Sunday, June 27, 2010

I Hate This World….

Why it is so that people of this world like to just “get” only? Why it is so that all are just concerned about what they want, what they need, what’s their wishes, what’s their priorities? Why when someone is doing something for them, only then they consider that person’s worth? If he is not able to do at times something, why he is told that he is a no good, not needed and the least needed person on this planet? Why it is this that when someone needs something, then only they recall, even consider that the person is alive but other than that, it doesn’t even matter to them whether he is dead or alive? Why it is that people don’t even try to understand that its not the “asking” all the time, some times “giving” is also which is needed?

There are so many incidents like this which I have seen all the time in my life. But right now, will just mention two. The most recent one happened just few moments ago and the other one, couple of days back.  I called up a friend just now to ask him how he is doing?  Its been a while since I had talked to him, thanks to my work and other things which keep on striking on my mind. I couldn’t speak to him from a long time. When I called today, he was at home. I just asked how the things are and also said sorry that I couldn’t talk to him and tried to tell that its been a rough time for me and its still not over. Though he was there but there was something wrong in the tone of him. He was not talking properly and I could sense that he wasn’t really interested in talking to me. His wife called him from back and asked whose call it is, he told my name and she said something which I couldn’t understand but it wasn’t good, that’s for sure! I asked him how the things are, how’s everyone at home? Well, he was really not sounding happy talking to me and this time, it was almost certain( yes, its that mystical power in us  Aquarians , you can’t hide things from us, even on phone) . He gave a very simple answer that yes, all is good. I was expecting to hear that he was going to say that he is upset that I didn’t call him from long for which he would have been correct too but what he said, just tore me apart! He said, look Aman, there is no match between you and me. I am much better compared to you in everything, be it looks,social status, professional and personal life, everything! I appreciate that you have called but no one in my home likes my company with you and please don’t mind, my wife really doesn’t like me talking to you! So its better that you please don’t call me anymore. I just couldn’t believe what I was hearing. So I am not good enough socially, professionally or personally to be a friend. Hmm yes, he may be right about many things I guess, he is a very rich guy, well settled in his work, has a wife and a son. That’s surely is not comparable to me. But I don’t know how all that matters in friends? Bu I guess that does matter some how and in some way which I surely am not aware of!  There was nothing else left to hear for me, I heard what I had to, said thanks and put down the phone.

Just like this, few days back, I saw a friend online. It was long since I did speak to him too. I don’t come online often. I just checked the messenger for any offline messages if there were any and that’s when I saw him online. I immediately pinged him. Though I got a reply back,but within minutes I came to know that he was not really as happy as I was to see him. He asked me that there is a training requirement in his company so can I handle it? It wasn’t a technology that I know so I said I can’t. I was about to ask how are things and everything but the next thing he said that there is an opening in his company and if I need a job, he can propose my name. I said I shall look to it but I need some time before I can send my resume as I have to do some editing to it. He said, don’t ruin my reputation so put only what you know in the resume. I was so pist off hearing that! All I wanted to do was to add some new things which I learned, about my award and book and also about some certifications and clientele which I have worked for. I never want to be a cause of any one’s disrespect. I asked about a little how is life for which was there was a concise reply, all is fine. He said, I got to go now, send me your resume if you need a job. And I must say,  I was so very upset. I didn’t ping him because I was looking for a job. I was thinking that he would be happy to hear from me. But I was wrong! Needless to say that it did hurt so much! I didn’t have any thing in my mind to take advantage of a friend for a job but I didn’t expect this too that someone whom  I thought as a friend, would think like that for me. Again, looks like that people prefer to be “practical” only. Its just so important to be in this world it seems! I said I have to go, said bye and closed the messenger.

