Monday, August 31, 2009

Going Tomorrow With Tension Over The Head....

I am leaving tomorrow. There are 2 programs ahead which I need to take care of and after that, there are 2 other programs. As I mentioned in the last post, there are couple of stupid tensions over my head and I really am not sure that how would I perform in these programs of mine with those tensions? Let's see what happens. Hope all would go well. Pray for me guys that all would go fine and even the tensions would go away!

Random Ramblings....

I didn't write since I came back. I won't put here the reason that all I guess do, "I was busy". No, its not the correct reason in my case. I wasn't busy in anything. All I did was just nothing  and still I didn't write anything. Well, I did  write a small post on my oracle blog but that too wasn't really exciting for me. I didn't write because of this loneliness that I am feeling, which is not letting me do anything. I wanted to get some clothes for me, I left the idea. Now, there is a stupid tension that's there on my head and is killing me(no, its not about clothes). I am not sure why but I just don't feel like doing anything at the moment. One may think, if not doing anything than he must be sleeping.  Sadly, that's also not happening. I haven't slept in last couple of years for more than "few" hours(don't ask few=how many) and yesterday, when I did sleep for some time, a nightmare woke me up after which I couldn't sleep at all. And to this the tension thing that I just mentioned which means I won't be getting any sleep, at least a calm and relaxing one for sure. I want to have some time out for me and do some things just for myself, get some stuff and couple of things like this but I am not sure when it will happen? A not so good situation and condition I must say!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Back Home….

I got back home today morning. I am not sure but this time, I really was a bit desperate to come back home. Not sure why though? Anyways, so I am back home and the session is over. About the program, well, I can just say at the moment that its finished, how it went really, I am not sure? I am waiting for the official score to come which would take some time. As like in all of my programs, I try always my best to deliver and there was no difference this time as well. But still, there are times when the delegates are from a different stream and the content talks about an entirely different area of expertise and this, never is a good combination. The same happened this time as well. Though the guys , in the end , were smiling and did ask for my contact information, which is always a good sign if you ask me, but I am still eager to hear what they said about the program and surely about me as well. Let's see what comes up, hope it would be okay :-) .

I am just so much tired. Though I am learning how to take a nap in the flights( believe me, it took me 4 years to learn it and I am still in the first phase of learning only) , I couldn't sleep at all, not sure why. And there is no point of getting a sleep in the bus. So I am really sleepy at the moment. There are some tasks which I have to finish before I leave for the next program( which is coming very soon) so I need to get my self sorted out. So its time to catch a nap now, see you all after a sleep, if I would be lucky enough to get it ;-) .

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Time To Be On The Road Has Come(Again)....

I am leaving tomorrow morning. Its going to be a tough program even though when I have done it numerous times already. There is a lot of hue and cry that is there for Swine Flu here at my place and its actually becoming more and more scary with the passage of time. I just got a little better and now I shall be again at a place which is being caught up by this flu very rapidly. I just hope that everything remains fine, both with me and with the program. Pray for me guys and wish me luck, as like always, I need it so much!

Cries Of A Broken Heart Written With Truly Awesome Precision....

At times, some lines, some poetries depict truly what you are feeling. It doesn't happen very often though! I happened to be in a very bad and upsetting mood today and what I see in my mail, a friend forwarded a poem which  just left me standstill. If you have ever been hurt by your loved ones, ever it happened that love has hurt you, leaving you just a body without soul who appears to be alive but actually its dead, you would love it! Unfortunately, I don't know who is the writer of this poetry so I would urge if anyone knows, do let me know via comments and I shall put his/her name here because credit must go where its due! The actual poetry is a mix of Hindi and Urdu(which is not so good of mine). I shall put the English translation as well. First, in Hindi,

Ye kaun doob gaya aur ubhaar gaya mujh mein,
Yun kaun saaye ki suraat guzar gaya mujh mein!

Ye kis ke sog main shorida-haal phirta hun,
Wo kuan shakhs tha aisa k mar gaya mujh mein!

Ajab hawa-e-baharaa ne chara-saazi ki,
Wo zakhm jis ko na bharana tha bhar gaya mujh mein!

