Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Travel Time....

Yes that time has come again. I shall be leaving tomorrow for a program which is already going on a very fast pace for different modules by some another persons. Lets see how things will go? Wish me luck and pray for me guys!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007


If you are working with Oracle than redo log files have a huge impact on the performance of the database. Its some times a huge pain how to attain an optimal size for the redo log files and the corresponding checkpointing and archiving frequency. One option is to find the redo generation rate of your database which is not so-easy option as it will keep on varying.  Second will be the sizing of the redo log files again which becomes a pain coz there is no rule of thumb( well 20minutes as per oracle) given for it. There is one parameter called Archive_lag_target which is described here in oracle docs. This is given mainly for the dataguard configurations but Howard Rodgers has given a very good explanation for using it on standalone databases too on oracle forums.  It was a good learning to know about it. Here are some links of discussion if you are interested.

How often should a database archive its logs

Redo log switch

Redo log size increase and performance

Learning never stops!

Truly Touching....

Some times, some wordings depict a true story. Those wordings touch you so deep inside that you can actually relate yourself to them. And if the matter is of love, if the matter is of broken hearts than that relation becomes more strong. Last whole night sitting on my pc , I was listening to this song sung by Romey Gill, Tutt Gaye Yarane. I don't like mostly the songs sung by him but this song and most importantly its lyrics are so fabulous that they kept me hooked all night. I shall explain the meaning of the song in English as the original song is in Punjabi. Listen the song and I am sure, even if you don't understand Punjabi, you will be able to feel the pain through the words of this song. Have a read:

Lutt ke mohbbatan nu kiti hear feri ve,

Tutt gaye yarane, jind fikran ne gheri ve!

Hanjuan de saagran vich jindagi di beri hai,

Dise na kinara koi maut aap hi saheri hai!

Chhadd gaye mallah kiti minnat batheri hai,

Tutt gaye yarane jind fikran ne gheri ve!

Sar gayi ee batti sade pyar de chirag di,

Mukk gaya tel, loh khind gayi vairag di!

Ronde aa patange nain wagdi haneri ve!

Tutt gaye yarane jind fikran ne gheri ve!

Teri tan "karam" guddi ambran ch khed di,

Bukkran de lokan sadi jind pairi red ti,

Sadi hun paini bas kabran di feri ve,

Tutt gaye yarane jind fikran ne gheri ve!


And the meaning in English is :

You have cheated me by deceiving me in love,

My love is lost and I am lost in pain!

In this ocean of tears, the boat of my life is sinking.

There is no way out and death is all which is left now!

The sailors have left this boat too despite so much of requests,

My love is lost and I am lost in pain!

Light of my love's torch is fading away,

Oil is finished for this light too!

Eyes are crying in pain and there is just storm ahead!

My love is lost and I am in so much pain!

Some people have made my life a joke,

All I am left to do is to go and get into my grave!

My love is lost and I am in so much pain!

It is so true when we say that love is the most beautiful gift that one can ge in his/her life. Those are so lucky who have a chance to taste love and get the embrace of their loved ones. It doesn't come to all. Some wait for their whole life but still they never find it. But one must remember this too, its not just finding love which is important. Its also as much important that when does find it, he/she should also care for it, make sure that he/she wont lost it. Its not so difficult to find love coz one doesn't need to do anything for finding it. Love will find you itself but remember to make it sure its there with you, your loved one is with you, its you and just you who have to do the efforts.  Yes love is a relation between two but we cant make some one else do some thing for us forcefully. All we can do is to make sure that we love him/her more than what is our best capability and do all the efforts possible to keep our love with us. If we are thinking that this is the job of the other person than the only person who will lose will be us because we left the responsibility of caring the most precious assets of our to some one else.  Now we cant complain. If it was so important , we must never had given this responsibility to anyone else. Care for your love, do what ever is possible to be with him/her.  Remember its not every day you will find some one who will love you truly and madly, who will bear all the pains for you and still will smile, who will travels miles, cross oceans, climb mountains just to see you for one moment!Its not everyday some one will love you!