I guess, its just a common way/trend/whatever that there is no such thing in this world like “giving”. And this is all what the people of this world follow too! But not sure why no one does see that its not just always “asking” . “Giving” is something which is much important but is equally harder to do. Its so easy to wish things for yourself but its so hard to fulfill ( or even try doing so) wishes of others, be however big or small they are. But this world’s people seem to be not bothered about it. Yes, I may not be having any good things in me but at least, I don’t do it! Never said to anyone that you are nothing compared to me so I can’t be with you. Never did that!  Never thought that I shall be or I shall not be with someone looking at the “pros and cons” of doing so! If I say “I am with you” then I am and If I say, “I am not” then I am not! I don’t do this that if I won’t see a dream of mine being not getting fulfilled like a better life or a degree in abroad, I shall leave some one or if I know, I shall get benefits like getting a job by being a friend of someone, I shall stick with him! But it seems, its not what the practice of this world now. People stay and leave looking just at what’s important for them, what they need and want and that’s how this world probably goes on at this moment of time! And there is nothing I can do about this world and for its people! I am recalling Jave Akhtar's two lines which probably fit here perfectly,

Abhi zameer mein thodi si jaan baaqi hai,

Abhi humara koi imetehaan baaqi hai!

 

And its meaning in English is,

There is some what life left in my  conscience of mine,

There are still tests that I have to go through!

I don’t know how many more tests and setbacks are left for me. All what comes in mind is just the word, “many” !

Nothing Like A Cup Of Coffee….

I normally stay in this hotel, The Elite whenever I am at Banglore. Though we have choices of couple of guesthouses here, but the issue is that those menu of those guesthouses are fixed. This means, you have to eat only what would be provided. The other major issue is that none of the guesthouses have any internet connection. Yes, you heard it right, there is no internet connection given in these guesthouses because of “company policy” . Not sure what kind of policy it is which demands that doesn’t let people who work in IT not having  an internet connection! Anyways, so this hotel is nice, can’t say the one where I stay is royalish one but its okay. There have another property about which I came to know today morning only which sounds like that “royal" one and I shall check it some time soon. Also, I met the owner of the entire chain and guess what, he is from Jallandhar, a city just at a distance of just one hour drive from my city, a Punjabi guy! Isn’t that nice? How did I meet him? Well, thanks to my habit of talking to everyone and anyone actually. I was having my (bad) breakfast today morning when I saw this guy roaming in the breakfast area. So I said “Hi” to him and he replied with a “Hi” . He was probably inspecting the dining area and he asked me, is everything fine? Hmm so a guest won’t ask another guest this right? So I did guess that he was from management and I was right. He sat opposite to me on the same table and asked about me. I told him that I stay here quite often , almost every time when I visit Banglore. That was it! He told me about him, his businesses and gave me his business card and asked me to contact him if I would have any issues ever with the stay or something! Nice! Here is how room looks where I am normally put up,

room

Looks nice right! Yes that’s my backpack and shoes there :-) ! And it was taken yesterday evening, pretty clean room given the fact that a guy lives in it right :-) !

Even though the hotel is good , some times, some small things get messed up. For example, today’s breakfast was just bad and tea was even worse than it! I am having a real bad pain in my right leg for god-knows-what reason and also having a not-so-good mood! So what you do when you have a really upset mood, you have so much of pain in your leg and top of that, you get a really bad breakfast! Well, I couldn’t think of anything else but to have a cup of coffee and fortunately for me, an outlet of Barista which is just besides my hotel. So I just went there. If you know me, I mostly would go to Cafe Coffee Day but its not there anywhere around me and I didn’t want to take  a cab/auto just to have a cup of coffee. And since I have already been at that outlet, I knew they are good. So I went there and ordered this,

coffee

Its Barista Blast and an Italian vegetarian sandwich. I must say, it was really good after having a bad breakfast. I asked the guys that what are the timings of the outlet and they told me, its from morning 7.30am to 12:00pm. Wow! So this means, I can go there any time whenever I have a tough day (which I am having a lot these days for many reasons) . Sounds like a good idea! I have got tons of things to do which I am not sure how I would do since I am having a bad pain in the leg and also a not-so-good mood either. Hope I shall be able to do something productive than just being lost in dark valleys of thoughts. I hope not!

Friday, June 25, 2010

An Upset Morning, A Happy Evening….