Wo aadmi ke jo pathhar sa jee raha hai abhi,
Jo aaina tha wo bikhar gaya mujh mein!

Misaal kya k wo jab bhi kareeb say guzara,
Yun laga k koi raqs kar gaya mujh main!

Wo saath tha to ajab dhuup chaaon rehti thi,
Bas ab to ek hi mausam thehar gaya mujh mein!

And here is the translation of it in English,

This is who who has sinked inside and reflecting in me?
Who is this who has touched me like a shadow!

In whose mourns I am lost and wandering desperate for love,
Who was that person inside me who is just dead now!

That person who appears to be alive  is like a stone now,
That mirror is broken now which used to be inside of mine!

What to say, when she walked beside me,
It felt that inside of mine started dancing!

When she was with me, this sunshine and shadow appeared like a magic,
Now just one weather only is there inside of mine!

I really have very strong feeling that I have done a terribly bad job in the translation. So if any corrections are there, please feel free to let them come. About the poem, I don't think I am capable to say any single word. If you have not tasted the pains of love yet, you may find it nothing. But if you have tasted the tears of your own eyes given not by anyone else but your love, I am sure you would like it! For  me, these lines have said it all,

Wo aadmi ke jo pathhar sa jee raha hai abhi, Jo aaina tha wo bikhar gaya mujh mein!

Hope you would like just as much as I did!

In A Real Bad Mood….

Yes, I am just totally pist off from some people and from their acts. I really am not sure why some people do completely insane things , act completely irresponsible and yet claim to be right. And some do completely wrong things which are bound to hurt others, they know their acts are hurting others, yet they just do whatever the heck they want and still claim that they are right giving their illogical logics. Not sure why and how one can do it? And worst is after doing everything just plain and clearly wrong, they think a simple sorry would be enough. Give me a break! Sorry is for those things when you unknowingly did some thing wrong, not when you did it within your complete senses. I really have no idea about how one can do all this and still claim him/her to be correct but yes, seeing it happening just make me really upset and I am very much upset at the moment!

My Shopping List....

Its been years I guess now since I have gone and done some real shopping for myself. I can count on fingers what I have bought since last 7 years. What's the reason? Well, there are couple of them and I certainly won't put them here. That doesn't mean that I have not been to shopping stores at all. I actually went many times but it was just not for me and for others. I still have my membership cards lying in my cupboard of those malls from where I used to buy so many gift items. And I still go do lots of shopping for my sis and few close ones. Still, I do have some things in my shopping list which I want to get. Not sure when I shall be doing it actually though but there is no harm in having a list isn't it :-) !

The very first thing is a bike. Are you saying, what, this guy has no bike! Well, yes I don't have one , I didn't buy one actually. One of my friends from Hyderabad just bought a new one and he (purposely) sent me his snap riding over it and needless to say, I was on fire looking him over that bike LOL. Well I am happy for him to be honest and I want one for me too. Let's see when but yes that's among the top priority things. Which one? Well, let it be a secret for the moment!Make it certain that its surely not going to be just any bike as Aman never does anything which is "ordinary". Okay okay that's probably a rather very big statement but I am sure you got the idea!

The second thing which I really want is to own a Macbook Pro. I always wanted to get one but when I bought the first laptop of mine, Apple didn't have a store in my city. I had to sell that though because I had to go somewhere and needed cash. I again bought another one but even at that time, Apple was there in my city. Well, it couldn't be long that they could survive without coming to the most happening city of India so finally, they are here now! And when I visited them last time they had the Mac books there. Almost all I know are on Mac. Apple is known for making things really classy and that's what I always look for as well, precision in anything that I do.

Now the next item is going to come as a complete turn around from what I have just mentioned. I am really getting interested about Microsoft's new operating system, Window 7. With a complete and utter failure with Vista(code name Waste :-) ) , they are really counting on it a lot and its looks promising as well. With lots of things being inspired from Apple and lots of junk being removed from Vista's code, this should be a good offering. Not sure though as that's what the same MS said when they released Vista, claiming it has that "wow" effect which actually is nothing but an "ouch" effect. Now this surely appears to be completely absurd that I am thinking to buy a copy of Windows 7 when I am planning to buy a notebook of Apple right  ? Well, that's me, its all I can say ;-) !