As much as its true that love and true lovers are there. But a sad and rude fact is also there that there are some those who don't care about their love and leave them in between of the journey of love alone in the hands of time. That pain of being left alone, that pain of not been able to do anything and just to watch your love leaving you and going away can be understood by only those who have loved and lost it. That pain of waiting for hours to hear one word , just one, to see just for once that person and when tears are the only friend and you look for that person to come and wipe those tears, hide you in his/her hug, nothing is more painful than this fact that there is no one else responsible for those tears but that very person. People feel that if their loved one is there all the places for them , its a botheration for them forgetting this that if some one is caring for you, taking pain for you, he is bothered about you, he is not the biggest problem of your life but he is trying to take away that biggest problem that is making you sad and worried. But not all understand this. For some, promises and swears are meant for the time, if the time has changed than those promises must also change. If the times are not smooth than instead of being with their loved ones and hold their hand, they are the first one to leave them in the middle of the road to take their own path for their happiness. There is nothing wrong in thinking about your happiness, your own good but it is also possible that other person might have gave up everything just for your happiness, for your good and still didn't get 2 tender words even. Its very easy to say to some one that now there is nothing between us and I have nothing to do with you. Its very easy to turn and say to some one that I don't have time for your tears anymore but its not so easy to hear and bear it. Its really not! Its not easy to tell lies to the world, smile and pretend nothing happened when your heart is completely wounded and eyes are filled with tears all the time. Its not so easy to put a smile and say I am fine, its really not!

These are the lines said by a gal who loved and got her heart broken by her love only. Try to feel the pain that she is into through these words. These are in Punjabi,I shall explain the meaning of these lines in English too. Have a read:

Ishq mere nu najran laggian, kise najar na aa k utari ve!

Tere bina na hun koi chahat meri, par bas teri hi judai di maari ve!

Terian yaadan ne aisi haalat kiti, la ditti ik ajeeb bimari ve!

Din tan main hass hass k kattan, har raat ro ro k gujari ve!

Hun main ki dubara hai vassna, main tan apneyan di hathi ujari ve!

Reejhan merian tadpan laggian, main dukhan di agg bali ve!

Hanju meryan ne vain paye, main jad chahvan di chita sarri ve!

Dukhan de vash pai gayi sajna, de de k khushi udhari ve!

Mai sari dunian tan jitt laini is, par bas tere agge aa k haari ve!


And the meaning of these lines in English is:

Some one put a bad sight on my love,

And no one did anything for it too!

I loved no one else but you but I am dieing with the pain of your separation!

Your memories has made me mad,

I am sick for the life time with this wound!

Some how I pass my days with fake smiles,

But the nights are passed buried in just tears!

How can I go and settle down now anywhere,

When I am destroyed by my own people!

My wishes are crying now,

I am burning in the fire of pain!

My tears started crying too,

When I buried my desires and love!

Now I am lost in the city of pain,

I have no happiness left coz I have gave away all of mine!

I could have won this entire world,

But I am lost to no one else but just you!

I shall conclude by saying this only that love is not a joke,its not a matter of some time. Its so much tough to do. It gives you happiness but on the cost of  tears. It gives you smile but by looking your loved one smiling. Its the act of losing yourself completely and still being complete. If you are not ready to take this pain than may be love is not for you.  If all what you look for is your happiness, your wishes, your dreams, career than may be love is not some thing which you might need and want. Yes they say "fools fall in love" but remember its doesn't go this way.  Its actually "fools fail in love" thinking that love is some thing which can come to them anytime. They don't mind giving pain to their loved ones thinking that time will heal them. They don't think that when the glass is broken , its crackling sound goes so much far away but when the heart breaks, the sound is heard to only that person who has been ripped into pieces. Its so easy to give some one pain and leave but it takes a life time to learn how can one make some one smile? If you are in love, do what ever you have to make your loved one smile and happy. Don't miss a chance to tell them that you love them. Don't think that they are wasting your time by telling you that they are in love with you coz you have more important things to do. Don't give excuses for not being able to make up your promises coz promises ones broken doesn't need any excuses, logics. Hearts once broken are not cured anywhere. Don't ever and I mean EVER make your loved one cry and disrespect him/her because the heart who loves you,it wont be able to bear that pain that it is broken by no one else but by that person for whom all the heartbeats were devoted. Remember, you may meet millions in this journey of life time but you may never meet that loving heart again whom you broke into pieces. It is said that one doesn't know what they were missing till the time they don't get them and one doesn't understand the importance of some one till the time they don't lose them. Don't wait to lose and understand the importance of that some one special because may be that's the last mistake you would ever do. Time and words never come back and so is love!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Thoughs Of Wisdom....