I just finished my current session. I guess, this was the smallest number of delegates that I have got in my session. We did expect 16 people but what we got were just 5. And from that two, 2 guys had to leave on 3rd and 4th day since they had some official works. One another guy didn’t come after yesterday afternoon. I don’t know the reason since I never was informed that he is not coming. So today, there were just two who were sitting for the finale! Still, I must say that all the delegates were really nice , friendly and intelligent. I am delivering the very same module from the last 3 weeks and I must say, this whole month was a really tough one! I was very upset seeing my rating for two batches. Though there were very good comments, but the rating was not satisfying( at least for me) . Though I know that whatever rating I got, it was from those who were really really good guys still, I never get satisfied from anything than the best, yes that’s all what I want! I normally won’t say it but since there was a comparison done of mine , for the record, I must say, yes I am the best and I know it ! I am really really good but Its just that I don’t brag about it, I don’t keep on telling to anyone , hey look, have you seen anyone so good like me? No, I don’t do that but that doesn’t mean that I am someone who can be compared with any bloody tom-dick-harry! Anyways, so I am very happy to see that this session’s rating is EXCELLENT! Thanks so much guys for very kind words and for a very nice session! Hope we shall meet again some time soon!

Okay, so that was about the happy evening. What about the upset morning? Well, I guess you might have noticed that the upset part is not yet completely gone and its true, its not! Its still there, its very well there! I don’t get upset easily. It takes a lot for me to get upset. Its high unlikely that I would bother about things. I shall just ignore them. But  that doesn’t mean that I don’t bother at all. I do! And when I do, I get upset as well and not just a little but a lot! And I got so upset right in the morning just before I had to start the session. Though its not often that I would but I do get upset when I see people don’t realize what’s their mistakes are and yet think they are right! I get upset when I see people caring, bothering , trying only for what they want, without caring a second about anyone else! I get upset when I see people use the word “appreciate” for certain things which are way above the “appreciation” ! I get upset when I see comparisons been done without even realizing that some people and certain things are never meant to be compared! I do get upset at seeing all of this and much more as the list doesn’t ends just here! And like this, I was so upset in the morning! I was just fortunate that it was the last day of the session and I could finish it early as well because given the mental state I was into, I don’t know how I would I had finished it if it would be a full day for me!

I have another session starting here only next week. So I shall not be flying tonight. I have 2 days free but I have so much of work to do. Hope I shall be able to finish most of it. Its time to go back to hotel now before it would be so much traffic hitting on the roads!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Women Thinkers(By Peter Russells)….

Thanks to a stupid guy who asked a question but is not really ready to accept that he can be wrong too and also, not ready to listen what is being told to him, I am having a really upset mood at the moment. There is no coffee shop around, heck there is not even that coffee machine in this office too using which I could at least take a coffee. So overall, I am in a bad bad mood! And that’s certainly not good since I have a session starting in less than an hour from now. So I was just thinking what to do to make my mood go a little better. BTW, music didn’t help either. I had heard a very good song last night but  I didn’t want to hear it now because that song did make even the poet, Ahmed Faraz cry and I certainly didn’t want to have wet eyes right in the morning time. So the next best thing to music for me is comedy(yes its martial arts too but the situation’s demand was different here) . So I searched for some video by Peter Russell and I did find one such video. So here is that video which made me smile and would probably tell the reason of constant thinking of women.

 

Thanks Peter for a good laugh, it was really needed at this moment! Now back to life,where is that bloody ACFS?

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Red….

Well, that has nothing to do with the Red Bull or Red & White cigarettes or any other damn product which has Red in it. It is referring to my color of face at the moment which is red in anger! Don’t ask the reasons, I won’t mention here. Just thinking that why I am in a computer class at the moment and not in a martial-arts one where either I would had been kicking someone’s arse or would had made myself got some really brutal beating! Why? Because, that way I would had been cooled off! But have to face what’s there. I am in a computer, Oracle database class and I can’t do all that here. So better be quiet and just look for the day to get complete.   

Saturday, June 19, 2010

An Answer To Chain Mail Senders, Just Awesome….