The next thing is again from Apple,any guesses? Yes, Apple's iPhone! But its some thing for which I am interested but not desperate. Me and Sidhu, whenever we chat, mention it almost always that how much good this device(mind it, I didn't say phone) is! But its still NOT a complete phone, at least not at the moment. It still lacks in so many basic things that at least I use too much ( no I am not talking about camera) and it has so many things which have no use for most of the people, I mean why the heck I would want to see on what IQ level I am( I was told by iPhone that I am among the most highest level IQ people) or want to shake a virtual glass of beer, a drink which I even don't drink! I mean come on, give me a break! But yes, as a device, for interface, for being a classy product, there is no and I really mean it, no match is there for iphone. But that's just not a very solid reason for me to shelve a truck full of cash to get this device. The kind of rate on which apple is releasing updates/new models of this phone, I guess, it would still take another 2-3 years before it would be actually be able to get called as a phone. But still, its there in my list and I am going to get it for sure.

That's all what I have gathered at the moment in my shopping list. Let's see now when I am going to get my hands over them, hope soon!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

My Very First White Paper....

I had always been asked why don't I write a white paper about Oracle? I am told that the I explain things in a simple manner and it would be good if I would write some thing simple which people can understand with less difficulty. Well, my reply always is for this question that I know nothing about Oracle so I can't write. But from past some time, I was asked couple of times to write on certain topics which I discuss many times in my sessions and delegates don't find them explained them very well either in the material or at other places as well. So I was asked to write about those topics. There are couple of them and I finally gathered some courage and tried to write a small white paper, my very first one! I yet have to see how it is received and for this reason, I have mentioned its version as 0.1. It would take couple of revisions before I make the number as 1.0. But I am really happy that I finally was able to write one. My statement still remains the same that I know nothing, it won't change with this but yes, I must admit , the feeling is great!

Oh I forgot, here is the link for the paper. Do read it even if you think Oracle means mp3 converter :-).

And I Just Smiled....

Did it happen with you some time that all you are doing is sitting in the worst mood that you can be into, with a totally upset mind, thanks to things that someone either did or said or both. You are so much upset and not liking anything. You are thinking/looking for some thing to cheer you up and all of  sudden you look at something which just brings a smile over your face, making you forget all the anger and cheering you up! Its not mandatory that you always have to see some thing to make you feel good, at times you just remember some thing that did happen which was either funny or was very good that makes you smile. And at times, its nothing but just few words that you had heard some time back which get you out of that mood. The same happened with me today when I was sitting completely turned off thinking about some things done and said by some people. To make things worse, some one wrote a nonsense line addressing to me over  OTN Forums just because I corrected him couple of times as he was wrong. I was so much upset and was just thinking what to do that can change my mood. And then all of a sudden, I remember some words that someone said about me few days back. Those words included even a line, "you are a great guy" , some thing which I really don't think I am worth of  being said but indeed it was said for me. And I know, it was not just said to make me happy but the person who said these words actually believed that's why he said it! Needless to say, it just brought an instant smile on my face. I won't mention here who said it but yes, the only reason I did smile today were those words and it just felt great!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Being Poetic Once Again....

Well, its just the title, I am not at all a poet. Yes , at times, just out of the blue moon, some thing gets written but that's really is not poetic in my opinion. It just happened today again that I wrote the following two lines thinking about some one and some things. After hearing some kind words from my friend Sidhu, I thought to put it over here as well. I know surely well that its not really that great but still, if you do like it, I would love to hear that( and even if you won't too, just being fair :-) )

Here comes first in Hindi,

Kuch haseen palon ki darkaar mein, kar to liya sauda-e-ishq,

Kise pata tha dard-e-dil tamam umar goya keemat bhi hai!

And here is its meaning in English,

Just in the wish of few good moments, I did fall in love,

Who could guess, it would give nothing but cries for the rest of the life!