Some times, there is always an another view of the most commonly occurring things. And that other view is always a little humorous. That's the same I read in the morning. It made me smile so I thought to share it with you all. Let me know how you find it? Have a read:

  • Whenever I find keys to success, some one changes the lock.
  • To error is human. To forgive is not "company policy".
  • The road to success? It is always "under construction".
  • Alchohal doesn't solve any problems. But if you think again, neither does milk.
  • In order to get a loan, you first need to prove that you don't need it.
  • All the desirable things in life are either illegal, expensive, fattening or belong to others.
  • Since light travels faster than sound, people appear brighter before you hear them speak.
  • Every one has a scheme of getting rich. Its just that it never works.
  • If at first you didn't succeed, remove all the evidences that you ever tried!
  • You can never determine that which side of the bread to butter. But if it falls down, it will always land on the buttered side.
  • Anything dropped over the floor will roll over to the most inaccessible corners.
  • 42.7% of all the statistics are made on the spot.
  • As soon as you mention some thing, if its good, its taken.  If its bad , it happens.
  • A golden rule,he who has the gold makes the rules.
  • If you come early bus is late. If you come late, bus is still late.
  • Once you bought some thing, you will find it sold half the price on ebay the next day.
  • When in the queue, the other line always moves faster and the person in front of you will have the most complex transactions.
  • If you have paper, you won't have pen. If you have pen you won't have paper. If you have both than no one calls.
  • If you have bunked the class, the professor has taken attendance.
  • You will pick up the maximum wrong numbers while in roaming.
  • The door bell or your mobile will always ring when you are in the washroom.
  • After a long wait for your number bus, two will come together and the bus in which you will get in will be more crowded than the other.
  • If its your exam tomorrow, there will  be a power cut tonight.
  • Irrespective of the direction of the wind, the smoke some how always finds its way to the face of the non-smoker.

So how was it?

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Celebration Time....

I never thought that I would write a blog myself ever. To be really honest, I really didn't know what is a blog actually till so long. Still even after reading others blogs for some time, I never could convince myself that I can write too ( and I really am sure about this that my writing is no where to be called good now too) so I was always a little reluctant about having my own blog. Than way back in September 2005, my first blog post on Blogger saw the sunshine. Again the color, theme all on the blog were picked coz of a reason and for a person. Than lot of things, people changed and I was like shaken from head to toe for some time( I am still not stable but trying my best to be) and there was a quietness over this space for nearly half a year till the time when I posted that I am still alive. A lot was going on at that time which was enough to make me distracted and disturbed over lots of things and people. At that time Wordpress also was picking up very fast so my Blogger's blog got a new twin at Wordpress and said hello to the world. As Tim said in one of the comments on Howard's post that writing is not some thing which should be taken as a motive to change this world.  Its you who is writing what you feel. I feel the same. Every one is having its own way to reflect his/her feelings.  Some paint their feelings, some give them a tune and some give their feelings a face by words. I am not at all a good writer but I hope some day I shall improve some what and write some good things  which still may not be able to change the world but will be enjoyed by most.  So even I am late in mentioning ( a month late) , still I guess I can say that its anniversary of this blog. These are my random thoughts reflecting my feelings in my words. I hope if you are reading this than you like it(if not much than a little is okay for me :). I have got some very nice comments so far. I thank all of you who said those nice words for the blog. I just hope you will keep coming back here!

11g For Windows....

Oracle has released its newest 11g database for windows platform. So if you were waiting for it ( and I am sure you were) than your wait is over. Now the only worry of mine is to get that much fast net connection which can download 1.7gb of Oracle for me in 10 minutes ;-).

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Wish I Too Could Had MEEP....

Tom Kyte posted about Doug Burns's MEEP post. Moans from Miracle is hosting this program for the sake of making better and knowledgeable Oracle professionals. I really like the concept and I really think Jan is lucky to get a chance to be in such kind of program. I am sure with all these people helping out him, he will surely do great! And I am just thinking that it would be really so much great if I ( and so many like me) too could have got a chance to be into such kind of a program when I was learning ( and still learning only) Oracle. Life would be really so much different I guess :)!

Sis Is All Over....

My sister who is a beautician, yesterday posed as a model for her company for the upcoming festival season's new bridal designs and make ups launched by her company. And her snap is published today  in the local newspaper. I wont say much except this that I am really proud on her and really happy for her. Congrats sis! Keep it up! You are the best!