I am pretty sure that you must have got mails from gals saying that she liked your profile and wants you to reply back(not sure if gals get it from guys too,anyone can confirm? ) with also mentioning that color and religion doesn’t matter or someone who would claim that he is son/daughter/servant/whatever of a very rich minister/millionaire/king of Nigeria and wants to transfer loads of cash in your account to safeguard it or someone saying that he/she has a sick son/daughter who needs to get medical attention and each forward mail would bring them one dollar/euro/yen/whatever! If the answer is yes, here is what a reply that you can send back to that person who has committed the sin to forward that mail to you! Please note, I am not saying that all the starters of such chain mails would be thug only. I mean, who knows someone might actually have got few millions transferred in his/her account or has find luck finding his/her love but since there is no way to prove or find it, let’s keep the bigger assumption and that’s is that all of such chain mails are forged only. So have a read of this reply and send it back. I just couldn’t stop laughing when I read it few minutes back in my mail :-) . I have done a little editing to it but 99% is kept as what it was when it first reached me. Have a read,

I want to thank all my friends and family who have forwarded chain letters to me in 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007 and 2008,2009 and continuing it in 2010 also.......

Because of your kindness:

* I stopped drinking Coca Cola after I found out that it's good for removing toilet stains.

* I stopped going to the movies for fear of sitting on a needle infected with AIDS.

* Forwarded hundreds of mails but still waiting for FREE DESKTOP, LAPTOP, CAMERA, CELLPHONE etc….

* I smell like a wet dog since I stopped using deodorants because they cause cancer...

* I don't leave my car in the parking lot or any other place and sometimes I even have to walk about 7 blocks for fear that someone will drug me with a perfume sample and try to rob me.

* I also stopped answering the phone for fear that they may ask me to dial a stupid number and then I get a phone bill with calls to Uganda, Pakistan, Singapore and Tokyo.

* I also stopped drinking anything out of a Can for fear that I will get sick from the rat faeces and urine.

* When I go to parties, I don't look at any girl, no matter how hot she is, for fear that she will take me to a hotel, drug me, then take my kidneys and leave me taking a nap in a bathtub full of ice.

* I also donated all my savings to the Amy Bruce account. A sick girl that was about to die in the hospital about 7,000 times.. (Poor girl! she's been 7 since 1993...)

* Still open to help somebody from Nigeria who wants to use my account to transfer his uncle's property of $ 100 million. So much trustworthy.

* I have forwarded 35 emails to 400 people hoping that Ericsson or Nokia will send me latest mobile phones but those models are also obsolete now.

* Made some Hundred wishes before forwarding those Ganesh, Tirupathi Balaji pics etc. Now most of those "Wishes" are already married (to someone else)

NOW IMPORTANT NOTE:

If you do not send this e-mail to at least 11,246 people in the next 10 seconds, a bird will Pee on your head today at 6:30pm.

Nothing has happened till now..................... but who knows. So please forward.

 

So how’s it?

A Day At Home, Priceless….

I got back home today morning. Though I shall be leaving tomorrow again for a long long travel but it just feels awesome to be at home. I am struck in some really grueling and tiring sessions from last couple of weeks. You can imagine how much things are tough that at times, I had a feeling to get out of the room leaving everything and everyone there only! But I can’t do it since its my work and its a challenge which I have to pass! And I can say with somewhat pride that I have managed to come out from those grueling sessions. Though the rating is not really that great( anything lesser than 95% is lesser for me, current is 90%)  but the comments were really good! So even though I am not truly satisfied, I shall live with it. Since I am in such sessions from quite some time now and would be in similar times for next couple of weeks too, the best place to revamp myself is home! I don’t know why, yesterday I had a very strong feeling of being lonely. All I wanted to do was to get back home as soon as possible! I am not sure why such feeling came but it was there and was very strong and I am back home today, feeling much better!

Another reason for getting back home was that I have couple of tasks to do which would be done only by me. There are some things which my mom is handling alone when I am not around and I don’t want it to happen. So I had to come back to make sure that I can take away some of her burden. Also, I am not sure whether its age or too much work, I am feeling so tired lately. I guess, age is not the reason( I am still not in the “oldies” category) but its too much of travel and much difficult sessions which are taking a lot of me! When such thing is there, being at home always helps.

I have couple of tasks to finish but I really really want to go and see The Karate Kid movie! If you know me, I am a martial-artist myself and I love martial-arts to death! The Karate Kid movie series is so good and the new one with Jackie Chan and Jade Smith, son of Will Smith, is really looking so good! Jackie needs no introduction when it comes to martial arts and he has made a very nice movie with Jade Smith. I must say, Jade has done better than all the previous karate kids of the older series! I guess the tag line used in the promotion, “a legend is reborn” , is completely true! I am too eager to watch it in theater since looking at the trailers, its a must watch in theater! Hope I can do it sometime in the coming weeks if I shall get some free time. I am listening at the moment the soundtrack of the movie, Remember the Name and I can’t stop listening to it! I am leaving you with the official trailer videos of it and the sound track. Have a happy weekend everyone!