 

As I said, I am not at all a poet, so excuse me if it didn't make ant sense for you. Very few know the why/what of the above written and its true meaning though. Hope its not too bad :-) .

Update

I guess yesterday was my lucky day as I got kind words for the above written from a legend himself. I wrote a post, Speechless few days back , depicting a poem written by Sukhdarshan Dhaliwal. If you haven’t read that yet, I would strongly suggest to read that post and the poem written over there. I got a comment from Mr. Sukhdarshan himself on my wordpress blog here. Fortunately, for the above post too, he posted his comments and mentioned that its not really that bad :-) . Needless to say, I am really happy that a legend said such kind words for my rambling. You can read his comment for the above post here.

 

Friday, August 14, 2009

And I Am Back....

I got back this morning. It was part bumpy, part smooth tour. Fortunately, it was smooth where it was supposed to be, for the program. The session went well I guess and all the delegates were happy. We had some very good discussions and had a great time. The delegates were very supportive, cooperative and keen to learn, all ingredients of a good and interesting session. I hope the delegates enjoyed the program the same as much I did. I had the pleasure to hear some very nice comments at the end from them for which I really am not worthy and just can say, I am really thankful for all of those kind words! Over all, a very nice program ended up nicely as well!

I thought that I would come back home on time but its always that when I think/plan something, it doesn't happen like that. When I got at the bus stand, I found the most biggest crowd present over there which was the largest from any time that I can recall from the past. When I tried to find the reason of this, a shocking revelation came that there were no buses which were going anywhere. Almost all the counters were either closed( which means, locked and closed) or were just empty with no one to answer that when the bus would come and when the tickets would be given for it? I spent an hour trying to find some solution of this shocking situation but nothing worked out. There was no one to help and all the passengers were just as clue less as I was :-) . So finally  I decided to use my traveling skills and I asked the conductor of a bus which was supposed to leave in next 30 minutes and requested him that I need to get back my home as I am not feeling well( which is true as well, I am not feeling well. For "what happened", keep on reading). So he agreed and asked me to sit and luckily I got a seat as well. Finally, at the scheduled time, bus started and I had a sigh of relief. Though I had a seat for me but due to rush there were many passengers who were standing as well. Just like them, there was an old person who was standing just besides my seat. Now, in my opinion, its a sheer shameless act that when an old person is standing, a young guy/gal should keep on sitting on his/her seat. Though the travel was going to take a very long time but still I decided to get up and offered my seat to that old person. He was really very happy and told me that now a days, this kind of thing doesn't happen. Well, all I said to him that I don't know about others but if I do this only all the time. He was very happy and after about 3 hours, he asked me to sit as well! It was tough to stand for a long time( I stood for about 5 hours) but still it was satisfying as well. Finally, I got back home this morning!

Okay so what happened to me? Well if you are reading this blog from some time, you would be aware that I am having fever from some time and its not going. I am not having very heavy coughing or sneezing or vomits or any other thing like this but still I am asked to go and get tested from the H1N1 Flu aka Swine Flu. I did go as well today but its a national holiday for today as well as for tomorrow and the next day is Sunday, so all the government hospitals, where this test is conducted are closed. So the nearest I would get tested would be Monday hopefully. Let's see what comes up? I have canceled a program of mine which was starting from this Monday for the very same reason. At this moment, when I am writing this up, I am feeling the fever. I just hope that I am fine and there wouldn't be any issues. Besides that I am just so much upset over some stupid logics and over some people as well. But at the moment, its time to have a cup of tea and listen to some cool music which would make me forget that I am having fever :-) .

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Who Would Do It....

I have just come back to my hotel. Things are partially okay and partially not. About being okay, the program is going okay for so far. There is not any major issue that we have faced except for one which happened today when one delegate lost his database and we never had any backup of it as well( its not a backup/recovery session). I still have to get it sorted out if I would be able to do so. Except that, I guess things are pretty much okay.