Monday, October 22, 2007

A Shocking Post From HJR....

Howard Rodgers posted a question today on his blog asking that is it worth for him to carry on with the Forum? The same thought is meant for the blog and some where for the complete site too. I am not sure how many in Oracle community can differentiate between "quantity" and "quality" as with the passage of time, there are just now too many sites, forums and blogs talking about Oracle and claiming to be an expert in it. But there are just a few and I mean really very few who are truly good. I wont name any one as I shall for sure miss so many from it but yes I would say Tom Kyte, Tim Hall , Howard Rodgers, Tanel Poder and the list goes on and on and on, these are some those people who are genuinely good, really want to help people to learn Oracle and are there always to help for the most tough questions asked ( and some times very basic questions too). I am saying this coz I do ask myself some times very very basic questions and some times some sensible ones. There is a lot of stuff that is repeated over forums at times but still these all people never cease to help and are willing to answer and help always.  I really wont like to see this happen that HJR will shut down any part of the site. If you are an Oracle user/dba/developer at user/intermediate/expert level and are willing that a real quality web site for Oracle knowledge wont disappear, I would urge that post your vote at in the favor of keep it going.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Happy Vijayadashmi....

Today is Dussehra (Vijayadashmi) . In India, from this the festival season will begin. Dussehra is the festival of victory of good over evil. I wish and pray to God, all will have a very happy and prosperous year ahead and may God give you all his choicest blessings. Enjoy this day where ever you are with lots of sweets, crackers along with your family,loved and dear ones! Happy Dussehra to all of you!


Yes I am back. I don't know why but this trip was some thing which gave me a lot of troubles and tensions and that too right from the starting of it. Still some how I guess I am able to finish it up with a good note and that's what matters the most!

This time there was a change in the travel plan as my manager had to come along with me. So he called me up and said that I need not to take bus as he would take me with him to his place and from there we would go. It sounded right so I said okay for it. Well if you know me already( if you don't than you must know now) than you know that I just hate people who don't value commitment and also are not punctual. I never let that happen in my best powers possible that I never get late from the scheduled time and no one has to wait for me. And I think that's the same that everyone else should do too. But as it is said one cant get all from this world and not all are same.  The same applies to some people who don't really care about the time and commitment. So I was standing and waiting at the decided place since 9am as it was supposed to be 9.45am when he had to come and pick me up. Hmm I don't mind wait so I was standing calm there.  But I have a problem too.  I have a lot and I really mean it , ALOT of patience but once it is over than I am not so calm and this time it really did happen. What was supposed to be 9.45 became 11. And I don't like at all excuses. Do anything but please don't give me excuses, don't try to make me "understand" that why what which is wrong that you have done , I should accept it and say its right.  I cant and wont do that! But some times even though you do have so much anger still you cant say anything coz some other constraints do come in the front. And the same happened here too. So all I could do was to hear and sit quietly after hearing it.

So after all this, we some how managed to get to his place at about 12.45pm. All we were supposed to do was to have lunch, he had to take 3 suits for the program and we could leave. And I told that it would be better if we would leave at 2pm than we wont have any issues or worries. But again, what you decide its not bound to be complete when you have to take along some one else too. What was supposed to be a maximum one hour thing, it took 3 hours. And I had nothing in my hand except sitting and waiting. So we finished up everything and left at about 3pm for Delhi to catch our flight. Ours was the common flight. It would take about 4 hours normally from his place to Delhi so I thought its still not so bad. The flight was supposed to be at 8.10pm so I thought we can make it still. Only later I was going to know that expecting some thing before it happens is not a right thing to do. Well you can expect what I would had felt when I saw that it was 7.45pm and we just got at the airport. Great isn't it? Well it became more better when we were told that we cant board as it was already so late. By so much requests some how crew allowed but than they started making a fuss that my baggage is too much big. And I had to hear that why the heck did I carry such a bag! Hmm only if I knew that I would get at the airport 15 minutes before the scheduled time, I would had taken a small one but alas I didn't have any intuitions or 6th sense of that. Some how, we got the permission and we finally boarded. This was not the trouble's ending. When we got down , the terminal arrival bus got skid over some stones and all passengers had to walk to the arrival hall. Cool isn't it? When we left for the guest house than I came to know that I am put up in that guest house which I hate the most! Aah joys of travel are too much some times!