Trailer video 1

 

Trailer video 2

And the official soundtrack(not a video, just the song is there),

 

Enjoy :-) !

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

And It Arrived Today….

Few days back, I posted a post about a short story and moment of happiness. This was the day, when I was awarded ACE award by Oracle Corp’s Oracle ACE program. Here is my ACE profile. Today, when I am sitting here at Banglore, my ACE award reached my home. I couldn’t resist having a look at it so asked my sister to take a picture of it and send it to me! Well,I must say, it looks bloody awesome! So here are few pics of my ACE award,

photo (3) photo (1) photo

And here is my ACE profile page’s snapshot!

Aman ACE

 

Its an amazing feeling to have this award, I must say! Read the above mentioned post if you are interested to know my journey to this point. I must say, I am really happy and having a feeling of proud that I am a part of such esteemed group. I shall be honest that I still don’t feel that I am worthy enough to be considered that great that I can be called an ACE! Its just so great to see that you are in those 280 names in this entire world who have got this award and I am the 2nd guy in India who has got this award for database and performance management division. Its just so overwhelming that I am in that elite club whose member list contains names like Jonathan Lewis, Tim Hall, Hans Forbrich, Francisco Munoz and many many more Gurus who are like the pillars and ideals within Oracle community. I stand nowhere in front of these gurus and all I can say, its just a matter of great pride that I too have been given the same award which these gems possess! Thank you so much Francisco for nominating me and thanks Oracle ACE program for considering me worthy enough to be awarded this award!

I am out of words to express how much it means to me and what I am feeling at the moment. All what I want now is to fly back to home and see it and touch it! Hope it happens soon!

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Finally, Back To Square….

Well, its the working week for me and I must tell you, whenever its a week in which I am having a session, the blues are much more what Monday can bring and those blues stay with me for the entire week. These blues turn into worries when I am taking a session at a partner location and the client is prestigious. The same kind of story got repeated this week too where both of these things came together. Now, there is nothing wrong in this that I am taking a session at a partner’s location and there is always a great thing to have a really reputed client but the worse happens when the partner fails to deliver what it has promised and due to this, the client is upset. I really tell you that this kind of situation is something in which only if you are , you would understand its seriousness! Unfortunately, I had to taste the bitterness( even for a short time) right in the start of the week!

What we do requires that we access some very sophisticated, Oracle database installed on some really kick-arse machines. Once done, we do use these machines for many demonstrations. Now if these machines are locally available, this whole process is a real fast thing but the issue is, some times, where these machines are, that’s not the same location where the session is going on and also, some times, we need to give machines to the delegates on an individual basis. For this, at times one room only doesn’t has all the required number. So what we do at that time,we switch to the partner site where these things are given to us with a very big challenge, now we lose the local access of the machines and have to access them remotely. And this, this is a real tough thing to do without having proper bandwidth for which we need to depend on the partner who must assure that they would provide it. They do promise to do so, but as like always, its not really that easy to keep up promises! That’s what happens all the time when I have a session at a partner location and this time, the same issue did arise. The partner was supposed to provide us high bandwidth which he mentioned he is doing, but somehow, it became insufficient for us. Due to this, the remote access became really painful for us. It doesn’t matter how is the access to me since I won’t be using it much but there must not be any issue for delegates. And somehow, almost all of them were facing this slowness. They asked me to check it with the local network guys which gave a recorded answer that they are checking it. Well, by this time, atmosphere was heated and things were not really looking good. There were calls being made and no satisfactory answer was coming from anywhere. Somehow, in all of this, the day passed! Did I mention, we were still on Monday, yeah the very first day of the session turned bad!