Now about not being okay things, well I am not okay :-) . I have fever and with all of this Swine Flu fear-factor spread around, I have been getting more worried. I am not sure that whether I do have it or not( I hope not) but I don't have those symptoms yet, like vomits, sneezing, too much coughing and so on. So not sure what's there? May be its just in my mind. I am having medicine for cold and fever daily though. Yup, I am wearing that "scary" mask as well :-) . So let's see what's going to happen? I need to get back and see where I can get the tests done as here in Banglore where I am, the hospitals have run out of the test kits and when the new ones would be coming, no one knows about it? So I need to wait for my return to get it sorted out some how? One of my friend was joking that who would clear the spams over my blogs if I shall die? Hmm now that's really a thing to think upon isn't it that who would do that if I won't be there tomorrow :-) ?

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Will Be On The Road Tomorrow....

Well,  I am sure those who are regulars would have guessed it already that I am going for my program tomorrow. I have mentioned already that I shall be leaving soon in the past here. There is just one change that now I am going for a different program for a different set of delegates and for a different(longer) duration. Hope everything would remain fine despite that my health is still not in its right state. Let's see what would happen with the program, I just hope that all goes well. I have couple of things lined up for me and this does include a very important project on which I have started working after initially saying no. That is taking a little too much time of mine and I am finding it tough, really tough in this state of health of mine. Anyways, you got to do what you got to do so can't be complaining. Hope the program goes fine. Pray for me guys :-) .

Speechless….

At times, you come across some thing which just shakes you and leaves you speechless! To do so, the writing must be really good and should be depicting the emotion, whatever it may be, really well. And there is no other emotion better than pain. And when the pain is not just any other pain but the pain that one gets from his/her beloved, there is just nothing which can match its intensity, its deepness. That pain, those cries, those tears which come in the eyes all of a sudden when you are sitting alone thinking about some painful words that were said to you by none other than your beloved, some things done by your beloved which did hurt you so much but he still did them despite knowing that they are hurting you, there are not many things or words, which can explain that pain truly. Yes all this and much much more is there which just can't be explained with any wording. But still, at times, some one writes such marvel which says it all and just not says it, but depicts a story which relates to someone somewhere so closely. I came across such a poetic masterpiece few days back and got spell bounded by it. Thanks to my friend, Amardeep who shared it with me.

These lines depict the pain of that heart broken guy who is saying these lines to his beloved who have left him and gone. Though she has given him nothing but pains, nothing but cries, still he loves and cares for her and is asking her to write back to him when she would feel that pain herself too.  The whole poetry is just mind blowing but it would need a lot to understand, feel the pain hidden behind the words. If you have not tasted those tears of pain, probably you may just read it like any other poetry and it would not make any difference for you. But if you have already been through (and still there) in those valleys of  pain, you would understand truly what these lines are saying. If these all doesn't make any sense for you, I would suggest to still read them again and again and I am sure, at some point, you would realize how much pain they are hiding within them? I have said a lot about the poetry but what about the writer? Well, only thing I know about the writer is his name, Sukhdarshan Dhaliwal. I have no other information about him. If anyone knows any website, blog of him, please put that info in the comments and I shall update the post.

I guess, its time now put that poetry here now about which I have said so much( and its worth it, mind it) . Its in Punjabi and I shall translate it in English too. Have a read first of the Punjabi version,

Bhulekhe naal je mein yaad aayaa taan likhee meinu
kite mehndi de rangaan ne jalaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Havaa de vaang mein vi ikk bhatkadaa khaab is tera,
kite is ne achaanak aa jagaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Nahin mildee muhabbat jadon lorh hundee hei is dee
kade ese tasuvar ne sataayaa taan likhee meinu!

Mein taan maaruthalaan dee ret daa hi ikk musafir haan
je meree peirh 'chon rukh punghar aayaa taan likhee meinu!

Barhe change see oh din khedade see ralke jad aapaan
kade is yaad ne tenu rulaayaa taan likhee meinu!

Je mein tere khyaalaan vich aje vee haan kite baakee
kade izhaar dil ne karnaa chahyaa taan likhee meinu!

Samen da har sitam manzorr hei "Darshan" nu ae yaaraa
magar je is ne tera dil dukhaayaa taan likhee meinu!

By: Sukhdarshan Dhaliwal

And here is its translation in English,

If by any chance, you would recall me, write to me,
If ever colors of Henna would burn you, write to me!