Well if this was the case only, I was okay with it. When in the morning, I started my program, after about 2 hours I came to know the installation was not correct. And after checking out I found out of 16 machines, only 2 were properly installed and rest all required reinstallation.  Too much for joy isn't it? Well I told the person responsible that he needs to take care of this immediately.  He also did that and made it sure that in the evening all the machines were up and ready for the next day. Some how the second day came and machines were working. Only problem was now they were not in the network and we needed to download some demo files over them. So we needed to bring them in the network. Well not too much of a task and I did that. Everything was great till the evening at 5pm when I came to know that Oracle crashed on all the machines instantly with ORA-0600.I don't think anyone would like to see that when he is about to wind up nice and sweet, I knew the error and also the remedy for it.  But I don't know what was wrong with me at that time that I couldn't do it.  Even after trying for 3 hours I couldn't do anything and I just gave up everything. I was so much pist off over so many things and people. I decided that I shall tell the person who takes care of setups to fix everything in the morning and I left for the day. I was so much angry and upset! What else can you ask for to call a day a bad day? Did I mention that in all this while ( and now too) , I was not fine too and was suffering from cold,cough and fever(which is still right there in full swing)?

Well I decided to came up early in the morning and try one more time with a much calm and focussed manner. With God's grace,I removed the error. I was happy for 2 reasons.  First that I now wont have a need to tell a disaster news to some one right in the morning and second that I corrected the issue! Well it was the last day of the program.  Everything went smooth.  We finished up properly and also with a good note and smile on everyone's face.

While coming back, I was not alone again and was with the same person again :-). Things were going in the same track and went too. But we did pass time talking and discussing so many things and some how passed the entire travel.

So the most important thing, my program , it did went well and as I did it for the people who actually "make the technology", its a nice feeling. Now health is little shaky.  Lets see when it will be fine.  Hope soon!

Monday, October 15, 2007

Travel Time....

Yes I shall be leaving tomorrow for a very tough program. Though I had taken up this program already but all the time, it appears as a new and first time program. To add spice, I am doing it for some people who actually build the stuff than use it. Great! Lets see how it goes.  Pray for me guys!

Sunday, October 14, 2007

How "Bad" You Are....

Yes you read it right. That's what I asked how bad you are but here the good and bad are not for humanly nature but for how good/bad you think you are in your work. Tom Kyte wrote about this very interesting article which is saying exactly the same thing. I am in complete agreement with what ever is written there. To be really really good in some thing, one must always remember that there is just a little that he/she knows at the moment and learning never stops. That's why I believe that As our circle of knowledge expands, so does the circumference of darkness surrounding it. There will be always so much to learn and understand. The day when one starts thinking that he/she knows too much, from that point onwards, his/ her decay starts. A very nice and must read article!

Encounter With ORA-00600

In one of my last programs, we had to be face to face with ORA-00600. Well its not a nice error message to see and that too when you had least expected it.  So what happened? Well our machines were not in the network. We didn't need the network too so we didn't bother.  In one of the discussions, there was a requirement that asked for network to be up. Those were Linux machines and students didn't know how to enable network over there. Well I know a little about Linux so I did make it enable and also enabled the use of DHCP . Nothing seems to be wrong, network was up, internet also came up and Oracle was working fine. I would mention here that our /etc/hosts file was empty as the host information was not required and was picked up by DHCP. After one scenario, we needed to bounce the database. After instance startup, we were greeted with ora-00600[keltnfy-ldmInit],[46],[1]. Well ora-00600 is an internal error ( as it is told in the description also) and the time it comes, its always suggested to contact support to find the cause and remedy for it. The problem was I couldn't call support for me and the other solution was to re-install all the machines. Well I did read some where that all the codes of ora-00600 doesn't mean that oracle needs to be contacted to rectify it. So I opened that document and found that this error code that came to us is Oracle's way of saying that it couldn't find the information of the host on which it was sitting. So it stopped the mounting of the database. So the solution was that we edited the /etc/hosts file and entered the host information with host name as "local host" and the IP address that we were getting at that time. As the machines wouldn't be rebooted so it was safe to enter that value. Tried starting oracle and voila! We were back in the business!It was a good feeling to get rid of an ora-00600. But just to be clear, I am no-way-at-all an Oracle expert. Yes I learned one thing, if one knows about some thing and uses that information at the right time and place, most of the things are manageable. So at least for once, we won over ora-00600 ;-)!

