounge also, had so many talks.  I am not sure what he has thought about me( I am just hoping that it would be good) but I really liked his intelligence and wisdom.  We had long discussions about business, its growth, ideas and implementations, also about some non relevant things too like about changing times of today,marriage, relations and so many more things.  I asked him a lot of things as he is running his own company and his input really gave me some new directions.
Anyways so I was there in Delhi and the first thing that I felt and realized that it was "CHILLED".Yes there is a huge temperature difference between both Chennai,Banglore and North India.  So I put on my jacket and left for bus stand.  It a terrific and nerve cracking experience when you travel in a visibility of just few inches.  My bus was about to collide twice and for once it really did hit a pole coz there was absolutely no visibility.Anywas still some how, some way I am still alive( I guess so) and back at home.  There is a lot that I have to finish but with my health and some pending tasks, I am not really sure that how shall I be able to cover up all the things?I yet to have finish reading all the blogs, prepare for some things and also to get ready to leave, yes leave as I am going very soon again.  But for the time being, I shall just sleep as I am really tired.  So see you soon!Nites!

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Travel Time Again....

Yes I know I came back just now.  But I have to leave tomorrow.  I shall be leaving for again a very important assignment.  This time its more challenging as I shall be going to a new place and for some thing about which I have to practise a lot. Moreover I shall be moving from there to one another place and it will be for something about which I have no idea at the moment.  I just hope and wish everything would go fine.  Pray for me everyone.  I really need your wishes!

Feeling Expressed Magically & Truely....

Its not very common that I like the songs of that artist whom I reject once.  But this time I had to change my opinion for one artist.Shail is one of the singers whom I never liked.  I wont say that he doesn't sing good or I have some personal problem with him but its just that I don't like the songs and the feelings in them which are sung by him.  That was till 3 days back.
Sail has come up with an album called "Aitbaar".Well as I said, I don't like the songs sung by him and the same is true for the songs of this album too except one.  Yes this time there is an exception.  He has come up with a song, yes just one song in his latest album which is named as "Heeriye".Its a Punjabi song.  Though Shail is not very good in Punjabi and also his diction is not so clear in the language but the feeling he has put in this song is truly appreciable.  The feeling of a guy whose gal has left him, the pain in the tears of that guy whose heart is broken by no one else but his own gal, his own love, that feeling is so truly explained by Shail both by his vocals and the lyrics in the songs.  This song is one of the best songs, I would say that Shail has sung up til now.  I have listened to this song numerous times and yes it is capable to bring tears in your eyes.  That's a fair warning I am giving if you are emotional and think too much!I am putting up the entire song here both in Punjabi and than in English.  For the download of it, Click here and go to note that you require to sign up before you are able to download it.). I really appreciate Shail that he sang a song like this.I hope and wish he would come up with more songs like that in future also. Here is the song:
Sohniye heeriye teri yaad aandi e,
Seene vich tarapada hai dil, jaan jandi e!
Tu hi jind meriye, dil da karar ni,
Tu aa ja tainu rab da wasta, udeekdan main tera raasta!
Kinna tainu chawan, en na samjhi tun!
Tere naam kiti eh jindagi!
Jadon tun milengi tainu dasange, tun hi meri jindagi!
Tu hi jind meriye, dil da karar ni,
Tu aa ja tainu rab da wasta, udeekdan main tera raasta!
Sohniye heeriye.....(repeat)
Soona soona hai mere dil da aashiana hai, Sooni yeh jameen soona aasmaan!
Khoya khoya rehnda hai mera pagal dil, aa jaa laut ke hun aa v aa jaa!
Tu hi jind meriye, dil da karar in,
Tu aa ja tainu rab da wasta, udeekdan main tera raasta!
Sohniye heeriye teri yaad aandi e,
Seene vich tarapada hai dil, jaan jandi e!
Sohniye heeriye teri yaad aandi e,
Seene vich tarapada hai dil, jaan jandi e!
And here is the meaning of this song in English:
Oh my love, I am missing you so much!
In this body, heart is having so much pain and I am dieing here!
You are my love, you are the heartbeat of my heart,
For God sake, please come back to me, I am waiting here for you!
You didn't understand how much I loved you, I wrote this life on your name!
When I shall meet you, I shall tell you how much you mean to me!
My heart is empty without you in it,
this earth and sky are also colorless, useless for me without you!
This heart of mine is always lost without you,
Please come back.  Now Please come back to me!
Oh my love, I am missing you so much!
In this body, heart is having so much pain and I am dieing here!
You are my love, you are the heartbeat of my heart,
For God sake, please come back to me, I am waiting here for you!
I am not sure that you would like the song or not?I have heard that one has to be practical but I guess and believe that love is not something which you can do by being practical.  Its a matter of heart, not of mind.  Mind is good and should be applied in making deals, not relations.  Relations are made and should be from heart!If you think in the same way, I hope you will enjoy the song.  Someone said truly," love is an act of endless forgiveness.  A tender look which becomes habit ."

Not Sure Why....