Like thin air, I was too just a stray dream of yours,
If some one would come and wake you up from that dream, write to me!

One doesn't get love when he needs it the most,
If ever this thought would come and trouble you, write to me!

I am just a lonely traveler over sands of deserts,
If ever some thing would grow that path I traveled, write to me!

Those were just the best days when we used to play together,
If ever that memory would hurt you, write to me!

If I am still alive in your thoughts some where,
And if you ever wish to express those thoughts, write to me!

I am ready to face any punishment given by the hands of this destiny,
But if it ever comes and hurts you, write to me!

I am not sure that how many of you would actually understand what is written. Its just so much deep! But I hope, even if some of you may not understand the "true" meaning of it, you would still like it. If I have done some mess up with the translation and you think, it needs to be corrected , feel free to post it under comments and I shall update it with proper accreditation. I am just speechless about each and every line written so without saying anything more, I am signing off. Hope you like it.

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Back,Only To Leave Again Very Soon....

I got back this morning. As I mentioned , it was supposed to be a short travel so I am back in just 2 days. This was probably the shortest travel that I had done so far in all these years. I shall be leaving again on this Sunday, again this won't be for a long time but still won't be as short as this tour was. Anyways , enough about the duration of the tours I guess :-) . The program went fine, at least I hope so. I have yet to see the official rating and as long as that doesn't come up well, I can't really be sure that the program was a success. But still, I could see the smiles on everyone's face and as I have mentioned couple of times before as well, when you are asked for your contact details, it means people did like what you said and how you said. So based on that criteria, I guess things went fine. The next program would be having some delegates who attended this program as well. Let's see what happens at that time? Oh , the delegates were just awesome, very supportive and enthusiastic, made the whole experience very lively! I just hope that they did get some thing from the program which would help them in their work and they enjoyed it.

I didn't do anything today except hearing songs. One reason for that was that today is Raksha Bandhan, an Indian festival symbolizing the love of brothers and sisters. So it was a great atmosphere today for the whole day at home. We did celebrate it in the evening as according to Indian astrologers, the time period for the tying the Rakhdi was best in the evening. I missed this for two years when I had to leave either on the same day or one day prior to it. I really didn't want the same to happen this time and I am just glad that I could come back today!

There is a lot of pending work for me. I need to finish a project which is due for next year. But I need to submit its parts on the scheduled timings and the first part is due for this month. I had finished the entire work already, but thanks to some things which did happen and made me really upset, I deleted it all. So now I had to redo everything and believe me, its not at all an easy task to do. Hope I shall not miss the deadline. But in order to not let that happen, a great deal of pressure has been there now.  Hope all goes well. Let's see!

Sunday, August 02, 2009

A Musical Journey….

It was a very good travel. Though I was very sleepy and very tired and yet I couldn't sleep because the bus was not comfortable at all, still I enjoyed the travel because  the driver was playing for all 7 hours and guess what, all were my favorite Punjabi songs :-) . So it was overall a fun this time. I started at about 9.30am in the morning fearing from the rain which came at about 8am without any prior notice. It was raining very heavily at that time and I didn't want to get wet at all. So as soon as rain stopped, I started. It was quite early for me to start as my flight is departing very late. Its still 2 hours from now when I am writing this. But still, it was okay. Because it rained, so the weather was pleasant and luckily I got a "musical" bus, so I can't really complain. I just had a south Indian Dosa as my lunch/brunch whatever you want to say it and now I shall be waiting for the flight. If it would come on the scheduled time, I would be having enough time to sleep and relax when I shall be at the guest house and I am really wishing that it would indeed come on time because I am feeling dead tired, thanks to my fever. Let's see what happens. Its time to grab a cup of coffee and wait for the flight :-) .

Saturday, August 01, 2009

A 'Short' Travel Starting From Tomorrow....

I am leaving tomorrow.  At the moment, with the current information that I have, its going to be a short travel but with me, things change instantly so can't be completely sure about it. Though I am not well but its important for me to go for two reasons. One, because its already committed. About second reason, I can't say anything here but that's even more important the committment. I can just say that words like, "compulsion" or "desperatation" if I use, they would not be in inappropriate.