Officially 10g Certified....

Yesterday I received my success kit for clearing my Oracle 10g certification after about 4 months. Me and another friend of mine, Raghbir used to sit and joke around that Oracle forgot to send us our certificates even after its so long that we have written our exams coz of everyone at Oracle is busy celebrating 11g's launch parties and function :-). Well not exactly but the same kinda response I got from Oracle that they were busy and also systems who are responsible for the certificate dispatch were facing problems.  Cool!Well finally I have received my certificate.  There is not much difference in the 9i and this one.  Yes I like my card this time so much! So world, I am officially 10g certified now! And now time to look for 11g!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I Am....Back!

:) Yes I am back at home.  It was a tough program and it took a lot from my side to prepare and deliver it. I yet have to hear the official outcome of how I performed for which I am crossing my fingers but the verbal response was good.  So I have a positive hope.  Rest lets see what happens and comes in front.

This was among the toughest and hardest programs and as I didn't get much time, it became really hard for me to prepare. Though I did prepare from books and spent so much time on searching and reading things from Google.But there are two people who really helped me so much on some of the toughest topics.  Without their help and guidance, I don't know how would I had covered those topics? These people are Tim Hall  and Howard Rodger. I must say that its not important to know everything but what's important is to make others understand and help them. And these 2 persons ( and all the other great persons whose names I am not mentioning here) are doing so much great in it! Saying thanks is not enough but that's all I can say.  Thanks so much Tim sir and Howard sir!

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Hotmail & Coolhotmail....

Hotmail is among the oldest and most popular free email sites which are doing a great work. Since the time , Microsoft has bought it and with the new enhancement done, its really is much improved and stable. But now there is one more advertisement on the air which says that you are lost between the similar type of domains given to you for your personal mail id. Everyone is unique and the mail domain should reflect you. That's an another thing if you have your domain and you maintain your own web site. Well all wont have( and wont need too) so for that purpose, to give you an identity of your choice, Microsoft has now introduced Coolhotmail which will give you choice to pick your domain name which suits you and your personality. Cool thought I guess! So just go and check which domain suits you and pick that to get an email id which is just about you.  Did I pick one for me?Well yes I did and I am leaving it as a guess for you to find out what I would have picked for me ;-)! Prize for guessing? Well you will get an email from me from the domain saying congratulations you were right and you will be among those very few who would come to know this email id of mine :-). Nice right! So keep guessing and hope you find what describes you in Coolmail.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

A Short Story....

I just read this one in the mail and couldn't stop myself from sharing it here. Some times, even in few words, a lot is said and that's what this story says. Have a read:

Once there was a boy. He always dreamed to be in love and be with that lady who would be his love of life. He never knew what it is to be in love but he always thought it would be the best thing that can happen to anyone. And as they say, if you wish for some thing truly it will come to you. He did fell in love(at least that's what he thought). He loved his lady more than anything else and thanked God that finally he has got what he always dreamed of. But there was some thing else that was written for him. One fine day, his love left him saying that she never loved him. And since that day he just used to sit and cry. One day, one of his friend said to him that he shouldn't be sad. It happens. The guy replied that tears come not coz of his pain but its for his love coz he has lost the one who never loved him but she has lost the one who only loved her.

And thinking about this , there are some lines which come to my mind always. These are from one of the best and most famous Punjabi Sufi poets, Baba Fareed. These lines depict the pain of that lover who got hurt by none other else but his love only. They are in Punjabi. I shall explain their meaning in English in a while. Have a read:

Ve kasam khuda di tun sanu pyara laggen,

Te tu na kar jor dhigane!

Nange pinde sade maare shammkan,

Te mere ronde ne nain nimane!

Jinnian tan mere te laggian,

Tere ik vi lagge tan tun jane!

Gulam farida dil othe dayie,

Ve jithe agla kadar v jane!

And their meaning in English is :

I love you from my heart truly,

Please don't hurt me like this!

Dont smack me on my naked body,

And give me just tears in my eyes!

As much wounds I have taken and the pain I am in,

When you will get just one even than you will come to know!

Gulam Farida, give your love at that place only,

Where some one at least understands what love is and respects it!