Sometimes it feels that you are so much sad.  You know the reason sometimes and some times you have no idea why you are feeling like that.  But yes it doesn't matter you know the reason or not, you are not in your own at this kind of time.  It feels that some thing inside is broken, something inside is hurting so much!That pain, that feeling is something which is not explainable in words.  Tears lie just at the corner of  the eyes but don't come out.  Eyes don't seem to cry but heart does the same!If tears come from the eyes, at least one can wipe them but what you would do for the tears that come from the heart?I don't know why this happens?If you ask me that whether I am in this state at the moment when I am writing this, I wont lie saying no.  Yes I am and whether I know the reason/answer of this, I shall say that may be I know too.  But still I am not sure why it is?May be its coz of that too much thinking and trying to get deep into of the matters or may be its just lack of my understanding?I really am not sure why?

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Can You Belive What You See....

I dont know what to say other than this that my eyes were wide open when I saw this video.I really have no idea how one can change his/her dresses so much fast!I really dont know.If you know the logic behind, please let me know too.Enjoy the video:

Monday, January 01, 2007

Happy New Year 2007....

Hey its 2007!Happy new year to all of you!I wish you smiles, joys and success in everything that you do!I hope you had a great time and had so much of fun!Wish this year would become a memorable year for you!
I wish you Health...
So you may enjoy each day in comfort.
I wish you the Love of friends and family...
And Peace within your heart.
I wish you the Beauty of nature...
That you may enjoy the work of God.
I wish you Wisdom to choose priorities.. .
For those things that really matter in life.
I wish you Generousity so you may share...
All good things that come to you.
I wish you Happiness and Joy...
And Blessings for the New Year.
I wish you the best of everything.. .
That you so well deserve.
Happy New Year!

Boys Night Out....

Well yes it was a really boys night out.  As I missed my friend Kirpal's wedding, so we decided to arrange a camping sort of thing.  Well it was me, Gaurav, his brother Nitin, Kirpal and his cousin Mani.We all arranged a camp fire at the factory of Gaurav last night.Its a huge and I mean a really huge complex.  We set the fire, made our dinner over there, served each other.  Music was an inevitable part all the time.  I met Mani for the first time.  I dnt know why I found so him sad when I first met him at Kirpal's home but later on when I came to know the reason for his sadness, I could only do one thing and that to say that have courage and move on.  Yes you got it right.  He was hurt from love, something which hurts the most!I cant discuss over here the details what exactly happened as I have given my words so please don't ask that.  But it was really a shock to hear the entire story.  Sometimes some people hurt others so much that even though they are alive, they long for death in every breath they take.Dont know why some people do that?Anyway it was the first time that I was a part of something like that.  I really liked and enjoyed myself so much there.  We have already set the date for the next night out.  Lets see we can make it or not at that time!


Yes I am back.  I left this time for a very long time.  It took almost a month.  But I am happy that everything got well and ended with a good note.  So all is well that's ends well.  In this spirit, I would call it a good tour.
So as you already know that I left on th of last month( and also last year :-)).It was as usual going to be a long journey with the bus from my place to Delhi.  It was as usual a very tiring and rather chilling tour this time as I left in the month  of December.  So I was fully  packed with my woolens and all that!Well nothing special happened on my  way to Delhi and I was there  without creating any "breaking news".Again I had to rush to the airport as my flight was scheduled to fly at 19:00hours(7pm).Well I managed to get there somehow coz my auto driver was acting as he was driving a formula 1 car.  Anyways well it was a great chaos over there at the airport.  Somehow I managed to get my things done,passed the security check and than was in the waiting lounge.  I was waiting with all the other passengers but somehow it was turning to be an endless wait.  The flight got delayed by 3 hours and where I was supposed to reach at Hyderabad at 9pm, I was there at 12.30pm.Great!Well that was not all.  I was supposed to get a pick-up from my hotel.  But somehow I couldn't find that guy anywhere.  I was told later on that he was there only but I couldn't see him.  Anyway I got at my guest house hiring my own cab.  Another shock I got over there was that due to the rush,all rooms were full and I would have to stay in some another guest house(which was nearby though) for minimally two days than only I would be shifted to my guesthouse.Well I had no choice but the people in my guest house were so much nice and they know that I dnt like shifting of myself like this but somehow they requested so much and assured that in two days everything would be fine.  Well than I had nothing else to say but to wait for next two days.  And moreover, I was more worried about my assignment than my stay as it was a completely new topic that I was going to take, so the pressure,tension was immense.  So I just thought to forget everything and focus on my assignment which was supposed to start after 7 hours from this time.
Well it all went well.  It was a real tough job to go for something about which you are not sure about,but somehow I was able to maintain and end it with a good note.  I got the best prize when my manager invited me for a dinner at his home.  He is that person with whom I dreamed some day to sit and talk, and he invited me on a dinner with him.  I dnt think nothing better I can ask for.  It was a truly memorable moment for me and in my life.
This trip was also  nice and memorable as I made few friends.Jyoti,Lakshmi,Fazal and William sir, thanks a lot for being there with me.  I have no words for your support  and care.Lakshmi,Jyoti asked for a treat.  We all went for it.  It was really very nice that we all were together at there.  Also I met Raj from Sat yam computers.  What a nice guy!We jelled together quite well in our guest house.Truely a nice guy!Thanks a lot Raj for bearing my boring jokes.
I wont be able to write much about this trip as there are some things which did hurt me a lot too in it.  On the whole,it was a truly memorable experience.  I shall be leaving very soon again.  But no matter where I go, I guess there is one place where I can go any time and would love to go back to entire gang of Fazal and all.  Now back to preparation of the next trip which is not so much far.  Just tomorrow!