The venue and the people , both would be new this time. Though I have already taken the module elsewhere, still there are butterflies in the stomach. Hope everything goes fine.  Pray for me guys and wish me luck, need it so much!

An Awesome Song By Carrie Underwood, I Told You So....

Its not very often that I would hear any other song except a Punjabi one. It takes a lot for a song to be liked by me even though it may be a Punjabi song or not. But at times, some songs are just awesome and when you hear them, they just steal you from yourself for the time being when they are being played. There is no better way to express any feeling except music.

I got a chance to hear one such song just 2 days back when a very close and special person referred it to me. I hadn't heard it before and neither did I hear about the singer as well but I am glad that I finally did hear it! Its sung by a lady singer, Carrie Underwood who won the 4th season of American Idol. The song's name is I Told You So. I liked it the moment I heard and since then, I am not sure how many times it has been repeatedly played. I am sure you are going to like it( or may already do ).  I shall post the lyrics of the song in a while. Firstly, here is the song over Youtube.



And here are the lyrics,

Suppose I called you up tonight
And told you that I love you
And suppose I said I wanna come back home
And suppose I cried and said I think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone
If I told you that I realize you're all I ever wanted
And it's killing me to be so far away
Would you tell me that you love me to
And when we cry together
Would you simply laugh at me and say

I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand
Would we get that old time feeling
Would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began
Would you tell me that you miss me too
And that you've been so lonely
And that you've waited for the day that I returned
And we live and love forever
And that I'm your one and only
Would you say the tables finally turn

Would you say I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again

Now I found someone new and you will never break my heart in two again!

I am not sure that should I write some thing( anything in fact) to express the song. I am choosing not to do it. Hope you enjoy and like the song as much as I did.

A "Sick" Day....

I was not sure what else to put as the title looking at the series of events happening so that's the best I could come up with me, so bear with me on that. I have just got back from hospital , sitting in the emergency ward where my friend Manjit was admitted. He had some medicine which didn't suit to his body and his breathing got almost stopped with swelling over the entire body. Immediately, his elder brother took him to the hospital where doctors admitted him in the emergency section. I got a call from his wife who herself got back today only from the very same hospital after a week, giving birth to her and Manjit's second son. I couldn't go and see her in the hospital for a reason which I would mention in a while. So I was saying that she called me being in tears and told that Manjit is in hospital and his condition is serious. I immediately rushed to the hospital. It took about 3 hours but thank  god, his condition got stabilized and now he is shifted to a private room where he would stay for next 2 days for further tests and checkup. It would be tough as his wife just gave birth to a son and he must be with her but there is nothing which can be done now, in any ways, these 2 days at least , he and his wife has to manage. Hope he would come back as soon as possible and be able to be with his family. I shall go and see him tomorrow morning again.

So why I couldn't go and see Manjit's son in the hospital? Well because I myself am having fever and don't have any strength to move an inch even. If I hadn't got a call from Jyoti(Manjit's wife) and that too being soaked in tears, I would had been sitting at home, sleeping. I am having very strong medicines at the moment because I would be traveling in next 2 days and that means I have to be fine ( at least try to be, if not completely be fine). Hope I shall be able to do the rigorous travel that is coming ahead. Also, this evening my sister, when came back from her office , told that she is also having fever. Not sure how did she catch it but she is not well too at the moment. 3 days back, there was some infection which was reported in my mother and now we are waiting for her tests to be done after medication. This is troubling me the most at the moment! I can't mention how much upset I am thinking about these tests and their results!

So I guess, "sick day" title really suits well and makes sense. Trust me when I say this, I hate hospitals and deceases. Only when you visit to hospital, it becomes apparent that how the whole world seems to be there and each and every person sitting there is having a feeling of fear over his face.  All have their nears and dears admitted over there and the very feeling of someone close to you being not well and admitted in the hospital ,is enough to make any one tremble. May god keep all in their best shapes of health so that they can be with their friends and families, enjoying happy times with them. Its really scary to be at hospital and that feeling becomes even more intense when you have some one your own inside that hospital :-(.