I shall conclude by saying this only that pain and pleasure both are there with love. Love sets one free but this is love only which makes one bounded. Love is the only thing which brings this whole world's joys to one but this is love only who also gives pains for the life time. Yes it is love only which will make you feel that now you are not alone and have some one with you in all the times but it is love only whose pain will force you to be alone coz there wont be nothing left with you after getting hurt in love. I have said it before too, love is not a road full of roses but its an ocean of fire and one has to swim through it to get to the other end. Its very easy to say to some one that you love him/her. Its not very difficult to make that person believe in you too. But the real test in love comes in front of you when you have to stand with your love and that too when no one else can take your place. And if that time , one backs off than there is no thing which can be said and done to prove that he/she really loved some one. Love is not receiving but giving. Yes giving even if you never will get anything from your love but still giving coz that's the all you can do, you cant force some one to love you, cant make some one to be with you. But remember , if you are among those who are just there to receive only and have planned to back off when your love would call you to be with him than mind my words, there will be one day when you will come to know that this was the worst you could do to some one. Its very easy to say that you are sorry but remember only that face knows how it felt when it was slapped! Only that face knows how much was the pain and how much was the insult. That hand will never come to close even to imagine how it feels to be slapped. Yes love is hard, love is tough.  But that's what it is. If you don't have those guts to be with your love than you have no right to be in love too coz love is not run away when you are needed. Love is to stand right there and give your head on the front in place of your love and happily give away your self for the sake of him. Love is not look for your prestige and pride. As it is said, Ishq nachaye jis nu yaar, oh fir nache vich bazar. means that when some one is in love, she/he will dance on the road too for his love. Not because she doesn't have any shame but because she is not caring about anybody else anymore.  Its just his love who is in her eyes and heart and with that pleasure , she/he is not bothered where is she/he.  If you are thinking that this is madness than my friend, that's what love is all about.  You need to be mad to fall in love and you need to be crazy to stay in it. But if you are more worried what will happen to you or you are more scared and worried about your pride and reputation or what you get or lose after being in love than I guess love is not some thing which you should think about. If that makes you more worried that being with your love will embarrasse you than you are not supposed to be in love because love is not feeling ashamed coz you are in love but feel proud that you have got the best gift that a human can get and that is some one who loves you. Love is the matter of hearts not the minds and only mind warns you that you are looking like a fool dancing on road. Heart wont ever say coz it knows that in it , its that some one special whom you love and in front of that person, this whole world too is nothing! Never lose any chance to give even the smallest happiness to your love and never even in dreams too, hurt your love. Always remember, it always hurt much more when some one gets hurt by his/her own love and remember this, in those times, sorries , reasons and excuses wont do any healing.Remeber sorry doesn't make dead alive!

Friday, October 05, 2007

I Am....Not Back!

:) Yes I am not still back. I was supposed to be back today to home but some how I am told that a new assignment is there and there was no way to change its date.  Well there is no problem but just one issue is there that this is going to be among the toughest assignments that I have taken up till now. And to spice up things a little more, I have 2 days only to prepare myself for it. Great! What else I could ask for? Lets see how it goes now? Wish me luck guys. I really need your wishes!

Monday, October 01, 2007

Travel Time....

Yes I am leaving tomorrow for a tough program. This is one of those programs which are short in duration but they are much harder than any other program. I hope I shall be able to make it go fine. Lets see what happens.  Wish me luck guys!

Not Happy....

Yes I am not.  I am certainly not. As I said in my last post,  I am so much upset over certain things that has taken place and over some people. I am not sure where and how things are turning? I have faced the consequences of some mistakes that I did in my past and for which I am made to pay a heavy price. I have got two worst comments that I could possibly get from anyone. No they are not from my program candidates. One came from a friend and the other from a professional with whom I had a talk for 10 minutes some thing. I am told that I don't know anything about Oracle. Well I never claimed to be a guru in it but I did think that I do know one thing or two about it. Just because I don't work in a specific environment and about which I don't know anything coz that's not my day to day environment of working, does it mean that I don't know "anything" about Oracle? Hmm well I guess its always wrong to give excuses for anything so I wont give anymore excuses now. I know what I have to do and I shall do that for sure. I shall make sure that I shall be hearing that I do "know" databases.  About what my friend said to me, I guess I cant do anything about it now.  As I said, I need to learn some lessons and I need to learn them quickly. I shall try to listen some songs now as that's the only possible way I can think to distract me from all these thoughts. Tomorrow is my time to travel and traveling and my work requires me to be in my senses. Hope I shall be!