I got another promise from the network guys that they would sort out everything and would give us a dedicated line from Tuesday, yep today that means! I am not sure what they did since when I arrived, I asked for this and they told me that its done. When I asked them to show the bandwidth to me, it was far lesser what they claimed to be coming. Well, their reply was that the check which we were using is playing games.  Now its not an answer that I would buy but I did think to take it and started waiting for the guys to come who would actually use it and would verify that its now at their satisfaction levels or not. When the delegates, what was expected , did NOT happen! The bandwidth was not proper again and there was again a temperature rise in the room. It was just not for the bandwidth but also that out of the two air-conditioners , only one was working. Well, this was too much. So I decided to make a call my sales person. I guess he was already facing the heat so when I called him and tried to explain what’s happening, before that he stopped me and told that the venue is shifted now and we are supposed to move now to that building where the machines actually were placed. Cool! So in the lunch time, we finally moved to our own building and there, things became really better! Delegates looked happy and were smiling and reported no apparent issues or problems. Finally, we were back to square. I did have last week’s session in this very building only and now, after one and half day, I was back in the same room but only for good!

Its just 20 more minutes before Wednesday to say hello and in my culture, its a day which is supposed to be considered good for starting something. Well, the start is already done but I am still expecting that things would go and stay smooth. I am really not happy looking at my ratings and I so wish that it becomes better too. I am so tired and I actually slept but just woke up and thought to write this post. Now when its done, I guess I should sleep back! Nite nite!  

Saturday, June 05, 2010

Finally, A Day Without Tension But….

Yes, the last week has been  a real grueling one for me. I have been into the training business from quite some time now and some do consider me a little experienced one in it now and I have handled some of the most toughest sessions as well. Still, there is always a time when you do realize that what you have done already wasn’t really so tough as long as you are not presented with something more bigger, tougher than it! The same happened with me in the last session. Though the guys were really good, intelligent, I can surely categorize the session among the toughest ones which I have handled so far and may be, I can put it in top 2-3 places as well.

I have mixed feelings about the session if you ask me. I always believe that when there is a session, its the best when it involves the delegates completely and encourage them to get into discussions with me more and more. The more it happens, the more its clear that the delegates are in the session and are enjoying/learning the things. Also, I always get some questions or get into some discussions where some new things pop out and those are the things which are my take-away back to home. The more intelligent delegates are, the more better the discussion is and more rewarding its for me if not for anyone else. In this way, discussion is always some thing which I look forward to happen. On the other side, some times, in a long discussion, we may get deviated from the actual topic as well and this is very common to happen when the discussion is happening between only very few handful people and the rest are not participating much in it. In this kind of discussion, though there are useful things coming out, but they are probably limited to those few people only and that is something which I believe is not really that great. But sometimes, things are not in your complete control and you have to go with the flow, letting things happen on their own pace and just see where it would lead to. I had both of these experiences in the last session. I am not saying that either one is better or worse than the other but some times, its very tough to make draw the line as well.

Anyways, the session is over now and I am really glad that all the delegates gave very kind comments when they left. There were some topics which I had to do for them going out of the way even and I am really glad that they appreciated my effort and work both. I spent a lot of time preparing for those topics and it was really really hard for me to come back and do all this in the night after the session but somehow, I managed to do it and was able to share it effectively as well with the delegates. And after all of such hard work, when you see that your hard work is appreciated and accepted, nothing is more satisfying and rewarding than it. I am thankful to all the delegates that they gave me such a good time in the session and also made me learn couple of those things which I didn’t come across yet.

So today is an off day for me and I am in my hotel room, sitting on my bed, writing this post while on tv, Mr. (jerk) Reshamiya is trying to sing another new song of his own movie in his own (bad) voice with his own (bad) music playing in the backend. I wish I could just put a tape on his mouth for forever! I know its a real rude thing to do but I hate him for many reasons, singing is just one of those many reasons! So I can’t help it, sorry! Anyways, leaving Reshamiya apart(its useless to waste any bytes over him) , I have to finish my chapter for my book in this weekend. Its just a bad timing that the deadline of the submission of all the chapters is this month and in this very month only, I am busy like anything! I really want to go and have some walk outside, visit some malls of Banglore( yes, I have not been to any of them even when I am coming here from last 5 years) but I am afraid , I can’t do any of this but I would have to be caged in my room only and finish my work. Not sure that I can really say that its TGIF for me or not :-? !